Chapter 4: On the Roof
Kitty was concerned when half an hour had passed and Rogue had not returned to her, so she went off in search of Rogue and Remy, sick of standing on her own.
She eventually did find Remy, sitting alone at a back table, a beer in front of him, he looked worried and upset, and distant. "Oh, there you are…" Kitty stated loudly over the music, she looked at him, "Where's Rogue?"
Remy looked at Kitty curiously, "Did Rogue not return to you? She left me sitting here twenty minutes ago…"
"Shit," Kitty groaned. "What have you said to her now?! Jesus, every time you get NEAR her, you like, totally fuck her up, and upset her!" she frowned.
"What are you talking about now?" Remy asked, he rubbed his head as if he were suffering a headache.
Kitty sat down, "what happened?"
"I tried to apologise, I asked for forgiveness…" Remy sighed, he looked down at the table, "she ain't havin' none of it. She's so stubborn sometimes," He looked at his bare hands distantly.
"What…did you do?" Kitty sat down slowly, "I mean I know something happened last Friday or Saturday, that was when…I mean…" Kitty tried to get the words out, "Remy, did you hurt her?"
"Yes, I did," Remy looked away from Kitty, "I lied to her, I withheld information from her…made her trust me then…let her down…" he sighed.
"No, that's not an answer, that's being vague, what the FUCK did you do to her, LeBeau!?" Kitty demanded, "That girl is screwed up, she's just spent almost a week in the fucking hospital wing with a mild breakdown, and I KNOW its like, because of you!" Kitty's anger was swelling inside of her, "Now tell me what you did!"
"Before I joined the X-Men, I was an Acolyte, you knew this, I conned Miss Marvel into believing I loved her so she'd join Magneto – I did not know at the time Magneto intended Miss Marvel to be a sacrifice to Rogue so Rogue could gain her powers," Remy explained, "I did not find out until after the events had passed, and when I confronted Magneto about it, everything blew up in my face, this is how I got injured," he motioned to his chest, even though Kitty could not see through the black t-shirt, she knew there was a very evident stab wound there. "Rogue found out – and when she did, she asked me to leave…"
"Jesus Christ!" Kitty stood up, "since that night she's been fucked up and you knew all that stuff and never told her!"
"Please, calm down," Remy pleaded.
"I will not!" Kitty frowned, "that girl happens to be my room-mate, and my best friend and she was FINE until you came into her life, and now that you are in her life, nothing is the same, and you just better find a way to fix it or I'm going to the professor to tell him what you did, and after that you'll NEVER be allowed back into the X-Men!"
"Your professor knows," Remy stated, "he agreed we should not tell Rogue until she had adjusted to her powers and having Carol's persona in her head."
"Does Rogue even KNOW that he knows this?" Kitty demanded, she figured that Rogue would be thoroughly devastated to find out Professor Xavier knew this all along.
"I am unsure," Remy stated.
"Y'know what, you better find her and you better get on your fucking knees and BEG for forgiveness, grovel and humiliate yourself in front of her, because its no more than you deserve, and if she never forgives you, its your own fault. God, I feel so stupid for even telling her to go out with you!" Kitty walked away brooding.
Remy remained seated for a moment, then got up, intent on finding Rogue.
It was almost another half hour later when he found Rogue on the roof, she was sitting on a railing, on the edge of the large building that overlooked the whole of Greer Street. He walked over, "Chere?"
Rogue cringed hearing his name, "don't call me that."
Remy walked over slowly and climbed onto the railing of the edge of the building and sat beside her. "Kitty spoke with me," he stated, "I…told her the truth."
"More than you told me," Rogue looked away, "I had to find it out for myself. What'd Kitty do to be in your favour."
"She was concerned about you," Remy stated, "I'm concerned about you," he looked at her, "I do love you, you know."
"Don't say that!" Rogue turned and looked at him, "don't think you can come back into my life and make everything alright by saying the right words, nothing will make it right."
Remy took off the sunglasses he had been wearing up until now. "What do you want me to say?"
"What can you say?" Rogue demanded, "What can you POSSIBLY say that will make me want to forgive you. 'I love you' isn't going to do it, Remy, so you might as well give it up."
Remy sat quiet for a moment, "Remember the first time we met, Chere?"
Rogue was silent. Did he honestly believe that a stroll down memory lane would gain her forgiveness?
"We saw each other and our eyes were locked, and even then I remember thinking 'oh my god, she's amazing'."
Rogue winced, why did it sound like lies?
"My heart stopped the moment I saw you…I've never felt anything like that, not with any girl I been with, and I've been with many."
"Just out of curiosity," Rogue began, "Just how many girls…have you…been with?"
Remy looked at her, "you really want to know?"
"I need to know, I just wanna know how much of a man-whore you are," Rogue folded her arms.
Remy paused for a moment, lets see, I was…fifteen when I was first with a girl, that was Bella Donna, then with some random girl at a party, then Genevieve, then Melissa, then some other girl I met who's name I forgot…then with—"
Rogue put her hand up, "stop. You slept with them all?"
"Yes."
"So you admit you're like a total sex fiend."
"I won't lie, I like sex…yeah," he shrugged, "what guy doesn't?"
"So why should I believe I'm going to be any different from those other girls you've been with?" Rogue looked at him, "Like Bella Donna, who you slept with and convinced you loved and are now engaged to and don't want to be engaged to."
"Rogue, please," Remy rolled his eyes, "I was a fifteen year old just looking for a way to get laid."
"And when I met you I was a fifteen year old just looking for someone who I could trust," Rogue stated.
"So?" Remy asked. "What's your point?" he asked, realising there had to be a point to it all.
"We both made major mistakes…mistakes that can't be undone…ever," She climbed off the railing and went to head back to the trap door leading into the nightclub.
"No, you're wrong," he got up and followed her, "Mistakes can be corrected. Or you can always try again if you fail the first time," he looked at her.
"But that isn't going to happen with us, because I'm not about to take another chance with you just to find out I made another mistake," she stated, "bye, Remy."
Remy gave a sigh, deciding that it could not be over yet.
When Rogue arrived back down into the nightclub, she located Kitty standing against a wall, she approached, "sorry I was away for so long."
"Rogue, I just wanna say I'm sorry," Kitty looked at Rogue guiltily. "I'm sorry I told you to go out with that stupid jerk, I'm sorry that he lied to you and I'm sorry I made you come tonight," Kitty looked at her.
"Its not your fault, its mine, I shouldn't have ever trusted Remy LeBeau in the first place," Rogue decided, "but lets not worry about it now, we're here to have a good time, so lets have a good time…"
"Alright," Kitty smiled a little.
