The Harry Potter Diary

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Authors note: I most definitely do not own Any character from Harry potter or the story, all I really own is the idea (wow, no freaking d'oh!) of getting into Harry's head and write out what he is thinking. which coming from someone like me is probably wrong. ah well, deal with it ^^

Also, this is what I think is going to happen on Harry's summer after his 5th year of school, which means its most likely to contain SPOILERS (in caps so the people who skip this see it, heh. I'm just so clever.) since he IS going to write out his feelings towards what has happened. if you know what I mean. if not, read the book, I don't want to spoil it for you. ;)

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1st entry:

I don't know how I feel, its has only been yesterday that I arrived from the Hogwarts express, every thing is happening to sudden and quick, feels like yesterday that I started my 5th year. feels like yesterday since Sirius was looking at me through the fire in the common room. seems like yesterday since. since. he was still alive. I can still feel like he is there, waiting for me to send him a letter, I can still feel that one arm hug he gave me before going back to Hogwarts. I miss him, he was the only thing I had left, after my parents died I always thought the only thing I had left were the Dursleys, and then, he showed up.

I don't think I can continue writing about this. I'm going to go get some rest.

2nd entry (the next day)

I wrote a letter to Tonks mad Eye and Lupin this morning, I hope they get it. they told me to write every 3 days. got a letter from Ron last night, he says he is fine, The Order is looking for a place to get together and discuss the situation going on that Voldemort is back. I wonder how life might have been if he hadn't chosen me. how would it be if he chose Neville. would my parents still be alive? Would Sirius still be alive? I would have been happy, I would have never met the Durselys though (oh what a tragedy that might have been, right?) I would have carried a normal life perhaps. I wish he hadn't. I never liked the attention, not only that, but guess who is the only person who is able to kill him?. ME! No, it can't be Dumbledore or any other experienced wizard, but Harry. Harry this, Harry that, HARRY EVERYTHING! Well you know what, I give up. I don't care anymore, there is no one in this world for me, and if there is, it probably will just end in some kind of twisted tragedy.

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I think I just scarred Hedwig, Hermy (sorry, but how could you forget that?) told me I need to control my anger. I can't. you know, its not THAT easy keeping yourself sane while you know someone is out there to get you. adding to that, he has followers who are also out there to get you, everyone in your family is dead except for your aunt, uncle and cousin who are wishing you had a sudden death so they could get rid of you. do you have any idea how utterly hard this is??? NO! because you've never experienced. maybe getting a journal wasn't a good idea. its just making my anger grow.

Review if you like what you read, I promise that it will get more interesting, this is just a warm-up. or a lazy excuse to the fact that I´ll never be a writer. either way, review, it makes my ego happy! ^^;