Abandoned Love

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Chapter 4:

                 Emotions

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Author? Mika-san

Beta-reader? Kimmi-chan

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Welpz…. I reallie got nothing to say, this chapter took long because I had no clue what I should write…. But! Finally! Tanx to a couple of people, I finally got an idea……

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    Everything was going her way. She was going to a party with the most wonderful guy, and she was happy. For some reason this emotion of happiness was so new to her, like it usually never happened. Like she was always, sad, or confused… but, this time, she had everything she ever wanted, even her past memories could not ruin this day for her.

        …………..little did she know… this evening would end in tears and blood………

    It was 5:00pm and Serena still didn't have a dress!! I mean, she hardly had any clothes. Now it was time to panic. Walking back and forth in her room , over and over again thinking what she should wear, what colour?, what kind of shoes? Black ? or white? Or niether?

     She burst into tears, her loud wailing could be heard all through the enormous house. Andrew ran in.

    "Serena!, what the hell is wrong? Are you okay?!" he yelled over her crying.

     *sniff* "Sorry Andrew" she whispered, 'its just, I DON"T HAVE ANYTHING TO WHERE TO A BALL" and she started crying again. It was like a world record! No one could cry louder!

     A small smile appeared on Andrew's face. "Let me show you something" He gave Serena his hand and she took it. A warmth spread all over her, not like the way she felt with Darien, but in a way that she knew Andrew would always protect her and be there for her.

     He lead her to a room. There was nothing in this room except a closet for clothes. The walls were painted a strawberry red and stars could be seen appearing in the sky through the glass window. Andrew guided Serena towards the closet.

"Open it" he whispered in her ear, sending chills down her spine. It just didn't feel right for him to be so close to her. I mean, andrew DID have a girlfriend, and Serena was SORT OF going out with Darien. She slowly  took the wooden handle and opened the closet door. It creaked like it hadn't been opened for many years. Inside was –

"Oh my god Andrew, its beautiful…"

 It was a pure white dress with gold lining. The sight of the dress by itself could intrance you.

"The dance is a costume party, " Andrew said looking down at his feet. "You can be a princess, I mean… you already look it and everything"

Serena blushed. She could never remember the last time someone told her she was beautiful, or a princess, or… anything that was good. Why though? Why did all her memories bring her sorrow?

"Thank you Andrew," she said politely. They were close, too close, it made Serena uncomfortable, their lips only a little apart from eachother. Serena suddenly backed away, and decided to which the mood.

"Thank you sooooooo much!!!" she said happily taking the dress out of the closet and running back into her room. Sure, she felt bad, she just left Andrew behind looking at her. She didn't even give him a hug or anything. She locked herself in the room and began to change quickly. Darien was suppose to be coming in a half an hour.

    She slipped out of her clothing and put on the dress. As she looked into the mirror her jaw dropped. She look amazing. And not to sound conceeded, but she seriously did! She used silver make up to match with the dress and wore these silver heels she bought at the store. Instead of the usually pigtails, she wore her hair up in one of those formal hairstyles. Everything was perfect.

    Serena heard the doorbell ring and Andrew talking with Darien. She finished the last touches to her make up and ran downstairs almost breaking her neck in the process.

     Darien looked up at the blonde girl running down the stairs and almost fainted. She was so damn beautiful, and that's exactly what he told her. Serena blushed, she went so red she looked like a preety tomato. Finally calming herself down, Darien and her left, Andrew behind them, for the ball. Everything was perfect.

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     They arrived at the 'Moonlight Hall' in Darien's red convertible. When they stopped, he quickly ran out to open Serena's door for her and walk her in. Andrew, behind them. He was suppose to meet his date, Rita, at the dance. The ball room, was like a dream. So big!!!!! Instead of lamps there were candles in every unexpected place, and the tables were drapped in a beautiful silver cloth. Its like the decorating of the ball was made to match perfectly with Serena. Everything was prefect.

     Since Serena was hungry, they all sat down and ate first.

     "Andrew? Where is Rita?" Serena asked.

A drop of sweat could be seen going down the side of his face. "Um..don't worry, I'm sure she will be here soon."

     There was a long pause….

Then the next song came on. "My Only Love". Something about this long made Serena smile.

Her thoguhts seem to drift away from reality, and she saw herself living the perfect life, her wedding to be exact. How it would have white roses….and red…. And how she would look in a stunning wedding dress….she just wanted to stay in her fantasy for ever…

Suddenly her thoughts were broken by a voice.

"Serena,would you like to dance?"

She looked up to see the owner of the voice, and caught two deep midnight blue eyes staring at her, and her heart smiled. Everything was perfect.

"Yes, Darien"

He offer his hand, and she gladly took it. Just at touch, she knew she wanted, no… needed to be with him forever….

She let him lead her to the dance floor, thinking back to her fanstasy and how it was so alike….

Serena watched as he turned around to face her, her knees almost gave in as he put his arm around her waist and brought her close…

And just at touch Darien knew Serena was the girl for him. He shyly grinned as he lead her to the dancefloor….

He stopped in the middle of the dance floor and turned around to face Serena…staring straight in her blue eyes…

Chills went down his spine when Serena brought her arounds to the back of his neck playing with his hair…

Everything was perfect.

The both wished…

                    …that…

                         …this moment…

                             …would last…

                                    …forever…

Unfortunetly…. Everything has to end…….sometimes it ends worst then you could ever believe….

Serena knew that she would never ever want to change this moment, because changing it would ruin her… what was this feeling she felt when close to Darien… Was it love?

'No Serena… it can't be love, not so fast, not so soon….' She thought to herself.

They slowly began to egde even closer to eachother. Lips….so tempted to touch eachother. Only a few moments apart….

and then –.

****Flashback****

     The same guy that haunts her memories was shaking her, the pain of bruises still fresh.

"Serena! You have to marry me!! if you don't I swear to god I will kill myself…you don't want that do you Serena. And I'll blame it all on you. Please Serena… I need you! You have to love me!!!!! YOU HAVE TOO!!!

****End of Flashback****

Serena pulled back from Darien, which caught him off guard.

"Serena, what's wrong?"

The memory was still fresh in her head, but she couldn't tell Darien. He would probably think she was just making it all up.

"I have to go to the bathroom" she stated. Serena turned around and ran. Not to the washroom but outside.

     But she never looked back to see the heart-broken face on Darien. She never say him slam his foot down and swear out loud. She never saw him walk off the dance floor and sit back down at the table. And she never knew that Darien thought that Serena didn't need him as much as he needed her. Totally chrushed… he stopped the waiter, and ordered a shot of vodka.

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It had been like a half an hour and Serena was still sitting outside, just letting the cold wind hit her face. The flashback running through her head over and over again. Why did this have to happen to her? She was so close to kissing Darien… Why did it have to come then.

'Shit' she whispered to herself. As she looked up to see the moon as it began to be covered by thick black clouds.

"Serena? Is that you?"

She turned around to see Andrew looking at her. Was that a tear stain on his face?

He came and sat beside her.

"What's wrong Serena? Why are you out here?"

For some reason, she felt like Andrew was like an older brother, so she told him everything. Every. Little. Detail.

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Darien was still sitting at the tablel… taking shot…

…after shot…

……after shot……

………after shot………

His eye vision was starting to get blurry…

"WAITER!!" he yelled loudly, not aware of his volume, "KEEP 'EM COMIN'!"

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After Serena was done telling Andrew about the memory, Darien, how she ran off, and Darien, she took a deep breath and sat there silent.

Andrew whispered, more into the air them to her. "You love him don't you…"

Serena eyes shot up to see Andrew looking away. "What! How could you say that, I barely even know him!"

"Serena… look how you talked about him, I can just tell… he has your heart. If you love someone you should make sure to never let them go. And I see Darien looking at you, with so much feeling in his eyes. Never has he looked at any of the girls he has ever been out with like that. Go to him Serena, you know you want to. Just believe me on this, Darien loves you."

Serena smiled. "You know what Andrew, I will… thank you."

She got up, kissed Andrew on the cheek and began to run back into the hall. Little did she know, that as she left…  Andrew had picked up a rock and thrown into the fountain.

"Damn it!!!" he yelled.

   Andrew's girlfriend never showed up to the party because he broke up with her. But why would he break up with her?

…because he wants Serena too.

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Now Darien was fully wasted. His head lying on the table… his eyes blurry….the biggest ass headache ever. He noticed a figure coming closer, then sit down and start talkig to him.

Was it Serena? Looked like her…

"Serena?" he whispered. But he couldn't understand what the figure was saying. What was going on?

"It is you" his voice was slowly rising, so that he was yelling now. "I love you so much, I wanted to kiss you so bad. But I don't know if you felt the same, but you came back so you have to. I love you so much" and with that he kissed Serena.

Little did he know, that the person he was kissing wasn't Serena, but a very surpirsed girl that just came to ask if he was okay.

-- and that Serena was standing just meters away, hearing him tell some girl that he loved her so much, and then see him kiss her.

Serena turned round and ran back outside.

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She kept on running and never stopped to see Andrew sobbing. She just kept running. Seeing Darien with the girl was worst then dying. How could that happen? She loved him so much, and she walks into see him telling some other chick that he loved her. Ater all Andrew told her about how Darien looked at her, she was certain he felt the same as she did.

Not noticing where she was even running, Serena ran unto the street.

It happened quick…..

A painful scream could be heard miles away. Andrew looked up in the direction of the scream and ran towards it.

He ran all the way to the street and saw a man and woman standing over someone lying on the ground while another peron whipped out their cell phone and ask the police to send an ambulance.

He walked closeer to see who the person was. He gasped…

There lying…

Blood leaking out of her head…

Dress torn……..

Was Serena.

Everything was a disaster.

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Back at the hall, the girl pushed Darien away. Slowly, his eyes bega to come back to focus.

"Your not Serena? What the hell is going on?" But before anyone could answer him. A man yelled out.

"SOMEONE GOT HIT BY A CAR!"

Everyone began to run out of the hall and to the street where the accident was.

Darien slowly followed now that he could see okay now. But he still had a major headache, and walked side to side.

Soon he found himself at the street. He looked at the body lying down on the ground.

What he found was a nightmare come true. There was Serena lying motionless, and Andrew knelling down beside her, giving her C.P.R.

This shocked him so much that he couldn't move, he couldn't think, he couldn't hear…

Everything was a disaster.

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!!! Lol..i finally finished..diz chapter took me like 3 friggen months!! Only because I didn't have time though….sawee..lol.… But it is up and im already working on the next . Please pass mi up some revirews so I know if im doing a good job or nah..and puhlease..b nyce.. or I'll cry. Ehehhhe…no..not really..