A/N. OK, I have no idea where this came from, it just popped into my head one day when I was listening to the song, and the lyrics seemed to fit with what I was thinking. Not my best piece of work, but I don't see the point in getting a beta reader for one-shot fics. This isn't really set in a certain timeline, but some when 7th year would probably fit it best. I'm also having serious problems with the spacing, so the story will be really spaced out, or all cramped together. Argh. I'll fix it later…don't forget to R/R! Enjoy.
Missing- One-shot
~*Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.*~
I'm going tomorrow. Off to fight in the War.
And I won't be coming back.
Will you even notice I'm gone?
~*Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?*~
You've never noticed me before. Too wrapped up in your new life. Too wrapped up with him. Too wrapped up to notice me.
~*You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.*~
I've loved you for as long as I can remember. And him? He didn't even realise you were a girl until fourth year. What has he done to deserve your love?
What have you done to deserve mine?
~*Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?*~
Maybe someday you'll look up, and realise I'm not there.
Maybe you'll realise what you missed.
But it'll be too late then. This time tomorrow I'll be dead.
How can I be sure? Because I know. I'm not strong enough to destroy Voldemort on my own. Dumbledore thinks I'm strong. He thinks I'm ready. I'm seventeen years old, how can I possibly be ready? I'm just a scared little boy who doesn't want to die, but has no choice.
I'm expected to do things that I can't do.
~*Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?*~
No-one understands.
No-one understands that I don't want to die, I don't want to have to fight to stay alive until the end of the year, I don't want to be forced into things that I'm too weak to do.
That's what I am, weak.
~*Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.*~
I want to be normal, I want to be loved, I want parents, I want to live. I'm too young to die.
Why am I even writing this to you? You'll never get to read it, never get to know my feelings for you..
~*Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?*~
Will you even care?
This letter will get thrown out along with the rest of my possessions, never read, never touched..
~*I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?*~
But maybe it's better that way. I wouldn't want you to feel guilty about ignoring, tormenting, tearing me up inside.
Not that you would.
~*Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.*~
You'd probably think this was just a stupid schoolboy crush, something I'd get over with in time.
But I'm not stupid, I know what love is. Even if I've never been on the receiving end of it.
~*And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there~*
I love you with all my heart.
And although I'd die to know you loved me back, dying knowing you never will, makes it so much more painful.
I miss you already.
Will you miss me, Hermione?
~*Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me…?~*
