Trapped
(Authors
Note: I only got to write this so quickly since the destruction of the Twin
Towers, it is sad to see them no longer as I never really got to look at them
everyday, but this city seems so quiet and empty now since this happened. The
city will always be wounded because of this as one of our main attractions many
businesses were destroyed just because of terrorist that are too much of a
coward to show themselves. We will always remain a strong city in pride and get
along with our lives, as I will. If you were a victim I hope that you will
recover from all the pain you will have to go through. I am dedicating this
chapter to all the victims and families of the WTC and Pentagon tragedy) -*
This whole chapter is a flash back *-
Chapter
Five – Broken Inside –
**Flash Back**
"Ash…please don't do this to me. I don't want to go away from you, I know this is tough on you, but please Ash I don't want to leave you to deal with all of this pain. Please, Ash let me help you get through this, like I have in the past." Misty said, hesitating on some parts to trying to prevent the tears to be released from her dilated eyes. Tears were already rolling down her cheeks, as that usual smile on her face, was no longer there as it was a smile upside down. She picked up her arm and placed it on Ash shoulder, still trying to convince him, "Ash don't try to get rid of all the one's who care about you, we are the ones who will help you, pain will only come from the both of us if you want me to go, you already threw Tracey and Brock out like some rag dolls, but I am going to be harder, Ash…"
Ash
did not even notice all the pain Misty was already going through seeing that
their friendship will be no more, just because from the fame, a young person
sometimes cannot handle fame, people cannot handle fame, maybe Ash was not the
kind of person that can just tolerate all the chaos around him always. In weeks
though, the media was lighten up and his life will seem a little bit more
'normal' as the "New Trainer Takes Role Of Pokemon Master" articles in the
tabloids would not be as popular, as it may be just considered 'Old News'
"Misty
get out of my life already! I told you to get out of my face I never even cared
about you! My feelings towards you are nothing trash is more valuable to me
than you are! All you do is make the situation worse!" Ash shouted to his
teenage ex-best friend Misty, taking her hand in his and throwing it back at
her.
Inside
though, Ash did feel something special towards her, not to long ago, maybe love?
Now with this entire media that special feeling towards her faded day after
day, until he felt nothing towards her, now it is he just trying to keep his
sanity.
"I
know you don't mean that, at least I don't think you do. Ash, don't make this
entire fame make you say something you regret, as you have enough to regret
already. I don't want to leave you, please don't make me…" Misty continued to
plea as she rubbed her thrown hand with her other, as Ash apparently squeezed
it while throwing it, now trying to cause her physical pain.
Tears
continued to trickle on the wood floor where Misty stood, her cascade eyes just
staring at Ash, they showing how much pain she was going through, just by the
look on her face. Ash still, showing no sort of pain by the expression on his
face, just there looking at her with a glare in his eyes, as if he was not even
like…living.
"I
mean every last of word of it Misty! I know I do! I will have no regrets this
is the truth! Deal with it, you little cry baby! Wa, wa, like I care you are
crying." He said sarcastically to Misty at the end, in the beginning through
all in Ash mide was the objective of getting her away from him, trying to force
himself to believe what he is saying, but he didn't, still he hid his emotions
somehow. He grabbed her arm and yanked it towards her, almost pulling it out of
the socket from the sudden surprise, "Now get out of my life!" He said it in
his new tone, which he talked to everyone badly, a deep voice with a glare in
his eyes as they were widened from the usual point they were usually opened. He
pressed his hand against Misty creamy skinned skinny arm, making it turn red a
bit. He raised his other hand to Misty, this meaning he was now giving her a
physical threat, obviously now he is going insane.
Misty
just continued to cry, more rapidly now as he arm was now grabbed and was
physically being threatened now, by then she was just being emotionally beaten
up, "Ash let go of me." She pleaded to her male companion, the one she thought
she loved, obviously that passion just was teared apart, along with her heart.
She never thought of her self saying this, but she did for this all to end, she
could not mentally and emotionally take this anymore, it was just to painful
that no one no would be able to take this. Ash was just acting like he was not
even living, that he had no emotions, no heart, nothing in his body…just
something on the outside, "Let go of me and I will leave you; forever,
okay?" She said as the word 'forever' just echoed throughout her head as she
just mentioned it to her friend, the one she loved, no longer.
Misty
could not even manage to sniffle to keep the tears in now, she just cried and
cried as she looked into Ash's eyes with innocence in hers. Her body seemed to
go more pale at the thought of leaving the one she loved, knowing the one who
you would be with forever, the dream shattered just made her think of her as
there is no point of living anymore, her mind flowing with negative thoughts
like she will never get married, never have children, have no one to love, and
most importantly have no happiness in her life. Her heart was like it
was broken into many pieces, just by this one little experience that the two
went through, their friendship/love could not even survive this… Misty knees
buckled, as it felt for her that she could not even stand anymore, she could
not support herself standing up anymore. She just wanted to collapse on the
ground and cry and cry until she is asleep…in her mind thinking that this is
just a possible nightmare.
Ash
made that smirk that Gary always had glued on his face once he heard the words
that Misty seemed to spoke, crying word after word she said it, as he felt that
he was falling down a little, as Misty was basically collapsing onto the floor
as she mentioned this. Those emotionless eyes looking into her eyes pleading
for this not to even be happening, that it does not have to end up like this.
That dumb smirk on his face, that Gary always did, that showed tat he won, that
he was higher than everyone else, it just seemed so emotionless and just so
plain…evil! (Authors Note: Not to offend Gary lovers, who just love this face.
He is fine, just using him as an evil example here, don't flame me just because
of this!)
After
all this pleading, saying that she won't leave him and more threats put onto
the floor each time she refused to leave the one, whom she thought she will
always love, it was over, she gave up, she let Ash fall into his own
depression, in his own little pit of emotionless acts towards her, when she
thought he would never abandon her, when it seemed like those two would never
leave side by side. Misty falling into a heartbroken depression, this was not a
simple crush on Ash, this was an obsession with how much she loved him.
(Authors Note: I put some things in bold, meaning it is very – very important
thought or feeling, underline for the same thing too, but something
unimaginable is more likely to be underlined.)
Who
knew that Ash was able to hold all the thoughts about Misty in his head, all the
times they were together having fun. Even the arguments were like miniature
flirts, between the two. People said, 'If you argue a lot it means you care
about each other' about those two, as many believed they were in love, but just
never confessed it, but wouldn't true love be able to let this situation be
able to be passed through?
"Okay
Misty, leave now." He said letting go of her, as it seemed he was about to cry
as he closed his eyes, he changed his tone of voice as now it was monotone,
just like how Sabrina's was when they spoke to the trio. Ash took a step back
away from her, letting her leave. His eyes remained closed, due to the fact
that he did feel something towards her, he could not see Misty leave.
Misty
did not bother to say any last words, as in her mind she thought it would not
even help her defense if she bothered to speak to him, what would that do? Only
pain, was her only answer as she said many things towards him, some in a sort
of confession of how much she cared about him, just getting all these threats
must of showed Ash how much Misty cared for him, even all the time it looked
like she wanted to cut his throat off. All the arguing, all the times they were
in not speaking terms, it was just a cover up of how much the two loved each other.
She
noticed his eyes were closed as she continued to cry, thinking that he did not
even care that she was going to leave any second, once she gets all of this
information through her head. Everything, all of this arguing all of this
scolding and all of these acts of wanting to be a recluse just happened so
quickly, a week ago or so he was happy with his good friends taking a picture
in happiness, they having a celebration dinner, and now this…It was the
complete opposite as he wanted to tear his best friends from his life, while
sitting in a corner alone eating some food, no one to share all this fortune
with, only himself.
"Bye…Ash…"
Misty slowly mumbled out loud to herself and the male she was addressing Ash,
still nothing came from him, no response, nothing…
Misty
looked at Ash for one time a deep concentration as she just looked at him for a
second, silence in the room, not a single thing to disturb the two, the media
seemed to leave the area, as it was late around eleven or so, the time after
they finished dinner with his total tantrum, which seemed hours.
The
door creaked as Misty opened it slowly, still wanting Ash to jump up and run to
her saying, 'Misty, wait I don't want you to leave. I love you… I don't know
what is wrong with me, please help me Misty. I love you…I don't want you to
leave, help me get myself out of this crisis!' or something related to that,
all she wanted was the silence in the room, none of the two voices speaking to
be broken by the make saying stop. Just something that she will love, know that
there is still that little ten-year-old Ash inside of him, not this new Ash
that does not even seem like he was living.
One
person remained in the rented house now, no one there to guide him, no one to
protect him, no one to be with. Only to be with him regretting his whole life,
questioning everything in his life, just because of this fame, what was the
point of it if he was going to get rid of the ones who got him this far… What
was the point of having fame if you have no one to share it with…? There is no
point to be with fame if you cannot share it with someone else, it is the plain
truth, being alone while with all the media just makes you go insane, having no
one, except yourself…
"Bye…Ash,
I will always remember you, when you were a good guy." Misty told herself as
she let her hand off of the back of the door, actually the front as it opened
leading them into the house.
Wasn't
Misty always known as a strong woman? People always saw her barrier, but could
Misty or even any woman be able to handle all of this pain when they knew
someone so long and had such passion towards her.
"I
have to get over this…leave here…just seeing things, which remind me of him
will get me to be more depressed than I am." Misty said closing her eyelids as
the tears still escaped through here eyes as she continued to cry, she took a
bold step away from the house, as it was a big step for her, just to leave
Ash…she left the one whom she had passion for, the one she wanted to be with,
Ash…
(Authors
Note: I know, this chapter is really short, I am sort of depressed from all the
pain from the WTC and the Pentagon issue, so you know I could not concentrate
on this so much, as my eyes were glued to the television as I wrote this. Okay,
no it was not, but I was depressed, which I think made this Chapter show so
much emotion from Misty, not from Ash as I tried to make him seem rather
lifeless in this chapter. Sucks that he was such a mean person right, please
tell me how you think of this chapter, as this is like the best one yet that
I've ever written in my like whole life of writing… well, maybe.)
