Trapped
(Authors
Note: Wow, I am writing these chapters quite quickly, as I did three in the
last week, since the whole…issue, as I just do not want to talk about it. I
hope you liked the last chapter, as I loved writing that one so much and
hopefully you will like this one and I can live up to your expectations for
this one, as I just randomly wrote it, I get a character and somehow I finding
myself writing like crazy. I know, they did not even meet yet, but I am sure by
Chapter 10 or so that they will leave to meet or actually met already. Still, I
find this chapters great when I read these over and thank you for my fantastic
readers who has been telling me how wonderful this fiction is and supporting me
to keep on writing! So let me stop talking and you can start reading the actual
important stuff! ^.^)
Chapter
6 – That Special Someone –
"Misty,
it has past so long, I am pretty sure that you forgive me by now, I was just a
monster then. I had no idea what I was doing, I felt controlled, and I was just
under a lot of stress. You know that you are a special person towards me and if
I could of prevented doing what I did, I would of, so sorry Misty, I truly am."
Ash said practicing what he was going to say towards Misty once they meet in
two days. He looking at himself in the bathroom as there was a human-sized
mirror on the back of the bathroom door. All Ash was concentrating now was just
getting her forgive him for what he done in the past, as it is still on his
mind and of course he is guilty about it.
Ash
rolled his eyes once he murmured that little speech to himself. He knew that he
always sucked at explaining his actions and what he done with out get so
embarrassed that he just stopped himself and started all over, he was not the
public speaker time mainly because he sucks at writing speeches.
"That
was horrible! Let me think here…" Ash said as he began pacing circles in the
bathroom still, people just seem to pratice their speeches in the bathroom
(A/N: I do. My one speech ever that I announced in front of the middle school!
I know you are so jealous. J/K)
"Misty,
I know that I put you through so much pain for the actions for what I have
done, but I got to tell you that I was in a lot of pain too, probably
equal----"
He
just flapped his forehead with his hand, "That just makes me sound selfish at
the end! I have no idea how much pain she went through…"
"How
much pain did she go through when we broke apart, I even heard her crying from
outside…Why was I such an idiot then?" Ash said beginning to shout, almost
waking up her mother who was sleeping only a few doors down, "I know not to do
that again."
With
some more pacing in his bathroom in circles, nothing being on his mind as he
just had no idea what to say to Misty in a apology from when they actually met
again.
'What
is she going to say when she meets me?' Ash asked himself, as he exited the
bathroom and went back to his room, making a speech did not seem to get him
anywhere. He might as well pace in his bedroom than in a narrow bathroom.
"You
know, when I lost Misty, I felt a lot of pain too! She was special to me…more
than just friends, I know that, but I was stupid to let her go, my life would
have been so much better if she spent it with me, but being the idiot that I am
I had to just get rid of her. If she loved me though, wouldn't she just do
whatever she can to keep me or if I actually loved her wouldn't I be able to
control my actions." Ash asked himself as he went back in his seat and turned
to a new page in his journal.
'Misty
– That special someone' was written in cursive on the top of the page, he
underlined it, as that showed it was an important page.
Misty, when I was a young child, just a few weeks over ten years old when I met Misty, I thought she was an annoying girl, all she did was complain and complain about that bike that I accidently broke trying to save my best buddy, whom I still love in that brotherly way, Pikachu. I felt nothing special towards her and I knew that she did not love me back either, so we were just two people whom hated each other traveling just because of a dumb bike breaking. When I first saw her, my first impression was that she was a kind and caring person, sweet on the inside and outside, someone whom you would just have fun being around. Also I thought Misty was kind of cute, just never bothered to tell her that she was, because I did not want to know her response, maybe she would say that I look cute back?
Why would I care of what she thought about me, I was only and she were only immature ten year olds… We argued and argued and just stepped off on the wrong foot, actually maybe I just stepped on her foot, which is worse than just starting off bad.
Days and days later, we became close, as she was the only human I had contacted with and vice versa. We just pushed off the topic about the bike and just got to know each other, a good thing too, if I was going to be with her until I get the money, as I intentionally planned to get because I hated her at the time, I would want to become her friend, why not?
I knew she cared about me when she said, 'To defeat Brock do you want to use my water pokemon' she wanted me to accomplish my dream., I thought that was a caring act from her, as if she just hated me, she would not care how many times I lost, just as long she got what she wanted her bike. Maybe that girl who I thought she was is actually her. When she wanted to help, I think it was the first sign of me getting a crush on her.
When I got to know that nice heart inside of her, I knew she was a great person! She was beautiful on the outside and in the inside I felt something towards her, love. I met all these girls like Giselle who was just a self-centered person, I having a crush on them from looks, because I was dumb enough to think that the outside counts, now of course I know better.
She never did give me signs though that she even loved me, which just made me keep all the secrets inside, my emotions towards her bottled up in my heart, not able to show my passion. I think keeping my emotions in was one of the hardest things that I had to do while I was with her…for those three years, which at times were just so hard emotionally and just so hard mentally. I got through it though, not the way I wanted too, I have many regrets, but I did accomplish my dream
Did I really risk my chance with being with Misty by what I have done? She never said that she loved me, so she left without that much force by m,e, but she did give me a fight! Was that a fight of love, or just a fight of friendship? All I can tell now, is that she cares, and that is all that matters.
I wonder if she knew that I loved her, I was a little bit obvious at times when I became protective or her in general. I hope not after seeing how at a moment I am so compassionate and sweet to her and next I am a blood- thirsty monster that wants to leave her to be eaten by the hungry dogs.
If I loved her, I can't get this off my mind then how could I let her go so easily? If I truly did love her then wouldn't I be able to stop her from leaving me, for all this time and now we are going to see each other again and I have absolutely no idea what to say to her:
Misty, I let you go easily in the past. I always felt something so special to you, but I was an idiot, I just let you go by that and I want to tell you that I am truly sorry for what I have done to you, I know that you must of went through a lot of pain knowing that I was your best friend just kicked you out like that, making you question everything about friendship and trust. All I know is that I probably made your life horrible just because of how much of a selfish person I am. I hope that you can forgive me for what I have done and we can make this just the past and become good friends again. I would not be able to live with, myself if I knew that you were always going to think of me as a jerk, as you know how I am, you know the kind of person that I am, you are a very special person to me Misty just forgive me, that is all that I am asking for you.
"That is something to say
towards her, I will just say that as I am just thinking of stuff over and over
again and nothing new is coming to me, so I will just say this and hope that
she will forgive me for what I have done. Well I hope she does, I need to go to
sleep now so I can be well rested for the big day tomorrow." Ash mumbled to
himself as he placed his hand on the side of the page and yanked it a little
the page being ripped from the book. He folded it into a little square and put
it in his pants pocket that he will be wearing tomorrow, just right now he is
wearing pajamas.
Ash went on his bed and
tucked himself under the covers, his eyes still being opened he looked at the
ceiling, just thinking, putting his head on his crossed arms that was on the
back of his head that he used as a pillow, "Night Misty." Ash whispered as he
closed his eyes and fell asleep.
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