Ohayo, this is nikki hiiragizawa. Unfortunately for my readers, this post of mine is not an additional installment on the fic "Songs Without Words." Sadly, I have decided to cease posting the story here due to various reasons.

Some ExT writer have been e-mailing me, telling me that the concept of my story is very much like hers, and they would all like some clarification that I did not take the stories from them. Honestly, I don't read other fics unless they are my friends' or requested. I provided an explanation that the instances in this fic are all coincidental and I never intended to "copy" some other fic.

Also, some readers had been flooding me with complaints weeks after I posted the last installment of "Songs Without Words." I know that my fic is kinda common to the concepts of Marmalade Boy or Kareshi Kanojo no Jijyo or some other anime, but if I would plagiarize, why would I copy something from a famous anime series? I find it really hurting that people are giving me useless criticisms and would not let me prove that my fics are different from what they expected. Some of them explicitly told me to stop writing altogether since I don't have original ideas, a comment my writer's attitude cannot accept. By the way, those comments you left in my reivews are OK. I find them amusing (I'm not really bothered at that time), but you should those left in my mail...

That is why I have to apologize to those waiting for this fic's continuation. If you are a writer such as myself, you will find yourself unable to write upon receiving such criticisms. It is true I accept most criticisms and comments about my work, especially in my yaoi fics, but to comment without letting me finish the fic or even letting me prove myself - is quite silly and holds no grounds.

I formally stop writing this fic here, but I don't want to leave my other readers (who followed the fic everytime) to be left hanging. That is why, I consented a reader's suggestion to post the fic in my Mailing List and site (as soon as I revamp it) so that only the people who would like to read it would be the only ones who will be able to read it. ^^;;; I also am working on two new fics, one dedicated to KyteAura's long past birthday and the other as sort of apology fic for those who were waiting for the fic for so long.

So, if you want this fic to continue, visit my Mailing List sometime (), vote for it, and if chosen, receive it your mail like an E-zine. I guess this is the only way to cure my injured pride. ^-^ Well...not really pride...more of feelings exactly. Please do not wait for this fic in FFnet or MMorg...for it will not be publicly shown again. This will be like a special fic between ML members and my friends.

Thank you for all your understanding. Please wait for my upcoming fics. I assure you that they are all original and ExT. ^-^ Jaa ne~

With love,
nikki hiiragizawa
July 29,2003