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Chapter: 4/9 Now it's my turn (Draco's POV)
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Chapter Four: Now it's my turn
(Draco's POV) "Draco."
I glance up and see a blurry Harry standing next to me. He leans forward and wipes the tears out of my eyes.
"I told you, Harry. I knew this would not work. Your friends hate me. I knew you should have just told them by yourself." I close my eyes and look down.
"Draco.you are the one who wanted to tell everybody."
"I know that, but I didn't want to be here when you told your friends. I know how much they mean to you and I know you were hoping that they would just accept us and that by my being here they would be more accepting." I hear someone clear his throat. Harry and I both turn.
"Um- I know that.this might not make everything better.but I think it is great that you guys are together. Harry.you deserve happiness more than any of us and even though you picked the most odd place to find it,." Weasley looks at me and narrows his eyes. "I am happy you did. I knew that it would take time for Hermione to accept it.Draco has hurt her more than any of us.except maybe you." I see his eyes look over me as though trying to intimidate me. "He called her mudblood in second year, he tricked her in fifth year.he acted like her friend, then got her drunk.and she failed McGonagall's transfiguration final.which lost her the chance to be head girl this year, then he just laughed about it" I frown and look down ashamed of what I had done. I never knew that the bet I had with Crabbe and Goyle would mess up Granger's plans. "So you can't blame her.I tried to prepare her."
"Wait a second!" I look up at Harry who seems angry. "You act as though you knew about us." I move a strand of my hair out of my face and look at a nervous looking Weasley.
"Well I did." I frown and marvel at his steady voice. If Harry was giving me the death glares he is giving Weasley, I think I would shrink into nothing.
"How did you know about us?" Harry's voice is stern and demanding.
"I followed you, the other morning when you didn't want to walk with me." I grab Harry's hand and hold him back.
"You what?" I frown at the Weasel and wonder when he saw us together, and I pray to Merlin it was not when I seduced Harry in the kitchen. I begin to blush at the memory. I don't realize it but I begin to giggle lightly. Harry snaps his head down and glares at me.
"What are you laughing at Draco?" I smirk and cover my mouth trying to stifle a giggle.
"Oh nothing.look, Harry, don't get mad at Weasley." I look at Weasley and he raises his eyebrow at me. "we wanted." I get a look from Harry. "I wanted Granger and Weasley to know.and it just so happens that they.he found out sooner than we thought."
"That is not the point, Draco. How did he find out?" I frown and shrug
"How am I supposed to know?" I look at Weasley and pull away from Harry. "Look Weas- er Ron." he raises his left eyebrow and narrows his eyes "I am sorry for what I did to Gr-mud.er Hermione. I hope we can start over."
"No, Draco, wait. I am not through with Ron yet." I look back at Harry as does Ron
"No, Harry.listen I." I look into Harry's green eyes he has that dangerous look about him, the one that he reserves for people who have betrayed him, "Weasley, er. Ron didn't do anything wrong.right, Ron? He just was worried about you.which is understandable considering this has been going on for a year now.we have both been acting strange, you know.even the Slytherins have begun to notice and you know how dumb they are.come on, Crabbe asked me just the other day if I was gay or just tired of sleeping around.never knew he cared." I realize I had been babbling on and on. I look up and see Harry giving me a weird look.
"That's not it, Draco.he lied to me, he snuck around and found out about us"
"I wouldn't have had to lie to you and sneak around if you were not doing the same thing! You do not know what Hermione and I have been through! We worry about you every time you leave! For the past.I don't know how long we have wanted to confront you about our worries but we felt you would have to tell us what was on your mind before we could tell you what was on ours! We were best friends, Harry! Then one day you stop talking to us! We thought it was a phase but it never changed! You are being such a selfish prick! All you are thinking about is 'How could Ron lie to me?' How could this be happening to me?' You are not even thinking that maybe you are the one being an asshole that maybe you are the one that lied to us! That maybe you are the one who needs to apologize and set things straight!" I step back against the wall and slide down so I am sitting on the floor. This is too much for me to take.
"Don't give me this SHIT, RONALD! You and Hermione could have come to me ANY TIME! You are the ones who chose to keep this rift between us! I was scared! I fell in love with my worst enemy! With the person who made our lives hell from the time we met him! I was confused! Sorry if I am being selfish, but you are not being any better! How the hell was I supposed to confront you when you and Hermione were avoiding me? When you were making out in the corners of the common room! When you gave us extra practices! When you made it impossible for me to even go up to you guys! What the fuck was I supposed to do? Tell me!"
He pauses and clenches his fist before screaming out.
"NOTHING! I COULD DO NOTHING!"
I shudder at Harry's last word and lean my head down. This is all my fault. If I never would have tripped and dropped the whole table on the Slytherins, if I would not have left the Great Hall, crying like the great idiot I am, if I never would have admitted my true feelings.maybe this friendship wouldn't have crumbled. I look up at the two they have stopped talking both trying to catch their breath, both trying to figure out what to say next. I look back down and feel tears roll down my eyes. This is all my fault.all my fault.
"all my fault." I don't realize I had spoken aloud until I feel Harry next to me trying to pull me up to look at him, but, I don't give in. I need to leave him alone and maybe if I don't look at him, he will realize all I have given him is pain.and maybe he will leave me.
"Draco, love, what did you say?" I shake my head and push him away not wanting to feel his soft warm hands caressing my cold face.
"Harry.I'm sorry. Draco, I never meant anything.I blew up. I am sorry." I hear Ron whisper. I shake my head and stand up not looking at them, not letting them see me crying.
"It doesn't matter, Weasley. Nothing matters anymore. In fact, I am sorry" I'm surprised by how steady and calm my voice sounds. "If it wasn't for me.you three would still be The Potty, mudblood and Weasel. All I have heard from you is.I will understand.now it is my turn." I lift up my head and look at Harry who is standing right in front of me. I see tears silently flowing down his face, I lift my hand and caress his cheek softly, He leans into my hand and kisses it, I feel myself start to melt but I can't I need to be strong for him.why? Because, I love him.
"I am leaving you, Harry Potter.I hope you understand. Seeing you lose your friends is not something I want for you, love, I love you to much to do that to you. I hope by doing this you can rebuild the friendship you valued so much with them. And if tomorrow you act like this never happened, like we were always enemies, like you never loved me." I look down, pull my hand away from his face, and walk to the door. When reaching it I place my hand on the silver handle and slowly turn it
"I will understand." I step out and walk away from the closed tower door.
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Chapter: 4/9 Now it's my turn (Draco's POV)
Rating: PG-13
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Chapter Four: Now it's my turn
(Draco's POV) "Draco."
I glance up and see a blurry Harry standing next to me. He leans forward and wipes the tears out of my eyes.
"I told you, Harry. I knew this would not work. Your friends hate me. I knew you should have just told them by yourself." I close my eyes and look down.
"Draco.you are the one who wanted to tell everybody."
"I know that, but I didn't want to be here when you told your friends. I know how much they mean to you and I know you were hoping that they would just accept us and that by my being here they would be more accepting." I hear someone clear his throat. Harry and I both turn.
"Um- I know that.this might not make everything better.but I think it is great that you guys are together. Harry.you deserve happiness more than any of us and even though you picked the most odd place to find it,." Weasley looks at me and narrows his eyes. "I am happy you did. I knew that it would take time for Hermione to accept it.Draco has hurt her more than any of us.except maybe you." I see his eyes look over me as though trying to intimidate me. "He called her mudblood in second year, he tricked her in fifth year.he acted like her friend, then got her drunk.and she failed McGonagall's transfiguration final.which lost her the chance to be head girl this year, then he just laughed about it" I frown and look down ashamed of what I had done. I never knew that the bet I had with Crabbe and Goyle would mess up Granger's plans. "So you can't blame her.I tried to prepare her."
"Wait a second!" I look up at Harry who seems angry. "You act as though you knew about us." I move a strand of my hair out of my face and look at a nervous looking Weasley.
"Well I did." I frown and marvel at his steady voice. If Harry was giving me the death glares he is giving Weasley, I think I would shrink into nothing.
"How did you know about us?" Harry's voice is stern and demanding.
"I followed you, the other morning when you didn't want to walk with me." I grab Harry's hand and hold him back.
"You what?" I frown at the Weasel and wonder when he saw us together, and I pray to Merlin it was not when I seduced Harry in the kitchen. I begin to blush at the memory. I don't realize it but I begin to giggle lightly. Harry snaps his head down and glares at me.
"What are you laughing at Draco?" I smirk and cover my mouth trying to stifle a giggle.
"Oh nothing.look, Harry, don't get mad at Weasley." I look at Weasley and he raises his eyebrow at me. "we wanted." I get a look from Harry. "I wanted Granger and Weasley to know.and it just so happens that they.he found out sooner than we thought."
"That is not the point, Draco. How did he find out?" I frown and shrug
"How am I supposed to know?" I look at Weasley and pull away from Harry. "Look Weas- er Ron." he raises his left eyebrow and narrows his eyes "I am sorry for what I did to Gr-mud.er Hermione. I hope we can start over."
"No, Draco, wait. I am not through with Ron yet." I look back at Harry as does Ron
"No, Harry.listen I." I look into Harry's green eyes he has that dangerous look about him, the one that he reserves for people who have betrayed him, "Weasley, er. Ron didn't do anything wrong.right, Ron? He just was worried about you.which is understandable considering this has been going on for a year now.we have both been acting strange, you know.even the Slytherins have begun to notice and you know how dumb they are.come on, Crabbe asked me just the other day if I was gay or just tired of sleeping around.never knew he cared." I realize I had been babbling on and on. I look up and see Harry giving me a weird look.
"That's not it, Draco.he lied to me, he snuck around and found out about us"
"I wouldn't have had to lie to you and sneak around if you were not doing the same thing! You do not know what Hermione and I have been through! We worry about you every time you leave! For the past.I don't know how long we have wanted to confront you about our worries but we felt you would have to tell us what was on your mind before we could tell you what was on ours! We were best friends, Harry! Then one day you stop talking to us! We thought it was a phase but it never changed! You are being such a selfish prick! All you are thinking about is 'How could Ron lie to me?' How could this be happening to me?' You are not even thinking that maybe you are the one being an asshole that maybe you are the one that lied to us! That maybe you are the one who needs to apologize and set things straight!" I step back against the wall and slide down so I am sitting on the floor. This is too much for me to take.
"Don't give me this SHIT, RONALD! You and Hermione could have come to me ANY TIME! You are the ones who chose to keep this rift between us! I was scared! I fell in love with my worst enemy! With the person who made our lives hell from the time we met him! I was confused! Sorry if I am being selfish, but you are not being any better! How the hell was I supposed to confront you when you and Hermione were avoiding me? When you were making out in the corners of the common room! When you gave us extra practices! When you made it impossible for me to even go up to you guys! What the fuck was I supposed to do? Tell me!"
He pauses and clenches his fist before screaming out.
"NOTHING! I COULD DO NOTHING!"
I shudder at Harry's last word and lean my head down. This is all my fault. If I never would have tripped and dropped the whole table on the Slytherins, if I would not have left the Great Hall, crying like the great idiot I am, if I never would have admitted my true feelings.maybe this friendship wouldn't have crumbled. I look up at the two they have stopped talking both trying to catch their breath, both trying to figure out what to say next. I look back down and feel tears roll down my eyes. This is all my fault.all my fault.
"all my fault." I don't realize I had spoken aloud until I feel Harry next to me trying to pull me up to look at him, but, I don't give in. I need to leave him alone and maybe if I don't look at him, he will realize all I have given him is pain.and maybe he will leave me.
"Draco, love, what did you say?" I shake my head and push him away not wanting to feel his soft warm hands caressing my cold face.
"Harry.I'm sorry. Draco, I never meant anything.I blew up. I am sorry." I hear Ron whisper. I shake my head and stand up not looking at them, not letting them see me crying.
"It doesn't matter, Weasley. Nothing matters anymore. In fact, I am sorry" I'm surprised by how steady and calm my voice sounds. "If it wasn't for me.you three would still be The Potty, mudblood and Weasel. All I have heard from you is.I will understand.now it is my turn." I lift up my head and look at Harry who is standing right in front of me. I see tears silently flowing down his face, I lift my hand and caress his cheek softly, He leans into my hand and kisses it, I feel myself start to melt but I can't I need to be strong for him.why? Because, I love him.
"I am leaving you, Harry Potter.I hope you understand. Seeing you lose your friends is not something I want for you, love, I love you to much to do that to you. I hope by doing this you can rebuild the friendship you valued so much with them. And if tomorrow you act like this never happened, like we were always enemies, like you never loved me." I look down, pull my hand away from his face, and walk to the door. When reaching it I place my hand on the silver handle and slowly turn it
"I will understand." I step out and walk away from the closed tower door.
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