Title: I Will Understand
Chapter: 7/9 Living the Dream (Draco's POV)
Disclaimer: I do not own HP they all belong to J.K. Rowling (lucky lady)
Rating: R for this chapter, because of sexual intercourse and language if this offends you please don't read.
Genre: romance/angst but fluff will ensure from here on! ;)
Feedback: Behrbrat224@aol.com Please I love reviews!
Notes: After this, two more chapters! yay! :) we're almost there!
Thanks: To everybody who reviewed this story and stuck by it! I lurve ya!
Beta: Aarynn, you are the best girlie! You have saved me so many times and have stuck by me even when my punctuation is atrocious! I lurve ya and this chapter is for you!
Remember this chapter is HARD R if this offends you please leave you have
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Chapter 7: Living the Dream
(Draco's POV)
As soon as I left the room, I knew where I was headed: mine and Harry's secret place, the place where we first admitted our love for each other, the place where we first made love. I sigh at the memory and feel a smile tugging at the corners of my mouth. But then I frown and shake my head as I start to feel tears well up in my eyes.
That is over now. Over. Done with. No more Harry. I am alone now.all alone. I come to the lion statue and speak the password.
"Complicated."
The lion statue bursts into flames and I step into them. Harry and I never knew how complicated things could really get when we made up the password to the room. I step over the stair step, the same step Harry always seems to forget about when he exits the room.
I slap myself on the forehead. Stop thinking about him. So why did I come here if I wanted to stop thinking about him? Because I don't want to stop thinking about him, I want to think about him, I want to remember our first kiss, our first touch, our first everything. I guess I could also think about our last.but that is too much for me to handle right now.
I walk to the bed and flop onto it, belly first. I crawl up to the pillow and lay on it. As I turn around so I am lying on my back, I feel a stinging sensation course throughout me.
"Shit." I moan as I sit up quickly. I totally forgot about that damn wound Lucius gave me. I frown and take off my shirt not wanting to feel the fabric rubbing against it. I lie back down on my belly and breathe in. I can still smell him. He always smelt of apples, I used to beg him to tell me what cologne he used, but he never told me. I think that maybe he sprayed some on the bed just to torment me.
I close my eyes and sigh. How did this happen, and why did I break it off with him? Oh yeah, because I love him. Stupid reason.I know. I growl and bury my face in his pillow. Why, why did I do this? Why didn't I just.I don't know.
I feel tears slide down my face, but I don't care. I don't know how long it took me to fall asleep all I know is that it felt good, sleeping.
"Draco?" I smile into the pillow as my dream Harry talks to me.
"Yes, love?" I mumble into the pillow.
"Wake up."
"No."
"Why?"
"Cause when I do, you'll be gone."
I feel someone lifting me up and holding me. What is happening? Oh, bloody hell, I don't care. I groan as I feel Harry press me up against his chest and start to caress my hair. I sigh and smile against him. This is how it should be in real life. No complications, just my Harry and me.
"I'll never be gone, Draco. I promise," I frown and shut my eyes leaving the blurry visions behind.
"But, you are." I whisper into his chest. I can feel him rise up and down beneath me. I breathe in his scent, always apples, and dig my nails into his shirt, wanting desperately for this to be real. Wanting to wake up and find that everything I thought was real was not.
"Draco, baby, wake up," I shake my head and dig further into his shirt and now into his skin. "Ow.come on, love, you are hurting me." I sigh and open my eyes. I blink and wait for the room to come into focus. I try to force myself to wake up, but the arms around me don't seem to be disappearing.
I look at Harry and sigh.
"I'm trying to wake up.but I can't, please believe me. Don't be angry with me." I say as I crawl into his lap. I feel his arms come around my back and he presses me closer.
"What do you mean, love? You are awake..." I bite my lip and kiss his neck softly. I feel him swallow hard.
"No, because, if I was awake you would not be here. Maybe I don't want to wake....I just want to stay here in this dream with you forever." I feel him lower his head and he blows softly. I can feel his hot breathe making its way down my neck. I shudder and groan.
"Draco, this is not a dream."
"Yes, it is"
"Want me to prove to you that this is real?"
"You can't possibly do that." I whisper into his neck.
I feel him lower me down onto the bed and I whimper at the loss of his hands on my body. He turns me around so I am laying belly down on the bed. I frown and breathe into the pillow. I shudder when I feel him blow onto my back.
I close my eyes and feel him trace his finger over every scar and bruise. He then leans forward and kisses all the way across the H shaped cut. I can feel his soft lips on my back they feel like heaven. Maybe I have died and gone there. Could be possible.although I don't know what I did to deserve this wonderful torture.
He finishes his kisses and uses his finger to make circles on my neck. I moan and flip myself around ignoring the burning stinging that I just caused on my back. I sit up and drag Harry on top of me.
If this is a dream, I hope I never wake up. We lay, for what feels like forever, just looking at each other. I smile shyly and lift my head up to capture his luscious lips in a mind blowing kiss. I run my tongue over the entrance of his mouth and wait for him to let me in. He opens up and groans as I trace the insides of his mouth slowly.
I can't feel anything anymore but the wonderful sensations of pleasure that Harry is giving me. I feel his hands slide up and down my upper body. I sigh with pleasure when he lowers his hands and covers my pounding arousal. I groan and arch up into his hand he smiles and takes his hand off slowly. I growl and pull him down again.
"S-Stop with the t-teasing Potter...." I whisper, unable to steady my voice. He nods and climbs off me. I watch him as he makes his way to the bottom part of me and begins to pull my pants down. I moan and arch up again wanting to feel him, any part of him, on me.
He pulls down my pants, then boxers, leaving me completely exposed and at his mercy. I close my eyes and shudder just the thought of him touching me is enough to make me tremble with pleasure. I wait and then feel his hands on my navel. I feel him trace patterns around it before he moves downward slowly. I buck my hips up and growl. I hear him chuckle.
Suddenly, I can feel it. His breathe surrounding me where I need him most.
"Harry." I moan as I feel him lower his head and kiss the tip of my aching arousal. I can almost hear him smirk. Of course, he does not keep his mouth there for long. I growl in frustration, then pleasure, as he kisses the inside of my thigh. I feel his hair brush against my manhood sending painful pleasure up my entire body.
I open my eyes and see him crawl up to me he straddles my upper body and runs his hands down my chest. I sigh and close my eyes once more.
"Draco."
"Hmm?" I reply, unable to form any words.
"Now do you realize this is not a dream?"
"Sure feels like it." I say, opening my eyes slowly.
"It's not." I nod and watch as he goes back down running his hand up my thigh and finally touching my penis. I growl and arch up into his touch, begging him without words to let me orgasm. I look down and watch as he bends down and finally covers me with his delicious mouth. I scream in pleasure as he starts to pump my cock while keeping his mouth on just the head of my penis.
I can't take it anymore, I orgasm as I feel him swirl the tip of my arousal with his tongue. I arch up and allow the orgasm to take me fully. I call out his name as he crawls back up to hold me in his arms.
His trembling lips find mine as I ride the waves of my orgasm. I attack his mouth and hold him close to me.
"Harry Potter, I want you to make love to me...." I say in a trembling voice. I feel him kiss my neck and stand up off the bed. I sit up and watch him strip, taking off his robes and shirt then pants. I lick my lips as his naked body comes into full view. I smile when he looks at me, his cheeks red and perfect. 'Always the blushing virgin' I used to say. He never did get over blushing when I undressed him or he undressed for me. He always would look away and run his hands through his hair acting as if he were not sure what to do. I smile and stand up next to him. His manhood standing at full attention as I walk forward, wrap my arms around his neck, and kiss him in the crook of it.
"Make love to me, Harry...please.." I say softly. I feel him tremble and I smirk pulling him towards the bed. I watch him grab his wand off the nightstand, his hands shaking. This would be the first time he has ever been allowed to penetrate me. It was always the other way around. I was always on top, he on bottom, but this was a dream and things are different here.
I lie down and watch as he kneels in front of me. I smile and wink at him, making him blush even more.
"Uh.T-turn around, D-draco...." He says in a quavering voice. I nod and turn around so that I lay on my stomach I feel his arms wrap around my waist and pull me up so my arse is up the air. I sigh as I feel his tongue at my entrance. Oh, gods, he is going to kill me. I moan and wriggle as he laughs and I hear him whisper the lubrication spell. The warm substance fills me and I moan waiting for Harry to do something, anything.
I feel his first finger enter me. He slides it in and hesitates then swirls it around before finger-fucking me a bit. I whimper when he stops and adds another finger, making scissoring motions, stretching me out. He adds a third and I hear him moan.
"Gods....Draco, I need...." He whimpers and looks down at me.
"Harry, please, just....." my voice trails off and I feel him lower me down. Suddenly, I feel him enter me. I sigh and moan softly and he stops his motions.
"God, am I hurting you?"
"Oh, shut the hell up and fuck me, Potter!" I shout, frustrated that he stopped. I feel him push in more, but slowly. I groan and push myself back, causing him to enter me completely. He moans and pulls out painfully slow. I smirk and clench my arse muscles, causing him to scream.
"Draco." He moans as he starts to pump faster. I smile and lift myself up onto my hands and knees. He groans and holds my hips still. I wriggle a bit and he grips my hips harder. I moan as I feel my cock rise at the feel of him in me. I look back over my shoulder at him and see his eyes closed, looking so sexy. I moan and suddenly feel his hand wrap around to my arousal. He begins to pump slowly, perfectly in rhythm with his thrusts. I scream as I feel him orgasm inside of me. He continues to thrust and pump. I whimper when I feel him brush across my gland. He continues his thrusts and soon I orgasm. He collapses on me.
We lay there and I feel him begin pull out of me. I whimper and grab onto his hand. He stops all movement.
"No, don't leave me." I whisper. I swallow and close my eyes trying to push back the tears threatening to spill over. I feel him lower his body so he is pressed against me again, his cock still inside me. I feel his lips brush my ear and he kisses me softly.
"I'm never going to leave you. Trust me." I nod and feel him lift himself off me. He pulls out and then sinks onto the bed next to me. I open my eyes and see his beautiful emerald eyes staring at me. I smile and lift a hand to caress his cheek.
"I don't want to wake up." I whisper before leaning in to kiss him firmly on the lips. I see him frown and shake his head.
"You have to, Draco...dreams must come to an end sometime." I whimper and pull back. I turn around so my back is to him. I feel him wrap his arms around my waist and he pulls me closer so I am pressed against his chest. "Go to sleep, love." I nod and close my eyes, once more falling into a deep sleep.
I sit up quickly and open my eyes. I look around the room and sigh. "It was just a dream." I cover my eyes and allow the tears to fall. I stand up and realize I am naked. "Must have gotten a little excited....." I mumble as I look to the sheets which are now sweaty and in desperate need of a good cleaning. I walk to my clothes and see Harry's wand on the table. I frown and walk over to it.
"Draco?" I turn around, startled when I hear someone else. Harry is next to the door and I see it closing behind him.
"Harry?" I whisper barely able to hear myself. I watch him walk over to me he reaches out his hand and I step back.
"What are you doing here, Potter?" I ask, trying my very best to sound demanding and angry, but I sound more desperate and lonely.
"I was just telling Hermione and Ron something, then I came back up here for you." He says watching me intently. I turn around and grab the sheet and try my best to cover up. "Aw, don't tell me you're getting modest now." He says in a teasing voice. I frown and shake my head.
"We are no longer boyfriends.....so you have no right to see me naked." I say, my gaze holding his.
"Draco.....I thought"
"You thought what?"
"Well, I thought that after....a while ago, we were....."
"A while ago?"
"Don't you remember? We..." He clears his throat and looks at the bed. "we...I...made love....to you," He says, hurt and sadness in his voice. ".....and you don't remember." I watch him bring his hand to his head as he runs it through his hair. I frown and walk over to him.
"It was real?" I pull his chin down so he is looking me in the eye.
"Of course it was....I told you I-" I quickly cover his lips with my own and begin to suck on his bottom lip. He groans and pulls away. "Not now.we need to go see Hermione and Ron." I shake my head.
"I don't understand." I say. He smiles and pulls me closer to him. He wraps his hands around my waist and leans his forehead on mine.
"That's just it, because now they do."
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Chapter: 7/9 Living the Dream (Draco's POV)
Disclaimer: I do not own HP they all belong to J.K. Rowling (lucky lady)
Rating: R for this chapter, because of sexual intercourse and language if this offends you please don't read.
Genre: romance/angst but fluff will ensure from here on! ;)
Feedback: Behrbrat224@aol.com Please I love reviews!
Notes: After this, two more chapters! yay! :) we're almost there!
Thanks: To everybody who reviewed this story and stuck by it! I lurve ya!
Beta: Aarynn, you are the best girlie! You have saved me so many times and have stuck by me even when my punctuation is atrocious! I lurve ya and this chapter is for you!
Remember this chapter is HARD R if this offends you please leave you have
been warned!
For those of you brave enough.here it is!
Chapter 7: Living the Dream
(Draco's POV)
As soon as I left the room, I knew where I was headed: mine and Harry's secret place, the place where we first admitted our love for each other, the place where we first made love. I sigh at the memory and feel a smile tugging at the corners of my mouth. But then I frown and shake my head as I start to feel tears well up in my eyes.
That is over now. Over. Done with. No more Harry. I am alone now.all alone. I come to the lion statue and speak the password.
"Complicated."
The lion statue bursts into flames and I step into them. Harry and I never knew how complicated things could really get when we made up the password to the room. I step over the stair step, the same step Harry always seems to forget about when he exits the room.
I slap myself on the forehead. Stop thinking about him. So why did I come here if I wanted to stop thinking about him? Because I don't want to stop thinking about him, I want to think about him, I want to remember our first kiss, our first touch, our first everything. I guess I could also think about our last.but that is too much for me to handle right now.
I walk to the bed and flop onto it, belly first. I crawl up to the pillow and lay on it. As I turn around so I am lying on my back, I feel a stinging sensation course throughout me.
"Shit." I moan as I sit up quickly. I totally forgot about that damn wound Lucius gave me. I frown and take off my shirt not wanting to feel the fabric rubbing against it. I lie back down on my belly and breathe in. I can still smell him. He always smelt of apples, I used to beg him to tell me what cologne he used, but he never told me. I think that maybe he sprayed some on the bed just to torment me.
I close my eyes and sigh. How did this happen, and why did I break it off with him? Oh yeah, because I love him. Stupid reason.I know. I growl and bury my face in his pillow. Why, why did I do this? Why didn't I just.I don't know.
I feel tears slide down my face, but I don't care. I don't know how long it took me to fall asleep all I know is that it felt good, sleeping.
"Draco?" I smile into the pillow as my dream Harry talks to me.
"Yes, love?" I mumble into the pillow.
"Wake up."
"No."
"Why?"
"Cause when I do, you'll be gone."
I feel someone lifting me up and holding me. What is happening? Oh, bloody hell, I don't care. I groan as I feel Harry press me up against his chest and start to caress my hair. I sigh and smile against him. This is how it should be in real life. No complications, just my Harry and me.
"I'll never be gone, Draco. I promise," I frown and shut my eyes leaving the blurry visions behind.
"But, you are." I whisper into his chest. I can feel him rise up and down beneath me. I breathe in his scent, always apples, and dig my nails into his shirt, wanting desperately for this to be real. Wanting to wake up and find that everything I thought was real was not.
"Draco, baby, wake up," I shake my head and dig further into his shirt and now into his skin. "Ow.come on, love, you are hurting me." I sigh and open my eyes. I blink and wait for the room to come into focus. I try to force myself to wake up, but the arms around me don't seem to be disappearing.
I look at Harry and sigh.
"I'm trying to wake up.but I can't, please believe me. Don't be angry with me." I say as I crawl into his lap. I feel his arms come around my back and he presses me closer.
"What do you mean, love? You are awake..." I bite my lip and kiss his neck softly. I feel him swallow hard.
"No, because, if I was awake you would not be here. Maybe I don't want to wake....I just want to stay here in this dream with you forever." I feel him lower his head and he blows softly. I can feel his hot breathe making its way down my neck. I shudder and groan.
"Draco, this is not a dream."
"Yes, it is"
"Want me to prove to you that this is real?"
"You can't possibly do that." I whisper into his neck.
I feel him lower me down onto the bed and I whimper at the loss of his hands on my body. He turns me around so I am laying belly down on the bed. I frown and breathe into the pillow. I shudder when I feel him blow onto my back.
I close my eyes and feel him trace his finger over every scar and bruise. He then leans forward and kisses all the way across the H shaped cut. I can feel his soft lips on my back they feel like heaven. Maybe I have died and gone there. Could be possible.although I don't know what I did to deserve this wonderful torture.
He finishes his kisses and uses his finger to make circles on my neck. I moan and flip myself around ignoring the burning stinging that I just caused on my back. I sit up and drag Harry on top of me.
If this is a dream, I hope I never wake up. We lay, for what feels like forever, just looking at each other. I smile shyly and lift my head up to capture his luscious lips in a mind blowing kiss. I run my tongue over the entrance of his mouth and wait for him to let me in. He opens up and groans as I trace the insides of his mouth slowly.
I can't feel anything anymore but the wonderful sensations of pleasure that Harry is giving me. I feel his hands slide up and down my upper body. I sigh with pleasure when he lowers his hands and covers my pounding arousal. I groan and arch up into his hand he smiles and takes his hand off slowly. I growl and pull him down again.
"S-Stop with the t-teasing Potter...." I whisper, unable to steady my voice. He nods and climbs off me. I watch him as he makes his way to the bottom part of me and begins to pull my pants down. I moan and arch up again wanting to feel him, any part of him, on me.
He pulls down my pants, then boxers, leaving me completely exposed and at his mercy. I close my eyes and shudder just the thought of him touching me is enough to make me tremble with pleasure. I wait and then feel his hands on my navel. I feel him trace patterns around it before he moves downward slowly. I buck my hips up and growl. I hear him chuckle.
Suddenly, I can feel it. His breathe surrounding me where I need him most.
"Harry." I moan as I feel him lower his head and kiss the tip of my aching arousal. I can almost hear him smirk. Of course, he does not keep his mouth there for long. I growl in frustration, then pleasure, as he kisses the inside of my thigh. I feel his hair brush against my manhood sending painful pleasure up my entire body.
I open my eyes and see him crawl up to me he straddles my upper body and runs his hands down my chest. I sigh and close my eyes once more.
"Draco."
"Hmm?" I reply, unable to form any words.
"Now do you realize this is not a dream?"
"Sure feels like it." I say, opening my eyes slowly.
"It's not." I nod and watch as he goes back down running his hand up my thigh and finally touching my penis. I growl and arch up into his touch, begging him without words to let me orgasm. I look down and watch as he bends down and finally covers me with his delicious mouth. I scream in pleasure as he starts to pump my cock while keeping his mouth on just the head of my penis.
I can't take it anymore, I orgasm as I feel him swirl the tip of my arousal with his tongue. I arch up and allow the orgasm to take me fully. I call out his name as he crawls back up to hold me in his arms.
His trembling lips find mine as I ride the waves of my orgasm. I attack his mouth and hold him close to me.
"Harry Potter, I want you to make love to me...." I say in a trembling voice. I feel him kiss my neck and stand up off the bed. I sit up and watch him strip, taking off his robes and shirt then pants. I lick my lips as his naked body comes into full view. I smile when he looks at me, his cheeks red and perfect. 'Always the blushing virgin' I used to say. He never did get over blushing when I undressed him or he undressed for me. He always would look away and run his hands through his hair acting as if he were not sure what to do. I smile and stand up next to him. His manhood standing at full attention as I walk forward, wrap my arms around his neck, and kiss him in the crook of it.
"Make love to me, Harry...please.." I say softly. I feel him tremble and I smirk pulling him towards the bed. I watch him grab his wand off the nightstand, his hands shaking. This would be the first time he has ever been allowed to penetrate me. It was always the other way around. I was always on top, he on bottom, but this was a dream and things are different here.
I lie down and watch as he kneels in front of me. I smile and wink at him, making him blush even more.
"Uh.T-turn around, D-draco...." He says in a quavering voice. I nod and turn around so that I lay on my stomach I feel his arms wrap around my waist and pull me up so my arse is up the air. I sigh as I feel his tongue at my entrance. Oh, gods, he is going to kill me. I moan and wriggle as he laughs and I hear him whisper the lubrication spell. The warm substance fills me and I moan waiting for Harry to do something, anything.
I feel his first finger enter me. He slides it in and hesitates then swirls it around before finger-fucking me a bit. I whimper when he stops and adds another finger, making scissoring motions, stretching me out. He adds a third and I hear him moan.
"Gods....Draco, I need...." He whimpers and looks down at me.
"Harry, please, just....." my voice trails off and I feel him lower me down. Suddenly, I feel him enter me. I sigh and moan softly and he stops his motions.
"God, am I hurting you?"
"Oh, shut the hell up and fuck me, Potter!" I shout, frustrated that he stopped. I feel him push in more, but slowly. I groan and push myself back, causing him to enter me completely. He moans and pulls out painfully slow. I smirk and clench my arse muscles, causing him to scream.
"Draco." He moans as he starts to pump faster. I smile and lift myself up onto my hands and knees. He groans and holds my hips still. I wriggle a bit and he grips my hips harder. I moan as I feel my cock rise at the feel of him in me. I look back over my shoulder at him and see his eyes closed, looking so sexy. I moan and suddenly feel his hand wrap around to my arousal. He begins to pump slowly, perfectly in rhythm with his thrusts. I scream as I feel him orgasm inside of me. He continues to thrust and pump. I whimper when I feel him brush across my gland. He continues his thrusts and soon I orgasm. He collapses on me.
We lay there and I feel him begin pull out of me. I whimper and grab onto his hand. He stops all movement.
"No, don't leave me." I whisper. I swallow and close my eyes trying to push back the tears threatening to spill over. I feel him lower his body so he is pressed against me again, his cock still inside me. I feel his lips brush my ear and he kisses me softly.
"I'm never going to leave you. Trust me." I nod and feel him lift himself off me. He pulls out and then sinks onto the bed next to me. I open my eyes and see his beautiful emerald eyes staring at me. I smile and lift a hand to caress his cheek.
"I don't want to wake up." I whisper before leaning in to kiss him firmly on the lips. I see him frown and shake his head.
"You have to, Draco...dreams must come to an end sometime." I whimper and pull back. I turn around so my back is to him. I feel him wrap his arms around my waist and he pulls me closer so I am pressed against his chest. "Go to sleep, love." I nod and close my eyes, once more falling into a deep sleep.
I sit up quickly and open my eyes. I look around the room and sigh. "It was just a dream." I cover my eyes and allow the tears to fall. I stand up and realize I am naked. "Must have gotten a little excited....." I mumble as I look to the sheets which are now sweaty and in desperate need of a good cleaning. I walk to my clothes and see Harry's wand on the table. I frown and walk over to it.
"Draco?" I turn around, startled when I hear someone else. Harry is next to the door and I see it closing behind him.
"Harry?" I whisper barely able to hear myself. I watch him walk over to me he reaches out his hand and I step back.
"What are you doing here, Potter?" I ask, trying my very best to sound demanding and angry, but I sound more desperate and lonely.
"I was just telling Hermione and Ron something, then I came back up here for you." He says watching me intently. I turn around and grab the sheet and try my best to cover up. "Aw, don't tell me you're getting modest now." He says in a teasing voice. I frown and shake my head.
"We are no longer boyfriends.....so you have no right to see me naked." I say, my gaze holding his.
"Draco.....I thought"
"You thought what?"
"Well, I thought that after....a while ago, we were....."
"A while ago?"
"Don't you remember? We..." He clears his throat and looks at the bed. "we...I...made love....to you," He says, hurt and sadness in his voice. ".....and you don't remember." I watch him bring his hand to his head as he runs it through his hair. I frown and walk over to him.
"It was real?" I pull his chin down so he is looking me in the eye.
"Of course it was....I told you I-" I quickly cover his lips with my own and begin to suck on his bottom lip. He groans and pulls away. "Not now.we need to go see Hermione and Ron." I shake my head.
"I don't understand." I say. He smiles and pulls me closer to him. He wraps his hands around my waist and leans his forehead on mine.
"That's just it, because now they do."
There it is the seventh chapter! Yay aren't ya excited? Two more chapters! Two!
Next chapter: Old feelings are pushed aside for new beginnings. Featuring Oblivious!Hermione, Defensive!Ron and Reluctant!Draco YAY!
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