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Characters that are mine:: Emma, Carmen, Alex, River, Rachel, Sean, and Shantele.

Never Look Back

By *~*~*River Goddess *~*~*

Chapter 1

I keep on repeating that day in my head. The day when I was happy, the day when I cried, the day when I died. I haven't seen any of my family since that day when I told my mother. After that I left. Ron did send me an owl once.

'How did this happen Ginny, my little sister?'

I replied back to him.

'Well the cabbage patch and the diamond turned into a baby!'

'Really?!?!?'

'NO! You stupid fuck head! I had sex!'

'Ginny that's not what you should be doing your only 16.'

'Yes, well big brother Ron. You don't know fucking shit about me! Why don't you and your fucking girlfriend go lay off? Oh sorry opps. Where would u two go lay, down together? In your mommy's room?'

I never got a response to that. Think that I scared him off. I don't really care though; it's not like he does.

All I need right now is to concentrate on taking care of Emma now. Once she starts going to school I will be able to work longer hours. Then I can move out of my shitty 3-room apartment. She deserves better then this. And so do I.

'MOMMMMMMY!' Emma screamed as I [a/n Ginny, gin, ginger same parson!] walked through the door. Emma's small chubby arms clutched around my leg as she looks up at me with her big brown eyes and blond, curly locks of hair.

'Hey, baby!' I picked her up with one arm and while the other arm carried their dinner. 'I'm guessing she was a good girl today?' I asked Rachel who was sitting in the corner surrounded my rubber ducks.

'Emma was a very good girl today, weren't you Emma?' Rachel stood up and walked over to me and stroked Emma's hair.

Emma just sucked her thumb while her eyes drooped down.

'Thank you Rach, don't know what I would do with out you. I'll give you your pay tomorrow for the week.' I said then went out sided in to the snowy streets of New York City.

Rachel was the first person I could trust. Now she's the only person that I trust with Emma. I have other people who I talk to at work there's Shantele, River, and Carmen. Those are my girls that I talk to all of the time at work. My manager Sean is ok, I just act all perfect and cheerful around him. Even when I'm down in the slumps. But his son Alex who's nineteen is crazy.

'So, Ginger do you think after you get off your shift we could have a cup of coffee?'

'I'm sorry Alex, but I can't I have to go get Emma.'

'I'll go get her with you, and then I could take you out two out for dinner. Any place, McDonalds, Wendy's, Taco Bell, you name it we go.'

'Alex I can't I have to go.'

That's the conversation everyday after I just get off. I don't understand why keeps asking me. The only guy who I want to be with is Draco Malfoy. Even thought he never answered me when I told him, I can't let him leave my mind. I fall asleep every night with a memory of us two. I would give anything just to see him again, but that's just a silly dream that will never happen.

I can never see him again, the same with my mother and all of my relatives, or anyone from the wizarding world. I just have to let my emotion go and get by with each passing day with Emma, just Emma.

'Mamma?' Emma's sweet voice asks me as I open the door to the apartment. 'Again, all new, he's back.'

'O baby, what are you talking about?' I said slightly laughing, as I put her onto the couch.

'Daddy.'

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