Authors Notes:

Well, that's it, the end of this fic, not the ending most of you were expecting ne?

I know I put Shinji though a lot of emotional pain and stress in this fic, I am by no means bashing his character. I just wanted to write a story based on the emotional struggle that is relationships without the happily ever after crap since life is not like that.

This has been a bit sadder than my usual writing style since most of my fics do carry a happy overtone. But I tend to write how I feel through the characters and right now, I'm not really in a happy place, granted my life is not going as bad as Shinji's was in this story but I digress.

Ok, a Few notes about some questions you may be asking in your head. So before you put pen to paper (well, finger to keyboard) in a review, give me a chance to explain.

Ok Rei telling Shinji to sleep with her,

Lets face it, Rei is practically the commanders daughter she was raised by him and would probably carry a lot of his idiosyncrasies one of which is to maintain control around her. She is not gonna let Shinji (or anyone else) dictate to her what she can and can't do in her own apartment.

Plus I tried to give it more of a sisterly feel to it than "boyfriend/girlfriend" at first, even though later I did have Rei feeling something for Shinji, though she couldn't figure out what, which explains some of her erratic emotions later in the story

Ewww Misato screwed Shinji! You sick bastard!

For someone like Misato, I would imagine (as I perceive her character) sex would be the best way of showing someone how much you care and love them.

In the series its clear she wanted to sleep with Shinji very VERY badly, to show him just how much he meant to her and how much she loved him, I just took that a bit further and the possible consequences had they slept together. On a side note, she didn't just decide to do it, it took that mechanism plus the alcohol induced loss of inhibition and control to do something about it.

Who the heck was Hikaru?

Hikaru was an ACC, she was created to be Shinji's friend and to show him that not everyone was put off by Shinji's distant attitude towards life and because she felt sorry for him I guess because of the way Hikari was treating Shinji.

The way Hikari had used him and tossed him away when she had no further use for him anymore (remind you of anyone?) Misato also had much hostility for Hikari for the same reasons.

Why didn't you have Hikari end up with Shinji?

In the series its clear that Hikari was in love with Touji, Touji was just too stupid to see it, till it was too late of course. Well I wanted Hikari to speed things along slightly by asking Shinji for help, not thinking that she may fall in love with both men, I wanted to get to a point where Shinji could accept Hikari's choice and be her friend but not forgive her for hurting him.

Why did you make Asuka such a bitch?

Well I just see her as she is portrayed, trying to keep her in character as much as I could, her hatred for Rei, Shinji, and Misato. I saw Asuka as just a bundle of hatred. Yes that hatred made her an excellent Eva pilot, but not a very nice person inside. That's what I tried to show her as.

What did Hikari's last kiss mean?

Well I leave that for you to formulate your own opinion. For me, It seemed more of a goodbye kiss, it was nice but it can't happen again kind of thing.

Eva 05 - huh?

Eva 05 was simply a plot device, I needed a catalyst to make Shinji Crack, and then I got thinking what if it happened in an Eva.

00, 01 and 02 would not work for what I needed, as Gendou could simply order the LCL pressure thing or the disconnection of the power and so Eva 05 was born. Also I wanted some nice interaction between Shinji's mind and 05.

KENSUKE! Why didn't you use him more!

I couldn't think of a reason to sorry, I do apologise to the Kensuke fans out there, I just couldn't think of a use for him in the plot that would do his character justice. I like him myself and I promise that if I make a sequel (or another Eva story) I will give Kensuke a more central role

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Ok, that about covers most of the things I would think are going through your head, and so wraps up the longest Authors notes ever. Any comments, Criticism etc leave a review or send me an email to - acidb@postmaster.co.uk as per usual flames will be ignored.

And now for something completely different

Below is a collection of funny/strange outtakes Created by Will Z and myself after pre-reading. Outtake 1

Then it dawned on her she had turned Shinji into the one thing he hated more than anything in the world - his father

It was the last straw for Hikari, she broke down and cried, for the first time since this whole affair had began, she cried until she ran out of tears but still she cried.

Hikari Drew the pistol from her backpack placed the Barrel to her head and pulled the Trigger.

Shinji's lips contorted into the famous Ikari Grin as he heard the Gun go off Just like the Elder Gendou Ikari. "soon my plans will reach fruition", Shinji said slowly pulling on a pair of white gloves.

******* Outtake 2

Shinji made dinner and drinks, after some hours of polite conversation Misato completely took Shinji by surprise; "Shinji, Could I stay here tonight?", Misato asked. Needless to say Shinji was stunned and it was several minutes before he answered. "Sure".

"Can I sleep with you?", Misato asked, Jiggling her boobs and squeezing them through her thin shirt.

"MEEEP!" Shinji exclaimed as blood gushed from his nose like two high- pressure hoses.

Misato pulled her top over her head to Undress Shinji Screamed and Ran out straight through his apartment door and bumped into Asuka knocking her to the ground landing on top of her

Shinji Screamed again and Ran off into the night...

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Outtake 3

Asuka had just been ejected from her Entry plug minutes earlier and was still wet form the LCL as she walked along the corridor she saw the elevator doors closing and that walk quickly turned into a sprint and Asuka yelling "Hold the Doors"

The occupant did not respond Asuka Jammed her hand between the doors barely in time and the doors re-opened with a chime sound.

Asuka looked up out of breath, holding the Doorframe to remain upright, she was greeted with the usual emotionless face of Rei Ayanami. "Hey Wodergirl, didn't you hear me shouting or are you just deaf?" Asuka Chimed off.

Rei Remained impassive as Asuka stepped into the Elevator and the Doors Closed behind her. As the Elevator descended to the desired floor, Asuka spat out insult after insult at the blue haired girl until Rei finally cracked.

Rei slammed Asuka against the wall, and held Two Mico-N2 Mines in each hand, Rei cackled with laughter as the usually mild mannered girl shouted, "Here's Johnny" Rei cackled with true laughter once again as she pushed the button to detonates the N2 mine's.

The NERV Sub Level 8, section 6 was destroyed in a Mysterious explosion. Thought to be by an N2 Mine however the cause of this was never discovered.