Kaiba slammed his fist down on the table. ~That stupid dog. The least he
could do was give me a godamn call.~ He glanced at his watch. 10:08.
~Godamnit. That little shit. He should call and make me stop worrying!~
He cringed at the thought of worrying about the damn dog.
His cell phone broke him out of his thoughts. He pulled it from his pocket. "Yeah?" he asked a bit angrily.
"Kaiba?" It was Jounochi. "Can you...can you come pick me up?"
"Jounochi? Where the hell have you been? For god's sake, it's past 10!"
"Please, Kaiba. Please. We'll talk later. I need a ride."
"I'll send a limo. Where the hell are you?"
"B-Ba...9323 Main," he said in an odd tone.
"They'll be someone there shortly."
~~~
Jou hung up the phone and turned back to his hosts. "He's coming to pick me up," he said lamely.
Marik rolled his eyes, dismissing him with a hand.
Bakura leaned forward. "Kaiba? Since when are you and Kaiba fucking?"
"We-- we're not. I'm just staying at his place for a few days."
Bakura crossed his arms, eyebrow said. "Yeah, I'll bet Jouno."
Jou turned from him, clutching at the counter. "Y-yeah..." He suddenly felt cold. He hated waiting around like this. It felt sick and...lonely. And he hated the way Marik ignored him and Bakura interrogated him. "I'll...I'll go wait outside." He began walking out but Bakura grabbed him.
"Now just where do you think you're going, mister? It's past ten, I can't have you out there on your own. There's rapists," he purred into Jou's ear.
Jou swallowed. He hated the way Bakura talked when he was like this.
Bakura wrapped his arms around Jou and pressed his erection against Jou's back. "Come on," he purred. "Just a quickie before ya go. Me and Marik want some more."
Jou shook his head. "N-n...no...no..."
Bakura bit at his ear. "Oh come on, Jouno." He bucked his hips against the scared blond.
Marik sighed. "God, leave him alone, Baku. You're really making him feel like shit."
"I just want some more..." Bakura pleaded, but knowing he didn't even have to ask if he really wanted it to. It was just more fun to get Jounochi to agree.
"You're humiliating him, come on."
Bakura made pathetic whimpering noises. "I'm hoooorrrnnnyyyy..." he moaned.
The doorbell rang and Bakura made his way, still holding Jou in his arms, to it. He opened it and raised his eyebrows. "Wow, the millionaire came to pick up his dog *personally*. You sure are *pampered* Jouno."
Kaiba looked at Jounochi shocked. "Jounochi...what's going on?"
Bakura snickered. "I guess puppy forgot to get permission before he came out to play." He looked up at Kaiba. "You should really get him neutered. He's a horny little dog."
Marik came and grabbed Bakura. "Stop it," he said coldly.
Bakura smiled at Kaiba. "Well, as long as you promise to give him a good home, he's all yours."
Jounochi broke his white-haired man-handler, keeping his eyes to the ground. "Lets go, Kaiba," he mumbled.
Bakura waved sweetly to Kaiba, who shot him a dirty look. "Bye Kaiba, bye Jouno."
"Bye Bakura, bye Namo," Jou muttered, following Kaiba out.
~~~
Jou looked up. Kaiba was staring at him, arms crossed, a very unhappy look on his face. They were illuminated only by the passing cars, giving an eerie look and feel to it all.
"Why?" Kaiba asked softly, though his expression was anything but.
"Why does it matter?" Jounochi muttered lamely. "You do things I don't understand and vice versa."
"Hey, you want to have sex, go right ahead. It's not my place to stop ya."
"Then what's your problem?"
"Why do you put up with the way they treat you?"
Jou looked down. He got it.
"No, it's not a rhetorical question, Jounochi. Why? How could you be able to put up with such...abuse?"
"Because Namo says 'I love you,' every time," he mumbled. Sounded like a weak excuse to himself.
"Namo? The blond? You can't honestly think he means it, can you?"
"No. But that doesn't matter."
"Why not? What's the point if you know they couldn't care less?"
"Because...because I don't hear it very often."
"What?" Kaiba asked.
"No one ever says it to me unless I'm willing to fuck them."
"So is it really worth it?"
"Of course it is," Jou said witheringly, like it was a common fact everyone got, save Kaiba. "You have Mokuba who will always love you. I don't have that. I never get to see my sister. She's with my mom again and I never get to see them since the divorce."
"What about your dad?" Kaiba asked softly.
"If he loved me, I'd be at his house, wouldn't I?" Jou muttered.
"Jounochi, how can a father not love his own son?"
Jounochi stared at him. His eyes seemed hallow and his expression gave little idea about his thoughts. "I used to ask myself that every day, Kaiba. And I still don't have the answer." He turned from Kaiba, staring out the window.
"I...I didn't know..."
"Didn't know what?"
"That all you wanted was to be loved."
"I used to want that, Kaiba," he said, his voice as hallow as his eyes. "I did. It was the only reason to do it each time." He placed his arm up on the back of the seat and laid his head on top of it, staring out at the cars that flied by. "Now it's just to numb the pain. To...I can't forget it anymore, like when 'I love you' was enough. I could forget it then. That's all I had wanted, to be loved, so even if it was fake, it was okay. But now...I just need the sex. Not to get off. No...the pain... Just numb it for a few blissful seconds. That's all I need," he whispered.
"What pain?" Kaiba asked softly.
"Living. Pain of...pain of knowing no one will *ever* love me. I got my hopes up too high with Yugi. I thought my best friend would understand. And love me. I wanted to be loved. But he couldn't...no one can ever love me. I'm just Jounochi Katsuya, friend and lover to everyone. That's all I'll ever be," he whispered.
Kaiba's mouth dropped open, shocked. "Jou...I never knew..."
"I know. I was just that annoying mutt. All I wanted to do at school was pretend. And you helped. The only person who was ignorant about my pain. Thank you. Yugi knew, but not the extent. Never. I could never tell him. So innocent...completely innocent. You had no idea. Neither did he. You were my lifelines. Ignorance from one, innocence from the other." He gasped as he felt Kaiba throw himself on him, wrapping his arms around Jou.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, Jou. So absolutely sorry, Katsuya," he whispered.
Jou felt Kaiba's hands tighten around him and his breath quicken a bit. Signs of passion. Jou knew them so well. He expected a kiss on his neck, or busy, determined hands undoing his pants. But all he felt was Kaiba's short breaths and tightening, loosening, then tightening again hands on him.
~~~
His cell phone broke him out of his thoughts. He pulled it from his pocket. "Yeah?" he asked a bit angrily.
"Kaiba?" It was Jounochi. "Can you...can you come pick me up?"
"Jounochi? Where the hell have you been? For god's sake, it's past 10!"
"Please, Kaiba. Please. We'll talk later. I need a ride."
"I'll send a limo. Where the hell are you?"
"B-Ba...9323 Main," he said in an odd tone.
"They'll be someone there shortly."
~~~
Jou hung up the phone and turned back to his hosts. "He's coming to pick me up," he said lamely.
Marik rolled his eyes, dismissing him with a hand.
Bakura leaned forward. "Kaiba? Since when are you and Kaiba fucking?"
"We-- we're not. I'm just staying at his place for a few days."
Bakura crossed his arms, eyebrow said. "Yeah, I'll bet Jouno."
Jou turned from him, clutching at the counter. "Y-yeah..." He suddenly felt cold. He hated waiting around like this. It felt sick and...lonely. And he hated the way Marik ignored him and Bakura interrogated him. "I'll...I'll go wait outside." He began walking out but Bakura grabbed him.
"Now just where do you think you're going, mister? It's past ten, I can't have you out there on your own. There's rapists," he purred into Jou's ear.
Jou swallowed. He hated the way Bakura talked when he was like this.
Bakura wrapped his arms around Jou and pressed his erection against Jou's back. "Come on," he purred. "Just a quickie before ya go. Me and Marik want some more."
Jou shook his head. "N-n...no...no..."
Bakura bit at his ear. "Oh come on, Jouno." He bucked his hips against the scared blond.
Marik sighed. "God, leave him alone, Baku. You're really making him feel like shit."
"I just want some more..." Bakura pleaded, but knowing he didn't even have to ask if he really wanted it to. It was just more fun to get Jounochi to agree.
"You're humiliating him, come on."
Bakura made pathetic whimpering noises. "I'm hoooorrrnnnyyyy..." he moaned.
The doorbell rang and Bakura made his way, still holding Jou in his arms, to it. He opened it and raised his eyebrows. "Wow, the millionaire came to pick up his dog *personally*. You sure are *pampered* Jouno."
Kaiba looked at Jounochi shocked. "Jounochi...what's going on?"
Bakura snickered. "I guess puppy forgot to get permission before he came out to play." He looked up at Kaiba. "You should really get him neutered. He's a horny little dog."
Marik came and grabbed Bakura. "Stop it," he said coldly.
Bakura smiled at Kaiba. "Well, as long as you promise to give him a good home, he's all yours."
Jounochi broke his white-haired man-handler, keeping his eyes to the ground. "Lets go, Kaiba," he mumbled.
Bakura waved sweetly to Kaiba, who shot him a dirty look. "Bye Kaiba, bye Jouno."
"Bye Bakura, bye Namo," Jou muttered, following Kaiba out.
~~~
Jou looked up. Kaiba was staring at him, arms crossed, a very unhappy look on his face. They were illuminated only by the passing cars, giving an eerie look and feel to it all.
"Why?" Kaiba asked softly, though his expression was anything but.
"Why does it matter?" Jounochi muttered lamely. "You do things I don't understand and vice versa."
"Hey, you want to have sex, go right ahead. It's not my place to stop ya."
"Then what's your problem?"
"Why do you put up with the way they treat you?"
Jou looked down. He got it.
"No, it's not a rhetorical question, Jounochi. Why? How could you be able to put up with such...abuse?"
"Because Namo says 'I love you,' every time," he mumbled. Sounded like a weak excuse to himself.
"Namo? The blond? You can't honestly think he means it, can you?"
"No. But that doesn't matter."
"Why not? What's the point if you know they couldn't care less?"
"Because...because I don't hear it very often."
"What?" Kaiba asked.
"No one ever says it to me unless I'm willing to fuck them."
"So is it really worth it?"
"Of course it is," Jou said witheringly, like it was a common fact everyone got, save Kaiba. "You have Mokuba who will always love you. I don't have that. I never get to see my sister. She's with my mom again and I never get to see them since the divorce."
"What about your dad?" Kaiba asked softly.
"If he loved me, I'd be at his house, wouldn't I?" Jou muttered.
"Jounochi, how can a father not love his own son?"
Jounochi stared at him. His eyes seemed hallow and his expression gave little idea about his thoughts. "I used to ask myself that every day, Kaiba. And I still don't have the answer." He turned from Kaiba, staring out the window.
"I...I didn't know..."
"Didn't know what?"
"That all you wanted was to be loved."
"I used to want that, Kaiba," he said, his voice as hallow as his eyes. "I did. It was the only reason to do it each time." He placed his arm up on the back of the seat and laid his head on top of it, staring out at the cars that flied by. "Now it's just to numb the pain. To...I can't forget it anymore, like when 'I love you' was enough. I could forget it then. That's all I had wanted, to be loved, so even if it was fake, it was okay. But now...I just need the sex. Not to get off. No...the pain... Just numb it for a few blissful seconds. That's all I need," he whispered.
"What pain?" Kaiba asked softly.
"Living. Pain of...pain of knowing no one will *ever* love me. I got my hopes up too high with Yugi. I thought my best friend would understand. And love me. I wanted to be loved. But he couldn't...no one can ever love me. I'm just Jounochi Katsuya, friend and lover to everyone. That's all I'll ever be," he whispered.
Kaiba's mouth dropped open, shocked. "Jou...I never knew..."
"I know. I was just that annoying mutt. All I wanted to do at school was pretend. And you helped. The only person who was ignorant about my pain. Thank you. Yugi knew, but not the extent. Never. I could never tell him. So innocent...completely innocent. You had no idea. Neither did he. You were my lifelines. Ignorance from one, innocence from the other." He gasped as he felt Kaiba throw himself on him, wrapping his arms around Jou.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, Jou. So absolutely sorry, Katsuya," he whispered.
Jou felt Kaiba's hands tighten around him and his breath quicken a bit. Signs of passion. Jou knew them so well. He expected a kiss on his neck, or busy, determined hands undoing his pants. But all he felt was Kaiba's short breaths and tightening, loosening, then tightening again hands on him.
~~~
