Kaiba finally let go of him when the limo pulled up to the mansion and he quickly excused himself. Jou found his way to his room he had been staying in and curled up with a pillow on the bed. Not sleepy. Just tired. Completely tired.

That's when he heard the small moans. Kaiba's room was next door and adjoined by a door that Kaiba usually kept locked. He had been unlatching it, though, lately, for some unknown reason. It was open a bit and through it Jou could heard low purrs and soft moans. He sat up a bit and crawled to the edge of the bed, careful to not make any noise. He listened quietly, not feeling much emotion. He finally stood up and edged into Kaiba's room. "Need some help?" he asked softly.

Kaiba's eyes widened a bit and he pulled a blanket over him. "Go back to your room," he ordered, shocked.

"Need any help?" Jou repeated.

"I...uh...y-yeah...yes..."

Jou sat on the bed behind Kaiba and leaned his back against the wall. He pulled Kaiba into his arms and let his hands gently trail down Kaiba's bare chest. He hugged himself close, his chest pressed against Kaiba's back. "Not getting very far on your own?" he whispered into Kaiba's neck.

Kaiba let out a soft, uncomfortable moan. "P-please, Jou..." He put his hand under the blanket and began stroking it again.

Jou pulled his hand back and replaced it with his own. "Relax," he whispered, his eyes closing, beginning to stroke Kaiba, throwing the blanket off, leaving him completely exposed.

Kaiba moaned, arching his back and bucking his hips. "J-Jou...oh Jou..." As Jou found a steady pace, Kaiba began to purr, nearly melting at Jou's experienced touch. He grabbed at anything solid, trying to control himself. His nails dug into Jou's pant-clad leg, obviously hurting him, but Jou did nothing to stop him. He moaned loudly, sweat glistening on his body. "Jou, Jou, Jou!" he began moaning. "Oh god...Jou...Jounochi..." He arched his back, throwing his head back. "Oh Jou!" he screamed, spilling himself on Jounochi's hands. He gasped, trying to catch his breath. He fell limp against Jou, whimpering.

Jou wiped his hand on his pant leg and looked at the other. He nonchalantly stuck his fingers in his mouth, sucking. "Mmm..." He wrapped his arms around Kaiba's chest tightly, holding him. He placed a kiss on the back of Kaiba's brunette head. "You good?"

"Yeah..." Kaiba panted. "Good." He paused, placing his hand on Jou's, squeezing. Jou noticed a slight tremble to Kaiba and tightened his grip to steady him. "Do...do you want me to...?" he trailed off, nervous.

Jou shook his head and kissed Kaiba's head again. "No," he whispered. "I'm fine."

Kaiba leaned back, nuzzling Jou's cheek with his. "Thank you," he whispered, kissing Jou's jaw. "So beautiful..." he murmured.

Jou laughed lightly. "Sex really gives me some control over you, rich boy."

Kaiba closed his eyes, placing his hand on Jou's jaw line, softly stroking it, smiling. "Mmmm..."

"Kaiba, we should probably go to bed."

"Bed?" he whispered. He pulled Jou down, gently. He leaned in and kissed him. "So beautiful," he murmured. He tilted his head, beginning to deepen the kiss.

Jou broke from him, trying to calm Kaiba down. "K-Kaiba...calm down. It was just a hand job..."

Kaiba began trying to kiss him again.

Jou edged himself from Kaiba. "Go to sleep, Kaiba," he said more coldly than he meant.

Kaiba pulled the blanket around his shoulders, suddenly missing Jounochi's warmth. He blinked his eyes open. "Don't go, Katsuya," he whispered. "Come back," he said, an unintentional sob forming in his throat.

Jou shook his head. "It's just the chemicals in your brain, Kaiba. Don't get so worked-up." He playfully shook Kaiba's shoulders. "Come on, Kaiba, it's okay--"

Kaiba turned from him suddenly, drawing his legs up to his chest. "Okay, night Jounochi."

Jou gave Kaiba a half smile. "Yeah...night..."

~~~

Jou crawled underneath the covers. He felt cold. Kaiba had agreed to very chaste kissing and now... Jou felt like throwing up. It wasn't the sex. He could handle the sex. It was Kaiba going back on his promise. Looking for love that wasn't there.

Jou rolled over, throwing the covers off, hot. He let his hand trail over his stomach. He only slept in boxers and it was a good thing, considering the few pairs of clothes he had at Kaiba's.

Jou couldn't stand just laying there. Kaiba hadn't looked hurt. But he sounded hurt. In his emotionally-lacking voice of his. Jou sighed, rolling onto his side. He stared at the clock. ~Whoa...it's, like, one a.m. I didn't think it's been that long since I got home. No wonder Mokuba's not up.~ Jou sighed, throwing the covers up and padded softly into Kaiba's room. ~He went awfully fast...definite virgin. I liked the way he tasted.~

"Kaiba?" he whispered.

"Go away," he mumbled.

Jounochi slipped into bed next to him. Kaiba was wearing a night shirt and boxers and he laid curled up in the fetal position. Jou began to slightly spoon with him. "Kaiba..." he whispered.

"Leave me alone, mutt."

"Well, Kitty, I can't. I'm sorry. But, you broke the promise. Only chaste kissing."

Kaiba let out a low moan. "Puppy..." he whispered, beginning to relax his muscles.

"Calm down," Jou echoed. He kissed the back of Kaiba's neck.

Kaiba moaned. He rolled around to face Jou. "Jounochi," he whispered. "I don't understand why we can't go further."

"Well, we could. I suppose...but I know you don't love me. So you'd turn into just another guy I fucked. And I thought...you didn't want to be that."

Kaiba leaned in and gently kissed Jounochi. "Jou...I don't want to hurt you. But being with you...it feels so good. I like being with you."

Jou slightly misinterpreted it, and nodded. "Yeah, sex can feel very good."

"No. Not the sex, Jou. It's you. Something about you is really...nice."

Jou genuinely smiled. "You think I'm 'nice'?"

"'Good' sounds too sex-oriented. You're something else," he whispered, running his hand down Jou's soft cheek.

Letting go of all controls, Jou moved in closer to Kaiba and placed his lips on his. Kaiba welcomed his tongue and pulled Jounochi closer. Their soft kisses became expressions of the unspoken, nor even understood, passion they had for each other. Hands wondered and tongues explored. They held each other in a tight, need-filled embrace. Not a word was spoken, but soft whimpers and gentle purring mixed together in a strange harmony. Neither could fathom how they felt or how the other did. But it didn't matter. It was a raw emotional experience that left them fulfilled that night, sleeping in each other's embrace.

~~~

Jou yawned and rolled over. He slipped his arms around Kaiba's waist and laid his head in his lap. "Hey," he whispered.

Kaiba distractedly began stroking his hair. He was already dressed and flipping through a contract-looking document. He took a sip of coffee. "Hey. You're blushing."

Jou turned redder. "Mmm...yeah..."

"May I inquire why?"

"Um...I'm not used to...to waking up next to someone. I usually leave after they fall asleep. Or before..."

"I guess you were too tired." ~Oh, damn, that came out wrong...~

Jou sat up and scooted away from Kaiba, a perplexed look on his face. "Um, yeah. I guess so." He stood up and began making his way out of the room.

Kaiba set his coffee down. "Jou, wait. Jou! Jounochi!" He got up and went after Jou. "Jounochi, wait!" He grabbed him by the arm. "Please," he whispered. "I didn't mean to say it like that."

"Like what?" Jounochi whispered deep in his throat. "Like I'm just some recreation?"

"Jou! You know that's not true! I like you."

"Great, I like you, too. Lets just be friends."

"Jounochi!"

"I'm tired of doing this with you!" he said irritated, knocking Kaiba's hand off him, and turning to look at him.

Kaiba stepped back, a stricken look on his face. "Okay...fine..." He began to breathe heavily, moving away from Jou, step-by-step, feeling betrayed.

"Kaiba! Wait! Don't go getting all like this!"

Kaiba shook his head, turning from Jounochi. "I just need to go think about stuff. And remember, you're still in a competition. Might want to continue dueling."

Jou looked down. He hadn't meant to hurt Kaiba. At the same time, he couldn't go getting himself hurt again. As soon as Kaiba left the room, Jou slammed down his Duel Disk and put his foot through it. He looked at the shattered piece of technology. "Stupid Kaiba," he muttered, spitting on it. He bent down to pick up his deck but stopped mid-reach. ~Not worth it. Dueling is all self-doubt and insults thrown at each other. With a minor ego boast at the end that lasts about a minute. Not worth it.~ He stood up, leaving his cards strewn through the pieces of plastic and wiring. He kicked it and left. He needed to fuck the pain away.

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