ID Thief: I'm back! And I can say two things about my camping trip. One: it
sucked due to the company I had to go with ::other than my parents:: and a
wild black bear crossed the river right next to my camp, we got pics of
him!
BladerSINbad: yeah had fun huh? And you didn't come and get ME!
ID: we've been through this...
BladerSINbad: shut up and get writing even I want to see what happens!
ID: my stories bite. I couldn't write to save my freaking soul.
BladerSINbad: well, people are reading them right? Just write.
ID: Fine, I will keep going, and just to let you all know, I have put 'Bonds' on hold, and I will be finishing that, this summer.
BladerSINbad: YES! ::pumps air triumphantly::
ID: ::snickers:: alright here u go.
Don't Throw Your Life Away
By: Identity Thief
Chapter 3: I am the Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes
(Kai)
I hate the hospitals, needles, doctors, that god-awful smell, and worse of all they enjoy keeping you there. At least now isn't as bad as last time I was in the hospital, last time I was in here for a few days, in ICU. Rei stayed with me, and he is still sticking by me.
" Kai, we're here!" I cringe as Tyson runs into my room, trailed by Max and Kenny. Tyson is holding something in his hands, but due to the fact that I can only see out of one eye, the object is very flat. I squint and make out the flat object as being flowers.
" Yay." I mutter and turn away. I don't know why I do this, mostly because I don't want them to see me like this, weak and helpless. I know I can't Beyblade anymore, and there is nothing left for me to do, I mean my whole life was Beyblading, and now that is gone, I have nothing. Maybe I should just leave, as soon as I get out of here, I will go, get some cash, hop on a bus and leave. Go somewhere where no one knows me, and I can live in seclusion. Be like Michael Jackson, a recluse (minus the glove and fascination with his nose. and other things).
" Ya know, you should stop doing that." I am jolting from my escape plans and thoughts by a soft, yet determined voice behind me. I turn slightly and glance at Rei, who stands there holding flowers and not smiling. Actually he looks extremely pissed. I sigh, everyone was angry with me lately, and I don't blame them, it's my fault I am like this, and they probably don't want a cripple around them. I only mar their image now I truly am worthless, all those years of being told that and trying so hard, I have become it.
" Kai say something." He says and I feel the bed go down a bit as he sits on it. I only stare out the window, watching the birds fly around after each other. I wish I could be that free, and happy.
" Look I know you might not want us around, but Kai you are just going to have to deal with it." He says and I only breath in and out, wishing he would just leave me be. He shouldn't be using all his time worrying about me I am nothing anymore. He need not worry.
" Rei, why do you do this?" I whisper but don't turn, I keep my back rigid and straight, expecting the same old answer, ' we are a team and we stick together' but that doesn't come.
" You're my friend Kai, and right now you could use one." I look down at my busted hand and sigh, shaking my head.
" No one wants to be my friend, I'm worthless." I say out loud and hear a sharp intake on breath. The part of the bed rises and I hear footsteps, then suddenly Rei is crouched in front of me, and I pull back.
" No!" He grabs my chin and holds my face in place, as he looks me right in the eye. His golden ones are burning with fierceness that I have only scene once or twice.
" You listen to me Kai Alexander Hiwatari, you are the captain of this team! We have tried to be your friends, but you keep pushing us further and further away! Why is that!? Tell me Dammit!" He shakes his head in frustration, and I can do anything but look at him, my own thoughts swirling.
Why do we do that? The semi-normal said asks.
Because we don't want to get hurt like before. The flat out loner side.
Those people are different! These wouldn't harm us! Semi-normal
Please people are all the same! Loner
No they are not, these boys really are worried about us. Semi-normal (now stamping foot)
They are only doing it because they know that if we trust them, it will make it easier for them to attack us while we are weak. Loner (Pointing finger)
No, we don't think so! Rei wants to help us, and we need to let him! We are destroying ourselves from the inside out! Semi-Normal
We need to protect ourselves! Loner
We need someone to talk to! We are crying out for someone to understand! Semi-Normal
We stay the way we are, we will only get hurt if we show the true inside. Loner
NO!
YES!
NO!
YES!
I grab my ears in pain and rock back and forth, even my own mind is split! I can't do this anymore. The pain is just too great and nothing will make it go away.
" STOP! No more!" I yell closing my eye tightly as the voices argue more, and finally all is silent. I open my eye cautiously and see Rei now concern written all over his features, and suddenly feel very ashamed. I make them worry, and sad. I should just end my pitiful existence and save them the troubles.
" Kai, what? What's wrong?" Rei asks moving closer to me, but I draw my knees to my chest and hug them close.
" Nothing." I whisper and close my eye against the concerned blader kneeling in front of me.
" Oh come on, I'm not stupid!" He snaps and I am taken aback by the cold but hurt edge to his tone. My head snaps up and I look at him.
" I just want to be your friend Kai, and I think you need one. Something must be wrong, if you will let me, I can try to help you!" He says, and a tear slips from his eye, as I watch he gets up and moves away.
" Do you know Tala tells me not to try? He says your not strong enough to pull through this and that I should just let you stay in you misery. But you know what I say to him? I tell him 'screw you, he's my friend and captain and I will not turn my back on him, no matter how much he tries to push away.' Tala has given up on you, but the Majestics, White Tigers and All Stars haven't, and neither have we." He is near the door now, and I turn to look at him, his tear stained face fills me with grief.
" Are you going to prove Tala right? That you are just going to lay down and die, or are you going to be a Phoenix and rise from the ashes once more?" With that he walks from the door, and it closes softly behind him. I sit there, staring at the flowers the Bladebreakers brought, and one was the color of fire, while the other's a bright yellow. Much like Dranzer's feathers, and fierce nature.
" I am the Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes." I say to no one and lay back on my bed, waiting for the doctor to come in for my check-up. A smile plastered on my face, while the words keep repeating in my head
I am a Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes.
I am a Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes.
I AM A PHOENIX, AND I WILL RISE FROM THE ASHES!
ID Thief: Yup that sucked so badly.
BladerSINbad: ya know, stop doing that.
ID Thief: doing what?
BladerSINbad: saying your writing sucks, because it doesn't.
ID Thief: well, my drawings do then!
BladerSINbad: Not that drawing you did of Kai.. The other men you draw do suck but you know you bought that book and it still doesn't help!
ID Thief: You can go now!
BladerSINbad: jeez, testy today aren't we? Well Review for the Sped queen here!
ID Thief: Hey just bcs I am I SPED... oh wait never mind.. PLEASE REVIEW! PLEASE!
BladerSINbad: yeah had fun huh? And you didn't come and get ME!
ID: we've been through this...
BladerSINbad: shut up and get writing even I want to see what happens!
ID: my stories bite. I couldn't write to save my freaking soul.
BladerSINbad: well, people are reading them right? Just write.
ID: Fine, I will keep going, and just to let you all know, I have put 'Bonds' on hold, and I will be finishing that, this summer.
BladerSINbad: YES! ::pumps air triumphantly::
ID: ::snickers:: alright here u go.
Don't Throw Your Life Away
By: Identity Thief
Chapter 3: I am the Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes
(Kai)
I hate the hospitals, needles, doctors, that god-awful smell, and worse of all they enjoy keeping you there. At least now isn't as bad as last time I was in the hospital, last time I was in here for a few days, in ICU. Rei stayed with me, and he is still sticking by me.
" Kai, we're here!" I cringe as Tyson runs into my room, trailed by Max and Kenny. Tyson is holding something in his hands, but due to the fact that I can only see out of one eye, the object is very flat. I squint and make out the flat object as being flowers.
" Yay." I mutter and turn away. I don't know why I do this, mostly because I don't want them to see me like this, weak and helpless. I know I can't Beyblade anymore, and there is nothing left for me to do, I mean my whole life was Beyblading, and now that is gone, I have nothing. Maybe I should just leave, as soon as I get out of here, I will go, get some cash, hop on a bus and leave. Go somewhere where no one knows me, and I can live in seclusion. Be like Michael Jackson, a recluse (minus the glove and fascination with his nose. and other things).
" Ya know, you should stop doing that." I am jolting from my escape plans and thoughts by a soft, yet determined voice behind me. I turn slightly and glance at Rei, who stands there holding flowers and not smiling. Actually he looks extremely pissed. I sigh, everyone was angry with me lately, and I don't blame them, it's my fault I am like this, and they probably don't want a cripple around them. I only mar their image now I truly am worthless, all those years of being told that and trying so hard, I have become it.
" Kai say something." He says and I feel the bed go down a bit as he sits on it. I only stare out the window, watching the birds fly around after each other. I wish I could be that free, and happy.
" Look I know you might not want us around, but Kai you are just going to have to deal with it." He says and I only breath in and out, wishing he would just leave me be. He shouldn't be using all his time worrying about me I am nothing anymore. He need not worry.
" Rei, why do you do this?" I whisper but don't turn, I keep my back rigid and straight, expecting the same old answer, ' we are a team and we stick together' but that doesn't come.
" You're my friend Kai, and right now you could use one." I look down at my busted hand and sigh, shaking my head.
" No one wants to be my friend, I'm worthless." I say out loud and hear a sharp intake on breath. The part of the bed rises and I hear footsteps, then suddenly Rei is crouched in front of me, and I pull back.
" No!" He grabs my chin and holds my face in place, as he looks me right in the eye. His golden ones are burning with fierceness that I have only scene once or twice.
" You listen to me Kai Alexander Hiwatari, you are the captain of this team! We have tried to be your friends, but you keep pushing us further and further away! Why is that!? Tell me Dammit!" He shakes his head in frustration, and I can do anything but look at him, my own thoughts swirling.
Why do we do that? The semi-normal said asks.
Because we don't want to get hurt like before. The flat out loner side.
Those people are different! These wouldn't harm us! Semi-normal
Please people are all the same! Loner
No they are not, these boys really are worried about us. Semi-normal (now stamping foot)
They are only doing it because they know that if we trust them, it will make it easier for them to attack us while we are weak. Loner (Pointing finger)
No, we don't think so! Rei wants to help us, and we need to let him! We are destroying ourselves from the inside out! Semi-Normal
We need to protect ourselves! Loner
We need someone to talk to! We are crying out for someone to understand! Semi-Normal
We stay the way we are, we will only get hurt if we show the true inside. Loner
NO!
YES!
NO!
YES!
I grab my ears in pain and rock back and forth, even my own mind is split! I can't do this anymore. The pain is just too great and nothing will make it go away.
" STOP! No more!" I yell closing my eye tightly as the voices argue more, and finally all is silent. I open my eye cautiously and see Rei now concern written all over his features, and suddenly feel very ashamed. I make them worry, and sad. I should just end my pitiful existence and save them the troubles.
" Kai, what? What's wrong?" Rei asks moving closer to me, but I draw my knees to my chest and hug them close.
" Nothing." I whisper and close my eye against the concerned blader kneeling in front of me.
" Oh come on, I'm not stupid!" He snaps and I am taken aback by the cold but hurt edge to his tone. My head snaps up and I look at him.
" I just want to be your friend Kai, and I think you need one. Something must be wrong, if you will let me, I can try to help you!" He says, and a tear slips from his eye, as I watch he gets up and moves away.
" Do you know Tala tells me not to try? He says your not strong enough to pull through this and that I should just let you stay in you misery. But you know what I say to him? I tell him 'screw you, he's my friend and captain and I will not turn my back on him, no matter how much he tries to push away.' Tala has given up on you, but the Majestics, White Tigers and All Stars haven't, and neither have we." He is near the door now, and I turn to look at him, his tear stained face fills me with grief.
" Are you going to prove Tala right? That you are just going to lay down and die, or are you going to be a Phoenix and rise from the ashes once more?" With that he walks from the door, and it closes softly behind him. I sit there, staring at the flowers the Bladebreakers brought, and one was the color of fire, while the other's a bright yellow. Much like Dranzer's feathers, and fierce nature.
" I am the Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes." I say to no one and lay back on my bed, waiting for the doctor to come in for my check-up. A smile plastered on my face, while the words keep repeating in my head
I am a Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes.
I am a Phoenix, and I will rise from the ashes.
I AM A PHOENIX, AND I WILL RISE FROM THE ASHES!
ID Thief: Yup that sucked so badly.
BladerSINbad: ya know, stop doing that.
ID Thief: doing what?
BladerSINbad: saying your writing sucks, because it doesn't.
ID Thief: well, my drawings do then!
BladerSINbad: Not that drawing you did of Kai.. The other men you draw do suck but you know you bought that book and it still doesn't help!
ID Thief: You can go now!
BladerSINbad: jeez, testy today aren't we? Well Review for the Sped queen here!
ID Thief: Hey just bcs I am I SPED... oh wait never mind.. PLEASE REVIEW! PLEASE!
