What If?

Lizzie's Diary

Well, I don't know what to do. I kissed Gordo. My best friend! What the heck is wrong with me? I mean, here I am going out with the hottest guy in the school and I am giving that away, just to mess around with Gordo?! Well, don't get me wrong, I love Gordo with every fiber of my being, but I'm confused and I don't know what to do anymore. When I kissed Gordo, I mean "Whoa!" Total fireworks there. It felt right, and I wanted to keep it like that. When I kiss Ethan, it's just something that I wanted so badly for as long as I can remember and maybe I should just, stop seeing Ethan.

Wait! Did I just say that? I must be crazy. I'm starting to really find out what goes on in Ethan Craft's head, which is very complicated I must say, but there is only one problem. GORDO!!!! I love him, I really do and I can see us together, I can, but at the cost of hurting Ethan, I just don't know. I'm more confused then ever I mean who wouldn't be? Gordo is a great guy, a guy that I have known since diaper years, and I grew up with him. So this should feel right, right? It doesn't. It feels so wrong cause Ethan loves me and I did at one point love him. But you know what happened? I realized how I feel about Gordo, and that, diary, is why I am so confused.