What If?

Guilt

Lizzie and Gordo were in Lizzie's room, talking, but mostly kissing each other. Lizzie didn't know why but she was actually enjoying the rush of sneaking behind Ethan's back. She knew that it was wrong, but she really liked Gordo, and lets face it, she was a coward and thee was no way that she would ever have the guts to break it off with Ethan. But Ethan was so great to her, he loved her and she finally had his full attention. But the time isn't right. Gordo is what's best for her. Gordo is what matters. But Ethan is my dream guy. He's the guy that I have been trying to get attention from. For years I have humiliated myself because of him and now that I have him, I don't want him. But why did it have to be this way? Why did she have to give up Ethan? She wanted to but she didn't want to tell him that she didn't feel like they should be together anymore. That she would rather be with her best friend. What's with you McGuire? Lizzie chastised herself. She was too busy thinking about her conflict at hand that she forgot what she had been doing at the moment.

"Lizzie, you here? On Earth?" Gordo asked. Lizzie finally realized that she and Gordo had been kissing and she totally spaced out on thinking about Ethan. Way to go McGuire. Lizzie thought. "What were you thinking about?" Gordo asked. Lizzie looked at him and wanted to kick herself for what came out of her mouth.

"Ethan. I was thinking about how to tell him." Lizzie said. Why did she tell Gordo that? Why?

"Oh. Well don't worry, I'm sure it will work out." Gordo said. Lizzie could tell that he was angry. And hurt. I mean, how would you feel if you were kissing someone and they were thinking about someone else while kissing you. That is a total low blow. Lizzie instantly felt bad. She wrapped her arms around Gordo, and placed a light but passionate kiss on his lips. When she pulled away Gordo was smiling. Lizzie picked up her pillow and hit him with it. Gordo started to laugh and then when she wasn't looking he knocked her in the head with a pillow and she was shocked. She screamed at the sudden impact and she grabbed another pillow and knocked him in the face. Gordo retaliated and soon there was a full- fledged pillow fight. Gordo grabbed Lizzie and started to kiss her and she kissed him back. They were oblivious to who poked their head in the door.

"Lizzie's cheating on Ethan, Lizzie's cheating on Ethan." Matt started to chant. Gordo and Lizzie pulled away and Lizzie glared at her brother.

"Matt!! If you say anything I'll kill you!!!" Matt shrugged his shoulder and walked fully into the room.

"I was just playing, Dizzy. I'm happier with it being Gordo, then Ethan. Gordo and you are more, how do you say it? Practical." Matt said as he smiled. "But, seeing that I could accidentally slip and tell someone, lets say, mom, dad, or maybe even Ethan, what are you willing to do for me in order to make sure I don't slip?" Matt said with a grin on his face. Lizzie narrowed her eyes and growled.

"Matt, I'll kill you. You wouldn't."

"Try me."

"Fine Matt, but I'll remember this when you get older. Not like any girl would wanna go out with you." Lizzie said as she dug in her pocket and fished out a 10-dollar bill. She handed it to Matt, and he looked it over and smiled.

"Glad to do business with you sis. See ya." And he was gone. Lizzie growled again and fell backwards on her bed while Gordo started to laugh.

"And what's so funny?" Lizzie said, annoyed.

"Your brother is some scam artist."

"Ha ha ha. Very funny Gordo. I happen to hate my brother, and if you keep it up, I'll hate you too."

"You can't hate me. I'm too handsome." Gordo said as he kissed Lizzie and all her annoyance melted away. As the kiss deepened, the phone rang and startled Lizzie. Lizzie picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey Lizzy Liz."

"Ethan! Hey."

"Hey. Want me to come over?" Ethan asked. Lizzie felt guilty. Here was her nice boyfriend wanted to spend some time with her and she wasn't even thinking about him. Instead she was making out with her best friend. Lizzie never felt more dishonest and dirty then she did at that moment, in her whole life. She wanted to crawl somewhere and die. Lizzie looked at Gordo and he looked at her then at the floor.

"Oh you want to come over?" Lizzie said. Gordo looked at her and she raised her eyebrows. Gordo nodded and she nodded back at him. "Sure, you can come over." Lizzie said.

"Ok. I'll be over there in a few minutes. Bye. Honey, I love you." Ethan said. When she heard those three words she winced. She didn't need to hear that right now. It made her feel guiltier.

"Yeah, see you." Lizzie hung up the phone and looked at Gordo. 'Well he coming over."

"I heard. Want me to leave?" Gordo asked. And Lizzie stared at him. She didn't know what she wanted anymore. She was so confused that she could barely think straight.

"No. You can stay. There's no reason for you to leave."

"Ok. I promise not to touch you at all while he is here." Gordo said holding his hands up. Lizzie giggled and reached for him.

They kissed and kissed and didn't break away until they heard the doorbell ring, and Lizzie's father yell, "Lizzie!! Ethan's here!!!"