Good news! It's a new part!
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Rae was slowly dragged to consciousness. Her eyes opened a crack then quickly shut again, the light had hurt her eyes. She slowly opened her eyes fully. She blinked her eyes a couple of times to clear her vision. She was in a white room with big windows through which light poured, it was clearly a healer room. She sensed someone next to her; she looked over at them.
"Welcome back, Rae." Qui-Gon smiled at her.
She tried to smile back but the small brief smile that graced her lips was *very* obviously forced. She looked away from him.
"Are you alright Rae?" He placed a hand on her shoulder.
"No. No Qui-Gon, I'm *not*!" She turned back to him. She looked angry. "I didn't *want* to come back!" She pushed herself to a sitting position. "I *saw* her, Qui-Gon! I *saw* her! I *almost* touched her hand! But then I was pulled away, just because it wasn't my time!" Tears welled up in her eyes. "It isn't *fair*! They let me see her, but then tore her away from me!" Tears began to fall down he cheeks. "An-and-and-" She dissolved into sobs.
Qui-Gon took her into his arms, rocking her back and forth, knowing who and what she was talking about.
Rae clung to Qui-Gon like a rock in a storm. She cried all of the tears that she had pent up for so long. "I can't take it, Qui-Gon! I *can't*!"
Qui-Gon just allowed her to cry.
Rae's sobs eventually began to quiet. Soon she was just crying silently. Finally she spoke. "Does it always hurt this bad? Will I always miss her this much?"
Qui-Gon thought about his words before he said them. "I wish I could tell you the pain goes away, but it doesn't. It will become bearable, but it will always be there."
Rae took a tearful breath.
Qui-Gon pulled away enough to see her face. "You will always miss her, but if you keep her in your heart she will never be far from you."
Rae smiled gratefully at him. "Thank you." She looked down, embarrassed. "I'm sorry."
Qui-Gon put a hand on her shoulder. "You have nothing to apologize for. You are grieving; everyone is entitled to feel as you do." He placed a hand under her chin and lifted her face. "We are human; grieving is something we all go through, we just handle it differently."
Then they heard a laugh from outside the window and looked over at it. We could see Anakin, Obi-Wan, Sabé and Padmé in the garden. Obi-Wan was chasing Anakin; they could see Obi-Wan was dripping wet. Qui-Gon and Rae let out a laughs, Rae's was still a little tearful.
~*~
Rae sat later that evening alone on the bed. She opened her sketch book to the drawing of her mother. Her voice began to softly sing:
*This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to.*
A tear traced it's way down her cheek. She closed the book, lay down, hugging the book to her chest and closed her eyes.
~*~
Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan stood in front of Yoda and Mace. They were holding the meeting in an empty room.
"Bestow apon you the title of Knight the Council does, Obi-Wan Kenobi."
Qui-Gon glanced over at his now former Padawan with pride. Then he turned back to the two high Council members. "And what about Rae and Anakin?"
Yoda and Mace both became grave.
"We haven't decided their fates yet."
Qui-Gon frowned, his brow furrowed. "You are taking a little long, especially for Rae, don't you think?"
Mace and Yoda looked at each other then back at the two Jedi in front of them. "There is much to consider with them."
Qui-Gon's frown became deeper. "With Anakin perhaps, but Rae? What is making her case so difficult?"
They seemed to consider whether or not to tell them. Then Yoda nodded to Mace.
Mace sighed and looked back at them. "As we told you before Anakin's future is clouded. Rae on the other hand...we can't even *see* her in the future."
~*~
I wanted to make this chapter a cliffie because I felt the need to be evil!
But don't worry I'll get the next part up soon!
The song I used was My December by Linkin Park. It is a great song. If you get the chance I recomend that you listen to it.
~*~
Rae was slowly dragged to consciousness. Her eyes opened a crack then quickly shut again, the light had hurt her eyes. She slowly opened her eyes fully. She blinked her eyes a couple of times to clear her vision. She was in a white room with big windows through which light poured, it was clearly a healer room. She sensed someone next to her; she looked over at them.
"Welcome back, Rae." Qui-Gon smiled at her.
She tried to smile back but the small brief smile that graced her lips was *very* obviously forced. She looked away from him.
"Are you alright Rae?" He placed a hand on her shoulder.
"No. No Qui-Gon, I'm *not*!" She turned back to him. She looked angry. "I didn't *want* to come back!" She pushed herself to a sitting position. "I *saw* her, Qui-Gon! I *saw* her! I *almost* touched her hand! But then I was pulled away, just because it wasn't my time!" Tears welled up in her eyes. "It isn't *fair*! They let me see her, but then tore her away from me!" Tears began to fall down he cheeks. "An-and-and-" She dissolved into sobs.
Qui-Gon took her into his arms, rocking her back and forth, knowing who and what she was talking about.
Rae clung to Qui-Gon like a rock in a storm. She cried all of the tears that she had pent up for so long. "I can't take it, Qui-Gon! I *can't*!"
Qui-Gon just allowed her to cry.
Rae's sobs eventually began to quiet. Soon she was just crying silently. Finally she spoke. "Does it always hurt this bad? Will I always miss her this much?"
Qui-Gon thought about his words before he said them. "I wish I could tell you the pain goes away, but it doesn't. It will become bearable, but it will always be there."
Rae took a tearful breath.
Qui-Gon pulled away enough to see her face. "You will always miss her, but if you keep her in your heart she will never be far from you."
Rae smiled gratefully at him. "Thank you." She looked down, embarrassed. "I'm sorry."
Qui-Gon put a hand on her shoulder. "You have nothing to apologize for. You are grieving; everyone is entitled to feel as you do." He placed a hand under her chin and lifted her face. "We are human; grieving is something we all go through, we just handle it differently."
Then they heard a laugh from outside the window and looked over at it. We could see Anakin, Obi-Wan, Sabé and Padmé in the garden. Obi-Wan was chasing Anakin; they could see Obi-Wan was dripping wet. Qui-Gon and Rae let out a laughs, Rae's was still a little tearful.
~*~
Rae sat later that evening alone on the bed. She opened her sketch book to the drawing of her mother. Her voice began to softly sing:
*This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away to have someone to come home to.*
A tear traced it's way down her cheek. She closed the book, lay down, hugging the book to her chest and closed her eyes.
~*~
Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan stood in front of Yoda and Mace. They were holding the meeting in an empty room.
"Bestow apon you the title of Knight the Council does, Obi-Wan Kenobi."
Qui-Gon glanced over at his now former Padawan with pride. Then he turned back to the two high Council members. "And what about Rae and Anakin?"
Yoda and Mace both became grave.
"We haven't decided their fates yet."
Qui-Gon frowned, his brow furrowed. "You are taking a little long, especially for Rae, don't you think?"
Mace and Yoda looked at each other then back at the two Jedi in front of them. "There is much to consider with them."
Qui-Gon's frown became deeper. "With Anakin perhaps, but Rae? What is making her case so difficult?"
They seemed to consider whether or not to tell them. Then Yoda nodded to Mace.
Mace sighed and looked back at them. "As we told you before Anakin's future is clouded. Rae on the other hand...we can't even *see* her in the future."
~*~
I wanted to make this chapter a cliffie because I felt the need to be evil!
But don't worry I'll get the next part up soon!
The song I used was My December by Linkin Park. It is a great song. If you get the chance I recomend that you listen to it.
