8
3.25pm
Scully shook her head and paced her living room for the millionth time. Mulder was trying to explain everything but she couldn't take it in. It wouldn't matter if he had gone to the moon investigating life up there, that didn't bother her, what did was her love's impending arrival. Within twenty minutes the front door would open and there would be a show down. Mind against mind, rage versus jealousy. Scully couldn't bear it.
Despite it having been six years it still felt too soon for this bridge to be crossed. She wasn't sure that she wanted it to happen, she wanted to keep these two worlds separate, to love them both separately she wasn't sure if she had enough love to love them both together. Mulder's being away had been perfect, she knew he was alive and could love him whilst being with her new love as well!
'I'm so selfish.' Scully thought knowing full well that she was probably heading for the worst moment of her life. From where she stood, at the window, she could see and hear the babbling of children as they piled from the yellow school bus. It caused an aching within her heart knowing that just six miles away, William, would be doing just the same as her neighbours children.
"Please let me explain, Scully." she turned to face Mulder, his eyes were full of sincerity. She knew why, she didn't need an explanation.
"I don't need you to explain, Mulder, I just need you to get out of here. I can't handle this, right now. Its all so sudden."
"He's due home, isn't he?" Mulder questioned he could see how edgy Scully was getting it needed no explanation.
"NO, no, no. You don't understand!" Scully was frantic, she
didn't want it to happen it was too much for her to cope with.
"Then let me explain, please? I need to tell you… please?"
"Tomorrow. I promise, you can explain then."
"No. I need to explain now! I have to." Mulder urged, pleading with her to let him speak. He saw her shake her head. He couldn't understand what she was so afraid of.
"I – uh – I really don't need to hear this." she said trying but failing to get him to leave before her world was turned upside down.
"I'm going to tell you anyway! You were sick, really sick. I couldn't keep watch and take care of you! I was useless. I thought you were dying, that the aliens had done something to your chip. I wanted you to get better and I did intend to come home. I did, but when I saw the headlines about you trial, I knew I couldn't return until it was safe for us to be together."
"If that is the truth then why risk it now? Huh? It's not safe. Skinner is trying to find you! Because the case is nearly gathered you decide to see if you can win me back! You can't jut walk in and out of my life like this. It so not fair, Mulder, its just not!"
"I know that! I want to apologise for everything and now you have a new lover I want for us to be friends."
"This is too much. What made you think I had a new lover?" Scully realised she going to have to tell him, and fast, it was 3.39pm. The truth would be out if she didn't say something. Part of her didn't want him to know, he'd hidden from her so why should her personal life be revealed to him!
"Just a feeling. Skinner wouldn't talk about you and he wouldn't let me talk about you either. I needed to, so much. I love you! You know that don't you."
"Of course I know you love me. I love you too." It had escaped her lips before she had the chance to hold onto those words.
Panic rose in her heart as she heard the sound of cars driving down the street. Mulder saw the look on her face. 'Did she mean to say that? Its not like her to say something she didn't mean.'
"Then why be like this? Don't push me away! If you love me then don't!"
"I'm not trying to push you anywhere. It's complicated..." The sound of car brakes cut her off, glancing out of the window, she saw the deep red Ford Mondeo stop outside of the house. Her love got out of the car, a collection of items in each hand. Another shockwave rushed through her.
"Mulder, please, I just can't do this. I'm not racing off with you again. I have another person to consider."
"They don't matter, to me, you do."
"They should matter to you!" Scully was getting angry. If they mattered to her then why didn't they mean something to him?
"Why should they? It's you that I love and want to be with. I want you to come away with me, you know that!"
"I can't. I have to stay here…" she had to tell him, it was too late to make
him go away. "I should have told you before…" Her heart pounded in her ears,
she had to tell him now. "I'm a…"
"MOM!" called a young girl; Scully's head fell and her hands covered her face so to avoid Mulder's eyes that were showing all the confusion and the disbelief, which the situation warranted.
