Chapter 33-
"Ruthie lets talk before I leave."
"OK." Ruthie walked in and sat down on her bed. "Simon do you really have to go I am going to miss you so much."
"Yes. Ruthie. I am sorry I have to go. I have to be there for Cecilia. Don't worry you will get to see me in a few weeks."
"Yea I guess."
"Ruthie are you going to be ok?"
"yea. Why?"
"well I mean you just havent been yourself lately."
"I havent?"
"No. I mean you have just been so quiet and everything. I mean all you really seem to care about is Jason."
"oh."
"yea. And you just seem so different."
"I do. How?"
"Well you smoked marijuana with Jason at the party. You got into a fight at school." He then pulled Ruthie's wrist towards him. "And you have cut yourself."
"No I havent."
"Ruthie yes you have. I mean I can see the scars."
"that's was from when I got raped."
"Ruthie there is no reason to cut yourself."
"Yes there is."
"there is?"
"Yea. You just don't understand. I was raped by Jordan. You're leaving me. I am not going to have any one to confide within."
"Ruthie you really think that I want to leave you?"
Ruthie didn't answer.
"Ruthie I don't want to leave. It was a mistake for me and Cecilia to go and have sex and I now regret it. Ruthie I am worried about you. I don't want you to end up like us. Me and Cecilia are now going to be stuck together forever and we will have a kid to take care of. A kid. And his or her life will depend on us. On us. I have never had that responsibility before." He paused.
"I don't want to see you end up like that. I don't want you addicted to drugs. I don't want you to get pregnant at a young age. I don't want you to be a slut. I don't want you to die. I don't want you to cut your wrists or anything. I don't want you to get hurt. Ruthie I love you you are my little sister and I respect you. You have been through so much at such a young age. I just want to see you go far in life because you have everything you need to succeed. I don't want you to be suicidal. There is no reason you should be suicidal. I mean you got Jason and I think he really loves you. I don't want you to be a slut and ruin your life by doing stuff with people you don't even know. Ruthie I worry."
"Do you really."
"yes that's why I am talking to you. Ruthie I am scared for you. I feel like you are destroying your life. Ruthie I know what you are doing. You are trying to destroy your life. I mean your out at parties with Jason. You smoked marijuana. And I know I know that you are doing more with Jason then you tell. I mean you are always alone with him. Ruthie I am scared."
"I never…I….I…..did anything….with him" Ruthies voice trailed off.
"Ruthie you see what I mean? I can tell by your voice and I know you did something with him. What was it?"
Ruthie couldn't tell Simon. She began crying. He would tell mom and she would make them break up she didn't want that to happen but she knew she had to tell someone,
"I…I…I…I gave him head." {dun dun dun}
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dun dun dun I know I didn't write the chapter but I had my reasons….i want to keep it PG13 and not R so I didn't write it but yes ruthie was tellin the truth when she said next time it will be your turn. Yes as always {{ReVuEw}} XoXo JJ
a/n- I had a better chapter 33 typed out but I lost it and I forgot wat I wrote so I had to hurry up and retype it sorry its so bad. I was mad.
"Ruthie lets talk before I leave."
"OK." Ruthie walked in and sat down on her bed. "Simon do you really have to go I am going to miss you so much."
"Yes. Ruthie. I am sorry I have to go. I have to be there for Cecilia. Don't worry you will get to see me in a few weeks."
"Yea I guess."
"Ruthie are you going to be ok?"
"yea. Why?"
"well I mean you just havent been yourself lately."
"I havent?"
"No. I mean you have just been so quiet and everything. I mean all you really seem to care about is Jason."
"oh."
"yea. And you just seem so different."
"I do. How?"
"Well you smoked marijuana with Jason at the party. You got into a fight at school." He then pulled Ruthie's wrist towards him. "And you have cut yourself."
"No I havent."
"Ruthie yes you have. I mean I can see the scars."
"that's was from when I got raped."
"Ruthie there is no reason to cut yourself."
"Yes there is."
"there is?"
"Yea. You just don't understand. I was raped by Jordan. You're leaving me. I am not going to have any one to confide within."
"Ruthie you really think that I want to leave you?"
Ruthie didn't answer.
"Ruthie I don't want to leave. It was a mistake for me and Cecilia to go and have sex and I now regret it. Ruthie I am worried about you. I don't want you to end up like us. Me and Cecilia are now going to be stuck together forever and we will have a kid to take care of. A kid. And his or her life will depend on us. On us. I have never had that responsibility before." He paused.
"I don't want to see you end up like that. I don't want you addicted to drugs. I don't want you to get pregnant at a young age. I don't want you to be a slut. I don't want you to die. I don't want you to cut your wrists or anything. I don't want you to get hurt. Ruthie I love you you are my little sister and I respect you. You have been through so much at such a young age. I just want to see you go far in life because you have everything you need to succeed. I don't want you to be suicidal. There is no reason you should be suicidal. I mean you got Jason and I think he really loves you. I don't want you to be a slut and ruin your life by doing stuff with people you don't even know. Ruthie I worry."
"Do you really."
"yes that's why I am talking to you. Ruthie I am scared for you. I feel like you are destroying your life. Ruthie I know what you are doing. You are trying to destroy your life. I mean your out at parties with Jason. You smoked marijuana. And I know I know that you are doing more with Jason then you tell. I mean you are always alone with him. Ruthie I am scared."
"I never…I….I…..did anything….with him" Ruthies voice trailed off.
"Ruthie you see what I mean? I can tell by your voice and I know you did something with him. What was it?"
Ruthie couldn't tell Simon. She began crying. He would tell mom and she would make them break up she didn't want that to happen but she knew she had to tell someone,
"I…I…I…I gave him head." {dun dun dun}
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dun dun dun I know I didn't write the chapter but I had my reasons….i want to keep it PG13 and not R so I didn't write it but yes ruthie was tellin the truth when she said next time it will be your turn. Yes as always {{ReVuEw}} XoXo JJ
a/n- I had a better chapter 33 typed out but I lost it and I forgot wat I wrote so I had to hurry up and retype it sorry its so bad. I was mad.
