Chapter 35-

"Simon Remembers" {{Flashback }}

A/N- This is a flashback/song fic sort of thing. It involves Simon. He is on his way to the family planning center (where he is going to be staying with Cecilia) He is in the car with Annie and this song comes on the radio. The song is Blurry by Puddle of Mudd. Enjoy!!

Disclaimer- I don't own the 7th Heaven characters. Not even Simon (tear) I never have and probaly never will because if I did then I don't think I would be writing this story on this site. I would be writing for the show and making $money$ but I'm not so you just have to deal with it. Also I don't own the song "Blurry." Puddle of Mudd does.

Simon sat in the front seat of the car and stared out the window. It was a rainy day outside. Simon wanted to cry but he knew he couldn't. he turned on the radio. Blurry was on. He sat in the car and thought about Ruthie. He thought about how he was leaving Ruthie there by herself.

**Everything's so blurry, and everyone's so fake

And everybody's empty, and everything is so messed up

Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all

my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl**

Simon thought back to when him and Ruthie were little kids. He thought about all the trouble they had gotten into and all the fun times they had. He wondered what ever happened to those times.

**you could be my someone you could be my scene

You know that I'll protect you from all of the obscene

I wonder what you're doing Imagine where you are

There's oceans in between us, and that's not very far***

He thought back to when he had been in love with golf. But his parents grounded him from golf. But Simon had gotten that urge to hit a golf ball. Then he busted the window. Ruthie was there and she took the rat for him and said that she broke the window. He thought of when they both got lost following the mail man.

**Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face,

This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face**

There were so many good times when they were kids. Simon had always given Ruthie advice on what to do. But now Simon knew nothing about Ruthie. She had changed so much. She grew up to be this beautiful girl and she has been through so much in her life. Suddenly Simon's face grew wet.

**Every one is changing, there's no one left that's real

So make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel

Cos I am lost with out you, I cannot live at all

my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl**

Simon wiped away his tears. Why was he crying. He didn't understand. He stopped thinking about his childhood years and thought about the recent events that had occurred there were a lot.

**you could be my someone you could be my scene

You know that I will save you from all of the unclean

I wonder what you're doing I wonder where you are

There's oceans in between us but that's not very far**

Ruthie finally revealed to the family that she was raped by Jordan. Jordan was sentenced to prison. Dad died. Ruthie found Jason and new friends. She had also turned somewhat "punk" and changed everything about her. Simon had just discovered that Ruthie was cutting herself. Simon and Cecilia had sex and Simon had gotten her pregnant. Ruthie also became the "not so innocent little Ruthie Camden."

**Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face,

This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face,

This pain you gave to me**

Too bad Simon hadnt noticed all this all before. Now it was too late because he was going away. Now no one was going to be there for Ruthie. No one to tell her what to do and what needs to be done. Now Ruthie had no one to turn to. What was she going to do?

**Oh nobody told me what you thought,

Nobody told me what to say

Everyone showed you where to turn,

Told you when to run away

Nobody told you where to hide,

Nobody told you what to say

everyone showed you where to turn,

Showed you when to run away**

There was nothing he could do now. Nothing. This was too much what would happen if Ruthie did more with Jason while he was away. She would have no one to talk to about it. Why did this have to happen now.

**Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face,

This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face,

This pain you gave to me**

Unknown to Simon, Ruthie was still in the room where Simon left her.

**No!

This pain you gave to me**

She too was crying. Who was she going to talk to when she needed someone to talk to. Simon wasn't there. And Mary was gone. She never did like talking to Lucy. Simon was always her favorite.

**Can you take it all**

Simon felt bad for leaving at this time. A time when his sister needed her the most.

**Take it all away**

Ruthie felt awful. There was no one that she could talk to. No. No. No. she had to live with everything kept inside of her for the next three months.

**This pain you gave to me**

Simon wiped away his tears.

**Take it all away**

Ruthie thought about the advice Simon had told her as he walked out the door. It was true. And she had to listen to it and live by it.

**This pain you gave to me**

Simon thought "I got to be strong . Be strong for Ruthie. That's what I got to do. Do it for Ruthie. I gotta live with this. I caused this. Mine and Cecilia's problem. Now I got to deal with the consequences."

**Take it all away...**

Ruthie thought "Simon said be strong. I guess that's what I got to do. And that's what I'm going to do." She wiped her tears away.

**This pain you gave to me**

"I'm going to be strong for Ruthie." Simon said.

"I'm going to be strong for Simon." Ruthie said.

They both tried ther faces. Ruthie walked out of the room and Simon entered the building.

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