Authors note: Ahh I have faced a rather important problem. I've dug a huge crater of a hole and I can't get out of it!! This is my best attempt of getting out of it but if its shit then please say so I can remove this chap and put up a new, better one.

Chap 4

My whole body is numb. I can't feel my legs beneath me so all I can do is grip onto his body for life - well for the humiliation of falling over whilst kissing. Right now all I want to do is tear of his leather pants (yes I think he has a fetish with leather pants) and rip of his shirt to reveal his bare body beneath.

Wow, now that was a muscle that I didn't know existed. My hands are sweeping up his back and I can feel his skin rippling beneath my warm touch. His cold lips are firmly pressed against mine and the most amazing feeling is rushing through my body at this moment.

I am trying hard not to give in to the naughty devil on my left shoulder telling me to pull away his clothing and take him there and then in the cemetery.

His tongue finds mine and slowly we kiss, his hands intertwined in my hair, massaging the back of my head as we kiss. Wow he is such a good kisser compared to Riley!

SHIT RILEY!

With that I pull away. Whoa there Buffy, Riley Riley Riley!! I look at him and see the embarrassment form on his face; he doesn't need to blush for I see it in his eyes.

Aw sweet.

He knows why I pulled away and cocks his head to the side to look at me from a different angle, almost checking to see if I was okay. Don't give me that look! PLEASE don't give me that look because then I'll want to cry - either that or I'll want to be forever yours.

The latter sounds such a good idea.

Hello? Earth to Buffy? Hello out there! Have you gone completely insane? Have you totally lost it?

"OH MY GOD!" It has suddenly hit me. The whole "I don't bite."

I take a step back and look at him half confused half shocked. "Wait a sec, why don't you bite? How.what do you eat? I cant believe I would have let you just bite me!" Damn that last line was meant to be said in my head.

"You would have let me bite you?" Hurt enters Angel's eyes.

"NO. Maybe. Okay I might have contemplated it. But I just want to clear up if it had come to the whole 'grr' part I would have totally kicked your ass." I wince as I say it aloud.

"I was cursed and I eat pigs blood, is the answer to your other questions. Meanwhile WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING!" Ok, so don't want to get in a fight with you.

"Just, your too non-vampireish. And plus you got that whole innocent vibe working for you."

"Buffy! For fucks sake, are you like this with all the innocent demons you meet? If so how the hell do you stay alive?" Ok is that worry or anger I see in your eyes.

"I-I have to go." I make that weird gesture over my shoulder for all I want to do is run.

"Sure, run away slayer" He nods his head and I want to pass out now.

Please let that familiar black hole open up beneath me and swallow me up, ending this misery and torment that I am suffering. Oh the humiliation in saying that this man was innocent!

Did I just call him a man? Oh my god, I'm going soft! If the other demons knew this I'd be the laughing stock of the town! *Cringe*

If I'm going to walk away, I have to do this quick. One. Two. Three!!! And I'm home and free as I turn my back and flee the scene, praying that no demon appears or that Angel does not follow me.

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Lets go shopping. Such a wonderful phrase, one of the many phrases, which a woman grows to love. And when I say love. I MEAN LOVE!

So I pass the friendly hot dog stall in the street and nod a polite hello to the spotty faced geek stood behind, covered in grease. The nod turns into a look of absolute disgust as he moves his head and you can see the glistening oil that has formed on his skin.

Ew.

And so to the next shop. See I have to make that move fast or otherwise my stomach threatens to spill its entire contents onto the walkway, and that could mean a stain on my brand new trainers. So not in fashion right now.

So I'm totally covered with shopping bags and my feet are aching so badly that I want to chop them off to stop the pain. Oh great, guys really do pick the perfect moment to talk to a girl.

"Hey." Riley approaches and instantly reaches in for a kiss.

Quickly I show him the cheek, a funny fuzzy feeling in the pit of my stomach is starting to rise, which I soon manage to work out, is guilt. Shit.

At this rate I'm not going to have any men in my life. One (the vampire) loathes me for trusting him way too much, and the other, well let's just say when he finds out I touched (just the touching part!) I will be in so much trouble.

I hate my life. It's official that I suck at being me, I can never do the right thing and I never choose the right guy at the right time.

Ah the life of a slayer!

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