Disclaimer: See parts 1 and 2.

A/N: Hey guys, I know it's been a while, okay not that long but I like updating sooner than this. I've had a lot going on: finals and a bunch of other stuff I wrote about in my bio, for anyone who cares to know. :-/. I'm depressed. And I figure I'm in this mood so I'm going to take it out on Rory and Jess. This chapter won't exactly be fun for the Literatis out there. But I promise you, things will get better. Do not give up on Jess and Rory just yet. *Okay, if I decide to finish it*

Oh, and thanks to everyone who has reviewed. All 15 of you. But I swear, I feel like people aren't liking this. If you'd like me to continue I'd like to know, but if not I am going to make this so that it has the possibility of being the last chapter.

Some things not relating to this story. Does anyone know Dean's last name? I want to use it in a future fic I'm doing but I swear I cannot remember it. Um, for those of you reading After Rory Loved Me aka smile mostly, I have to apologize my juices are not flowing right now. I'll update that asap.

Oh yeah, I have a webpage now. The one in my bio like sucks, it's an aol hometown site. The other one I'm going to be getting very soon (all I have to do is build it) will be somewhat better. You can check out my aol one if you'd like.

Alright, so here's the story. Don't hate me. I'm a die hard Lit, but this had to happen.

~*~*~*~*Chapter 4*~*~*~*~

Jess sat in Sasha and Jimmy's closet waiting for Amy. She had something she had to talk to him about. It was important. He was concerned. Had something happen while she was in Stars Hollow? It hadn't taken him long to figure out that she was Stars Hollow. Talking to Rory. About him. He was worried about that. What had she said, What had Rory said? Was everyone okay? Was Amy okay?

The closet door opened and a girl walked in. Without actually looking at her Jess began to speak.

"Is everything okay? You? Rory, Luke? Did something hap..."

He stopped abruptly as he saw Rory walk in and sit down across from him.

"Hi," she said.

"Hi."

"Hi."

"Hi."

"Okay we've established hi. So, Jess..."

"So, Rory. What are you doing here?"

"Amy came to see me. She was pretty bent on me coming back with her. I agreed."

"Lorelai?"

"Isn't here. Doesn't want me to be here."

"Okay, so we need to talk huh?"

"Yeah, we need to talk. Listen Jess, when you called I was mad. I said a lot of things I didn't necessarily mean. But I said a lot of things I did mean. You should have told me. God, Jess, I loved you. I love you. I would've help you. I would've understood. I thought, I thought you had left because I hadn't slept with you."

"Rory. No. It wasn't that. You didn't do anything. God, I tried to tell you that. You didn't hear me."

"You lied to me. You told me that you'd call me. You never did."

"Yes, I did."

"Okay, you never said anything."

"I couldn't, Rory."

"Why? I don't understand why. I don't understand why you couldn't tell me. Why you left. I don't understand. I keep asking myself what I did and then I remember I don't want to be the girl who asks herself why her boyfriend did something stupid. What she did to make it her fault. I won't be that girl."

"I don't want you to be that girl, either, Rory. You didn't do anything."

"No, I didn't. You did it. You were stupid. You left. You lied. You hid things from me. I told you once I didn't want to be that girl. Jess...I..."

"Hey, I know I was stupid okay! You have all the right in the world to call me stupid! I left the only girl in this whole damn world that could make me happy! Who the hell did I think I was anyway? I didn't deserve you! I don't deserve you! I'm going nowhere and I've known it all along! I'm a disappointment, a screw-up! I get it! But dammit Rory I love you! Don't you know that by now! I couldn't see you hurt over my failures! I couldn't hold you back like that!"

He was yelling, fully incensed.

"Jess, I told you I would have understood. You just had to tell me. And if you didn't deserve me I wouldn't be sitting here. And, no, I didn't know you loved me. You were too busy trying to keep yourself from me. You were pushing me away Jess."

"I know!"

"Jess, stop yelling at me!"

"Sorry!"

"Okay! But the voices still have not lowered!"

"Sorry."

"Jess.... I love you. But, I need you to be honest with me. I don't know as you can do that right now."

"Rory, I...."

"No, Jess, let me finish. I'm going to Europe this summer. I'm going. I'm going to think about this. You need to too. Get your life together. Figure out where you're going. I'll call when I get back. Maybe we can be together. Maybe not."

"Rory."

"Jess, I'll never stop loving you. But I don't know if I can be with you. I need time. Just give me time okay?"

"Okay." He sighed.

"I love you, Jess." She gave him a small kiss.

"I love you, too Rory."

They got up and walked to the door.

"I'll call you."

"Okay"

"Goodbye, Jess."

"Bye."

***************

Later that week

Rory got on her plane to Europe with Lorelai. Her mind was spinning. Jess loved her. But she couldn't be with him. Not right now anyway. That she was sure of. Would she be able to be with him ever again? She really didn't know.

You're growing up. You need someone who is growing with you.

You love him. He's the one.

He lied to you. He pushed you away and then ran away from you.

He did it for you. So you wouldn't have to hurt so much.

Didn't he?

"Whatcha thinking about?" Lorelai asked.

"Nothing."

Just the biggest decision of my life. And I think I already know the answer.

Silently, a small tear rolled down her cheek.

A/N: So, press that little blue button and tell me if you want me to finish, or if you want me to leave it like this. I have thoroughly doubled my own depression. I want you to know I hated hurting them like this. And if you don't want me to continue I may write an epilog so I can make them both be happy. Anyways, review please.