Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters from the Lizzie McGuire show and I don't own the lyrics that I will be using somewhere in the fiction. They are from Hilary Duff's song "So Yesterday". Enjoy!
So Yesterday
Prologue
Dear Diary,
There's a question I find I'm asking myself and other people a lot. Will I ever find true love again? Some would automatically say yes, without second thoughts. Others would stand there and ponder the question, like it was the hardest decision to make in the world. It's these people that you would walk away from because if they don't know the answer now, then they never will. And I believe that it's because of these people, who are not even willing to think it's possible, that there is pain in the world. I should know, I'm one of them. I guess you could say I gave up.
I used to believe cupid's love arrow would always find you and then everything would be perfect. I mean isn't that what true love is supposed to be…blissful perfection? No. True love is a deception, and I now understand that, because in the end, love will always end in pain. And I'm still feeling that pain five years later. Why does it hurt so much? Why do I care? He's gone, I should get over it. But it sucks that it is not that easy.
Lizzie McGuire shut the aged leather bound journal as she sat contemplating her thoughts for the day. She still doesn't understand why she keeps thinking about him, or hurting because of him. Duh, Lizzie! It's because you love him and you let him get away. She immediately stopped at the sound of that thought and then mentally corrected herself. I loved him…I don't anymore. Still a look of deep thought persisted to show on her face. Did she still love him? After everything that happened, are those once-feelings still there…hidden under all of the animosity towards him?
She quickly rose from the patch of grass she was occupying. She really needed to stop thinking about everything. Thinking is bad, it always leads to more pain…everything leads to pain. Why didn't she realize that when she was young and naïve? Because if she did, she still would have been miserable.
She turned and started to walk away from the once sacred spot of her childhood and adolescence. It was still special to her, but it did lose a certain amount of sacredness after they split up. It was a small spot, back in the woods of the nearby nature park. If you walked on a certain trail long enough, and then make a right turn by the big rock near the brook and walk about half a mile, you would find a small cave and the patch of grass Lizzie just left. Trees surrounded it; birds could be heard throughout the forest…it was just peaceful. But when you have the last fight, which is pretty big, you don't come back as often. You don't come back because the one reason you came here was to hide from hurt, and when you get hurt at that spot, it loses something.
Lizzie let out a small sigh as she turned the corner and walked out of sight, unaware that a pair of all to familiar silvery blue eyes were intently watching her.
a/n: Hey everyone. This was just the prologue. I would have posted more but, I had to get to work. So look for another chapter in the near future. I hope you like it, and please, please review. All are wanted, even flames…just as long as I get reviews. Stay tuned for more! ~Rhiannon~
