IN HIS EYES
By Sakura-dani
Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D
A/N: Gomen nasai for the lateness of this chappie ^^;; But I was busy through out the week and had a scarce amount of time to write this one ^^;; Hope it's okay =) Reviews very much appreciated *hugs* ^___^
Chapter seven-Nice or mean?
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura hopped out of the red car, and bid good-bye to her brother Touya. Touya dropped her off to school as it was on his way to work. Sakura straightened out her navy blue jumper and then made her way into the school hallway. She was very happy with herself. She was happy because she had accomplished a great deal with Syaoran yesterday. She had spoken to him, and possibly gotten through to him about not hating people. And he also smiled again. She liked his smile, possibly because hardly anyone had seen it. And because it was so-cute! She smiled to herself happily, having the image of Syaoran smiling in her head. Her heart gave a small jolt as she saw him in the hall she put on her most charming smile that she could. But was not pleased to see him glower at her. What's wrong with him? He was kinda nice last night.
'Good morning Li-kun!' she said in a cheery tone hoping to get the same result from him.
'Hi.' he said in a raspy tone, avoiding her eyes at all costs.
Sakura was concerned for him. Was something bothering him? She felt slightly closer to him now only because he had uncovered a burden that he carried with him. The hatred for his mother. She didn't know exactly why he hated her so, but she knew that he was possibly unhappy because of her. 'Are you okay Li?' she asked, with worry showing all over her face.
He looked at her in a weird way as if she had started speaking a different language. 'Um.I'm fine I guess.' he glanced around nervously. Sakura looked in the direction he was staring in and saw Takashi leaning against the wall staring at Syaoran. She wondered what was going on, something felt odd.
'Hey Li.can we hang out at lunchtime?' she asked taking her eyes off Takashi and concentrating on Syaoran.
'Um-' he paused and took one last quick glance at Takashi, 'sure I guess so.meet in the cafeteria then?'
Sakura nodded and then bowed. 'Sure well see ya then!' she winked and then made her way over to her other group of friends. After Sakura was well away from Syaoran, Takashi approached him.
~Syaoran's POV~
'So Li man, how's the whole bet going eh? You lose yet?' he chuckled.
Syaoran sighed angrily. He couldn't take it any longer. He hated the way Takashi would come to rub it all in his face. Syaoran knew he had a bet, and was intending to complete it and that was it. But if Takashi kept coming and pissing him off-
Syaoran angrily grabbed Takashi by the shirt collar and threw him against the locker door, pinning him there. The teenagers all around watched and cheered Syaoran on.
'Oooh go Li punch his lights out!' a boy yelled out from the crowd circling him.
Sakura saw a circle forming around two people in the corridor; she knew it must be Syaoran that they were circling. She hurriedly made her way over to see what the commotion was.
'Listen here Takashi shut up okay? I have had enough of your bullshit! It aggravates me, you always coming to rub it in!' he snarled at Takashi. Takashi looked very frightened now.
'Li man-come on it's me, Takashi! Lemme go, I'm only messing with you!' he laughed nervously. He glanced around to see many people staring at him. He gulped.
'Only messing with me eh? Well mess with this then!' Syaoran raised a fist and brought it close to Takashi's face; just inches away from breaking his nose or jaw. Syaoran pulled it back and was taking a swing when-
'LI-KUN STOP IT RIGHT NOW!' Sakura yelled, pushing past people and breaking into the middle.
Syaoran stopped what he was doing and swerved his head around to see Sakura standing there giving him a disapproving look.
'Kinomoto leave me be! I'm just about to smash his face in!' he hissed. Once again he found himself being mesmerized by her eyes.
'Li-put-him-down-now!' she said firmly.
Syaoran turned around and bared his teeth at Takashi angrily. Syaoran quickly punched Takashi in the stomach and let him drop to the floor. 'There he's down,' he smirked.
Sakura frowned at him. 'You know that's not what I meant.'
Many people starting "oohing" and "aahhing" in the crowd.
'Li's going to listen to Sakura Kinomoto? What's this?' someone jeered out loudly from the crowd.
Syaoran shot daggers to everyone in the crowd, and everyone immediately went silent. Syaoran walked over Takashi's fallen body and then took off down the corridor without another word.
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura frantically ran after Syaoran. She was worried, his mean self was reappearing and that's not what she wanted.
'LI-KUN WAIT!' she yelled running past the many staring students. She put on an extra burst of speed. Syaoran did not pay any attention to the girl calling out to him he just kept walking. He did not know where he was going, but all he knew was that he did not want to talk with Sakura.
Unlucky for Syaoran, Sakura had caught up to him. He never knew she was good at running,
'Li-kun!' she started again.
'What?!' he answered back shrewdly.
'You know exactly what I am on about!' she stopped walking signaling for him to do the same so that they could have a direct conversation. Syaoran stopped storming away and turned and faced her.
'Oh do I? Well maybe if he stopped pestering me to-' he stopped. He did not want to give away any information about the bet.
'If he stopped pestering you about what?' she queried.
'Never mind.the point is that he should stop annoying me!' he hollered.
Sakura looked at him sincerely. The boy she was with yesterday was not like this. 'Li-kun.you're very different today-yesterday you were-'
'I was what? I was nothing!'
'You know that's not true. Li-kun yesterday you were-well I'll have to say- you were actually beginning to become nice.' a sadness hovered above her now and Syaoran could also feel it. Syaoran fought with himself, but gave in slightly.
'Kinomoto-san.yesterday was-well I enjoyed yesterday okay? But today I'm not in the best mood.' He had to still keep her friendship.
I must keep her my friend-remember the "Bet"! He kept telling himself. Say sorry-I know you cannot say it all the time but say it now!
'S-sorry.Kinomoto-san-look can we still meet up at lunchtime?' he chocked out, with a strained look on his face.
She smiled slightly, 'Sure okay then. And please do not get in trouble 'kay?'
He nodded. 'See you then.ja.'
'Ja ne!' she smiled once more and then turned in the opposite direction and made her way back to class.
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~Syaoran's POV~
Ryo was walking alongside Syaoran. He glanced curiously at his friend. Ryo hadn't exactly been around when Syaoran had "punched" Takashi, but he already knew about it. He knew it best not to speak about Takashi-well at least not in front of Syaoran.
'Hey Li man-where are we going?' Ryo asked boldly.
Syaoran looked at Ryo, he could sense that Ryo was trying to avoid the subject of Takashi. He was glad about that, as he did not wish to speak of it-especially because Sakura had been somewhat involved in the situation too.
'We are going to meet up with Kinomoto-san,' he replied gruffly.
'K-Kinomoto? That girl that you hate? Eh-don't tell me that you are taking this whole bet shenanigan seriously?' he stared at Syaoran, Syaoran did not reply. Ryo took that as a "yes" and sighed.
'You say anything to disrupt my doing so-I swear I will punch your face in!' he snapped.
'Hey cool down man-I'm not going to interfere with you and Sakura okay? I just hope you can win the bet.'
'I shall.' he sounded determined and cold. Ryo did not like the way he had put that at all. It didn't seem right to claim friendship through a bet.Ryo especially didn't like it when he saw Syaoran smirk at the sight of Sakura. 'She's here.' he then began to approach the auburn haired girl. Ryo had to quicken his pace to catch up with Syaoran.
'Hi Kinomoto-san,' he nodded standing in front of the girl now.
'Shh Naoko-chan-hello Li-kun,' Sakura quickly turned away from a girl with short brown hair and a pair of glasses, and smiled.
'And who are these girls?' Syaoran asked glancing at the other two that stood next to Sakura, Tomoyo and Meiling.
'Oh so sorry,' Sakura bowed, 'This is Naoko-chan, Rika-chan and Chiharu- chan,' she pointed out the three girls. Chiharu had brown hair tied up in two short pigtails, which matched with a pair of light brown eyes; Rika also had short wavy brown hair and a pair of dark brown eyes.
'Hello,' Syaoran dipped his head once more and then turned his attention back towards Sakura.
Chiharu stood forward though and looked quizzically at Syaoran. 'Li.did you really hurt Yamazaki-kun?' her eyebrows were fixed in a furrow.
'Yamazaki, Takashi? Humph! He deserved it, he is such a jack-'
'Never mind!' Sakura interrupted trying to avoid a war between Chiharu and Syaoran. 'Anyway, who wants to sit down for lunch?' she giggled nervously.
'Err fine.' Syaoran replied.
'He's kawaii!' Rika giggled quietly so only Sakura could hear.
'Hoe!?' she exclaimed in surprise. So with another friendly gesture the group sat down together and had lunch with one another.
'Li-kun?' Sakura started, in the middle of unwrapping her roll from it's packaging.
Syaoran quickly took a swig of coke. 'Y-yeah?'
'This Saturday would you like to come over to my house?' she asked still carefully unwrapping her roll.
'This Saturday?' Syaoran thought hard; well what else was he to do on Saturday? He figured why not? 'Err sure that's okay.I'll get Wei to drop me off then. What time?'
'Hoe? Um.how about sometime in the afternoon?'
Syaoran nodded, 'Okay that's fine.' he glanced to his right to see Meiling staring at him. He did know if she looked envious or not, but the look bothered him.
'Whoa-wait a minute!' Chiharu interrupted. 'Are you not Li, Syaoran? The "tough" boy around the school? You're not supposed to be "arranging" to be going over girls houses are you?' she finished with a giggle.
Syaoran flustered. It was true-he was not supposed to be going over a girls house and simply hanging around the people he was sitting with now. He felt very awkward, and felt his face start to get hot.
'Ooh! He's blushing! Kawaii!' Tomoyo screamed, whipping out her camcorder and recording Syaoran blushing.
'S-stop that!' he swiped at the camera, interrupting Tomoyo's recording.
'Aww you're no fun Li-kun!' she giggled, eyeing Sakura as well.
'Well Li?' Chiharu began again, trying to move past the interruption that Tomoyo had caused.
'Well what? So what if I am going over Kinomoto's house? Is it that big a deal?' he glared at Chiharu.
She shrugged. 'I guess not, but still very peculiar if you ask me.'
'I agree.' Naoko added in, but then she paid attention back towards her story writing,
Syaoran silently felt his anger rise. Who the hell was she to ask such stupid questions about him?
Syaoran picked himself off of the ground then. 'I'll see you later Kinomoto.' ad then he turned around and left the scene. Ryo sitting in- between Rika and Naoko was puzzled. Why had Syaoran left?
'Li-kun? Hoe.?' she murmured. She saw no point in chasing after him, as he would only keep running. But running from what? Was the question that lingered on her mind.
*
Dear Journal,
Today Kinomoto-san announced the invitation to her house. It's this Saturday and I accepted to go. The thing is what gets me is what that girl Chiharu said. Does the whole school have some expectation of me to act like I usually do? It's just the way she said it-it sounded like she expected me to act mean all the time. And she is right; I never do "hang" around girls- well not all the time. I wonder if I have started to gain Sakura's friendship?
Takashi is really beginning to annoy me as well; well I showed him a thing or two. I'm sure I did the right thing, maybe now he will stop pestering me and stop rubbing it in my face that I have a bet to complete.so many things to sort through, and I feel like a wreck. Everything is like scattered files in my brain.. I must sort through them all.
One thing I must confront with myself is my feelings towards my mother. I hate her so.she is never here for me. Her work always comes before me; it's always been like that. Ever since I was little too.
Flashback
Syaoran at the age of six was playing in the living room with a wooden sword. Jabbing it forward and parrying.
'Mommy look at me!' he laughed happily, enjoying his game of imaginary pirates.
Syaoran was of course a happy little boy at this stage of his life. He loved his cousin Meiling, and his mother too. But ever since she had been offered her job, she had been a lot more reluctant towards her son.
'Not now son later I have important paper work to do!' she waved her hand in an annoyed way telling her son to leave her alone.
'Aww mom.' he watched her sitting in the corner of the living room pouring over her paper work, she looked very stressed but Syaoran didn't know better. Yelan took a sip of her coffee and massaged her temples.
Syaoran thought that his mother would play along to this, as she was usually a very playful mother towards him. And she always played with him and his little adventures. So Syaoran crept up behind his mother's seat and jabbed forward with his wooden sword. Not too hard but enough to cause shock. Sure enough Yelan jumped out of her skin, knocking her coffee over and drenching her paper work in it. Her work was now a hazelnut/yellow color.
'No, no, no! This cannot of happened!' Yelan panicked trying to mop up the spilled coffee with her sleeve. She then remembered what had caused her to spill it over-Syaoran. She turned around and advanced on her laughing son. He didn't know better, but the way his mother glared at him stopped him from laughing. 'Syaoran look what you have done! You destroyed my paper work!'
'But mommy it was an accidenty-' Syaoran began to sob. He had never seen his mother so upset with him before. Soon he was wailing. Yelan was under so much stress already now she had to deal with her crying son.
'S-Syaoran-shut-up!' but he didn't stop crying; he stood there on the spot sobbing. He didn't mean to make his mother mad at him, he never intended too.but what she did to him, he never forgave her for. 'XIAO LANG!' she yelled slapping him across the cheek. It was a little too hard and sent him doubling over his little stumpy legs.
'Mommy..y-you.hit me..ouch!' Syaoran wailed even harder.
Yelan was in shock. What had she done to her son? She loved him dearly, but she had just hit him. She didn't mean too she was just angry with him.
'S-Syaoran I-I'm s-sorry.. come here,' she knelt down on her knee with open arms, asking for him to hug her. What she got was Syaoran glaring at her. His piercing amber eyes stared into hers. She saw something in them. Anger and.hate?
'No mom-I hate you!' he then ran out of the room and stumbled up the stairs and into his room.
'What have I done?' Yelan muttered to herself. Her son had said he "hated her". She glanced down at the floor and picked up his wooden sword. Was this the last time she would see him attempt to play pirates with her?
End of flashback
Yes I hate my mother.because she neglected me. And what gave her the rights to hitting me? I didn't know better I was only six! I don't think I can ever forgive her for that.. she was so angry with me. She knew I was only six and only wanted to play with her.from that day on I never spoke much with her. I think it scared her.that she had lost her son to a simple misunderstanding.
Well I'm leaving it here for now- I must do some homework.
Ja ne,
Syaoran Li (Little Wolf)
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A/N: So what did you think of this chappie? I hoped to uncover a bit of Syaoran's past and tell you a little bit about why he hates his mother so much. Well next chappie will come soon I hope xD R+R please? Thankies
Dani-chan
Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D
A/N: Gomen nasai for the lateness of this chappie ^^;; But I was busy through out the week and had a scarce amount of time to write this one ^^;; Hope it's okay =) Reviews very much appreciated *hugs* ^___^
Chapter seven-Nice or mean?
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura hopped out of the red car, and bid good-bye to her brother Touya. Touya dropped her off to school as it was on his way to work. Sakura straightened out her navy blue jumper and then made her way into the school hallway. She was very happy with herself. She was happy because she had accomplished a great deal with Syaoran yesterday. She had spoken to him, and possibly gotten through to him about not hating people. And he also smiled again. She liked his smile, possibly because hardly anyone had seen it. And because it was so-cute! She smiled to herself happily, having the image of Syaoran smiling in her head. Her heart gave a small jolt as she saw him in the hall she put on her most charming smile that she could. But was not pleased to see him glower at her. What's wrong with him? He was kinda nice last night.
'Good morning Li-kun!' she said in a cheery tone hoping to get the same result from him.
'Hi.' he said in a raspy tone, avoiding her eyes at all costs.
Sakura was concerned for him. Was something bothering him? She felt slightly closer to him now only because he had uncovered a burden that he carried with him. The hatred for his mother. She didn't know exactly why he hated her so, but she knew that he was possibly unhappy because of her. 'Are you okay Li?' she asked, with worry showing all over her face.
He looked at her in a weird way as if she had started speaking a different language. 'Um.I'm fine I guess.' he glanced around nervously. Sakura looked in the direction he was staring in and saw Takashi leaning against the wall staring at Syaoran. She wondered what was going on, something felt odd.
'Hey Li.can we hang out at lunchtime?' she asked taking her eyes off Takashi and concentrating on Syaoran.
'Um-' he paused and took one last quick glance at Takashi, 'sure I guess so.meet in the cafeteria then?'
Sakura nodded and then bowed. 'Sure well see ya then!' she winked and then made her way over to her other group of friends. After Sakura was well away from Syaoran, Takashi approached him.
~Syaoran's POV~
'So Li man, how's the whole bet going eh? You lose yet?' he chuckled.
Syaoran sighed angrily. He couldn't take it any longer. He hated the way Takashi would come to rub it all in his face. Syaoran knew he had a bet, and was intending to complete it and that was it. But if Takashi kept coming and pissing him off-
Syaoran angrily grabbed Takashi by the shirt collar and threw him against the locker door, pinning him there. The teenagers all around watched and cheered Syaoran on.
'Oooh go Li punch his lights out!' a boy yelled out from the crowd circling him.
Sakura saw a circle forming around two people in the corridor; she knew it must be Syaoran that they were circling. She hurriedly made her way over to see what the commotion was.
'Listen here Takashi shut up okay? I have had enough of your bullshit! It aggravates me, you always coming to rub it in!' he snarled at Takashi. Takashi looked very frightened now.
'Li man-come on it's me, Takashi! Lemme go, I'm only messing with you!' he laughed nervously. He glanced around to see many people staring at him. He gulped.
'Only messing with me eh? Well mess with this then!' Syaoran raised a fist and brought it close to Takashi's face; just inches away from breaking his nose or jaw. Syaoran pulled it back and was taking a swing when-
'LI-KUN STOP IT RIGHT NOW!' Sakura yelled, pushing past people and breaking into the middle.
Syaoran stopped what he was doing and swerved his head around to see Sakura standing there giving him a disapproving look.
'Kinomoto leave me be! I'm just about to smash his face in!' he hissed. Once again he found himself being mesmerized by her eyes.
'Li-put-him-down-now!' she said firmly.
Syaoran turned around and bared his teeth at Takashi angrily. Syaoran quickly punched Takashi in the stomach and let him drop to the floor. 'There he's down,' he smirked.
Sakura frowned at him. 'You know that's not what I meant.'
Many people starting "oohing" and "aahhing" in the crowd.
'Li's going to listen to Sakura Kinomoto? What's this?' someone jeered out loudly from the crowd.
Syaoran shot daggers to everyone in the crowd, and everyone immediately went silent. Syaoran walked over Takashi's fallen body and then took off down the corridor without another word.
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura frantically ran after Syaoran. She was worried, his mean self was reappearing and that's not what she wanted.
'LI-KUN WAIT!' she yelled running past the many staring students. She put on an extra burst of speed. Syaoran did not pay any attention to the girl calling out to him he just kept walking. He did not know where he was going, but all he knew was that he did not want to talk with Sakura.
Unlucky for Syaoran, Sakura had caught up to him. He never knew she was good at running,
'Li-kun!' she started again.
'What?!' he answered back shrewdly.
'You know exactly what I am on about!' she stopped walking signaling for him to do the same so that they could have a direct conversation. Syaoran stopped storming away and turned and faced her.
'Oh do I? Well maybe if he stopped pestering me to-' he stopped. He did not want to give away any information about the bet.
'If he stopped pestering you about what?' she queried.
'Never mind.the point is that he should stop annoying me!' he hollered.
Sakura looked at him sincerely. The boy she was with yesterday was not like this. 'Li-kun.you're very different today-yesterday you were-'
'I was what? I was nothing!'
'You know that's not true. Li-kun yesterday you were-well I'll have to say- you were actually beginning to become nice.' a sadness hovered above her now and Syaoran could also feel it. Syaoran fought with himself, but gave in slightly.
'Kinomoto-san.yesterday was-well I enjoyed yesterday okay? But today I'm not in the best mood.' He had to still keep her friendship.
I must keep her my friend-remember the "Bet"! He kept telling himself. Say sorry-I know you cannot say it all the time but say it now!
'S-sorry.Kinomoto-san-look can we still meet up at lunchtime?' he chocked out, with a strained look on his face.
She smiled slightly, 'Sure okay then. And please do not get in trouble 'kay?'
He nodded. 'See you then.ja.'
'Ja ne!' she smiled once more and then turned in the opposite direction and made her way back to class.
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~Syaoran's POV~
Ryo was walking alongside Syaoran. He glanced curiously at his friend. Ryo hadn't exactly been around when Syaoran had "punched" Takashi, but he already knew about it. He knew it best not to speak about Takashi-well at least not in front of Syaoran.
'Hey Li man-where are we going?' Ryo asked boldly.
Syaoran looked at Ryo, he could sense that Ryo was trying to avoid the subject of Takashi. He was glad about that, as he did not wish to speak of it-especially because Sakura had been somewhat involved in the situation too.
'We are going to meet up with Kinomoto-san,' he replied gruffly.
'K-Kinomoto? That girl that you hate? Eh-don't tell me that you are taking this whole bet shenanigan seriously?' he stared at Syaoran, Syaoran did not reply. Ryo took that as a "yes" and sighed.
'You say anything to disrupt my doing so-I swear I will punch your face in!' he snapped.
'Hey cool down man-I'm not going to interfere with you and Sakura okay? I just hope you can win the bet.'
'I shall.' he sounded determined and cold. Ryo did not like the way he had put that at all. It didn't seem right to claim friendship through a bet.Ryo especially didn't like it when he saw Syaoran smirk at the sight of Sakura. 'She's here.' he then began to approach the auburn haired girl. Ryo had to quicken his pace to catch up with Syaoran.
'Hi Kinomoto-san,' he nodded standing in front of the girl now.
'Shh Naoko-chan-hello Li-kun,' Sakura quickly turned away from a girl with short brown hair and a pair of glasses, and smiled.
'And who are these girls?' Syaoran asked glancing at the other two that stood next to Sakura, Tomoyo and Meiling.
'Oh so sorry,' Sakura bowed, 'This is Naoko-chan, Rika-chan and Chiharu- chan,' she pointed out the three girls. Chiharu had brown hair tied up in two short pigtails, which matched with a pair of light brown eyes; Rika also had short wavy brown hair and a pair of dark brown eyes.
'Hello,' Syaoran dipped his head once more and then turned his attention back towards Sakura.
Chiharu stood forward though and looked quizzically at Syaoran. 'Li.did you really hurt Yamazaki-kun?' her eyebrows were fixed in a furrow.
'Yamazaki, Takashi? Humph! He deserved it, he is such a jack-'
'Never mind!' Sakura interrupted trying to avoid a war between Chiharu and Syaoran. 'Anyway, who wants to sit down for lunch?' she giggled nervously.
'Err fine.' Syaoran replied.
'He's kawaii!' Rika giggled quietly so only Sakura could hear.
'Hoe!?' she exclaimed in surprise. So with another friendly gesture the group sat down together and had lunch with one another.
'Li-kun?' Sakura started, in the middle of unwrapping her roll from it's packaging.
Syaoran quickly took a swig of coke. 'Y-yeah?'
'This Saturday would you like to come over to my house?' she asked still carefully unwrapping her roll.
'This Saturday?' Syaoran thought hard; well what else was he to do on Saturday? He figured why not? 'Err sure that's okay.I'll get Wei to drop me off then. What time?'
'Hoe? Um.how about sometime in the afternoon?'
Syaoran nodded, 'Okay that's fine.' he glanced to his right to see Meiling staring at him. He did know if she looked envious or not, but the look bothered him.
'Whoa-wait a minute!' Chiharu interrupted. 'Are you not Li, Syaoran? The "tough" boy around the school? You're not supposed to be "arranging" to be going over girls houses are you?' she finished with a giggle.
Syaoran flustered. It was true-he was not supposed to be going over a girls house and simply hanging around the people he was sitting with now. He felt very awkward, and felt his face start to get hot.
'Ooh! He's blushing! Kawaii!' Tomoyo screamed, whipping out her camcorder and recording Syaoran blushing.
'S-stop that!' he swiped at the camera, interrupting Tomoyo's recording.
'Aww you're no fun Li-kun!' she giggled, eyeing Sakura as well.
'Well Li?' Chiharu began again, trying to move past the interruption that Tomoyo had caused.
'Well what? So what if I am going over Kinomoto's house? Is it that big a deal?' he glared at Chiharu.
She shrugged. 'I guess not, but still very peculiar if you ask me.'
'I agree.' Naoko added in, but then she paid attention back towards her story writing,
Syaoran silently felt his anger rise. Who the hell was she to ask such stupid questions about him?
Syaoran picked himself off of the ground then. 'I'll see you later Kinomoto.' ad then he turned around and left the scene. Ryo sitting in- between Rika and Naoko was puzzled. Why had Syaoran left?
'Li-kun? Hoe.?' she murmured. She saw no point in chasing after him, as he would only keep running. But running from what? Was the question that lingered on her mind.
*
Dear Journal,
Today Kinomoto-san announced the invitation to her house. It's this Saturday and I accepted to go. The thing is what gets me is what that girl Chiharu said. Does the whole school have some expectation of me to act like I usually do? It's just the way she said it-it sounded like she expected me to act mean all the time. And she is right; I never do "hang" around girls- well not all the time. I wonder if I have started to gain Sakura's friendship?
Takashi is really beginning to annoy me as well; well I showed him a thing or two. I'm sure I did the right thing, maybe now he will stop pestering me and stop rubbing it in my face that I have a bet to complete.so many things to sort through, and I feel like a wreck. Everything is like scattered files in my brain.. I must sort through them all.
One thing I must confront with myself is my feelings towards my mother. I hate her so.she is never here for me. Her work always comes before me; it's always been like that. Ever since I was little too.
Flashback
Syaoran at the age of six was playing in the living room with a wooden sword. Jabbing it forward and parrying.
'Mommy look at me!' he laughed happily, enjoying his game of imaginary pirates.
Syaoran was of course a happy little boy at this stage of his life. He loved his cousin Meiling, and his mother too. But ever since she had been offered her job, she had been a lot more reluctant towards her son.
'Not now son later I have important paper work to do!' she waved her hand in an annoyed way telling her son to leave her alone.
'Aww mom.' he watched her sitting in the corner of the living room pouring over her paper work, she looked very stressed but Syaoran didn't know better. Yelan took a sip of her coffee and massaged her temples.
Syaoran thought that his mother would play along to this, as she was usually a very playful mother towards him. And she always played with him and his little adventures. So Syaoran crept up behind his mother's seat and jabbed forward with his wooden sword. Not too hard but enough to cause shock. Sure enough Yelan jumped out of her skin, knocking her coffee over and drenching her paper work in it. Her work was now a hazelnut/yellow color.
'No, no, no! This cannot of happened!' Yelan panicked trying to mop up the spilled coffee with her sleeve. She then remembered what had caused her to spill it over-Syaoran. She turned around and advanced on her laughing son. He didn't know better, but the way his mother glared at him stopped him from laughing. 'Syaoran look what you have done! You destroyed my paper work!'
'But mommy it was an accidenty-' Syaoran began to sob. He had never seen his mother so upset with him before. Soon he was wailing. Yelan was under so much stress already now she had to deal with her crying son.
'S-Syaoran-shut-up!' but he didn't stop crying; he stood there on the spot sobbing. He didn't mean to make his mother mad at him, he never intended too.but what she did to him, he never forgave her for. 'XIAO LANG!' she yelled slapping him across the cheek. It was a little too hard and sent him doubling over his little stumpy legs.
'Mommy..y-you.hit me..ouch!' Syaoran wailed even harder.
Yelan was in shock. What had she done to her son? She loved him dearly, but she had just hit him. She didn't mean too she was just angry with him.
'S-Syaoran I-I'm s-sorry.. come here,' she knelt down on her knee with open arms, asking for him to hug her. What she got was Syaoran glaring at her. His piercing amber eyes stared into hers. She saw something in them. Anger and.hate?
'No mom-I hate you!' he then ran out of the room and stumbled up the stairs and into his room.
'What have I done?' Yelan muttered to herself. Her son had said he "hated her". She glanced down at the floor and picked up his wooden sword. Was this the last time she would see him attempt to play pirates with her?
End of flashback
Yes I hate my mother.because she neglected me. And what gave her the rights to hitting me? I didn't know better I was only six! I don't think I can ever forgive her for that.. she was so angry with me. She knew I was only six and only wanted to play with her.from that day on I never spoke much with her. I think it scared her.that she had lost her son to a simple misunderstanding.
Well I'm leaving it here for now- I must do some homework.
Ja ne,
Syaoran Li (Little Wolf)
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A/N: So what did you think of this chappie? I hoped to uncover a bit of Syaoran's past and tell you a little bit about why he hates his mother so much. Well next chappie will come soon I hope xD R+R please? Thankies
Dani-chan
