IN HIS EYES By Sakura-dani

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Chapter eleven-The truth hurts.

~Sakura's POV~

Sakura was in her history class-Tomoyo sitting next to her. Sakura didn't seem to be paying any attention-she looked forlorn. Sakura just stared down at her desk, not paying attention to what was being said in class. She was too caught up with her own thoughts, thoughts of-Syaoran. She wondered if Syaoran had special feelings for her, she knew she felt a little more than friendship towards him. But he did not answer her question when she had asked him.did that just mean that he was too shy? Or was everything just one big fantasy that she had dreamt up? So many things bothered her, also one that still bothered her was: Why had he suddenly lightened up to being her friend? What possessed him to do so? She was sure there was more too it, but thought it best left alone for the time being.

'Sakura-chan are you alright?' Tomoyo whispered to her.

Sakura snapped out of her trance and looked at Tomoyo. She forced a smile and nodded, 'I'm fine Tomoyo-chan.'

Tomoyo knew there was something wrong with Sakura's smile-it wasn't as genuine as it usually was.

'You sure?' she worried for her friend. She knew something was bothering the girl whether she tried to hide it or not, it was shown. She had a feeling it had something to do with Syaoran Li. She also wondered why Sakura had spent so much time with the boy lately. Was there something she was missing?

'Yes I'm sure. There's nothing to worry about Tomoyo-chan,' she replied wistfully.

Tomoyo gave her one more apprehensive look, and then turned to face the front again.

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Sakura was on her way to her next class math's class, Tomoyo had separated from Sakura, as her next lesson was music. Sakura sauntered her way down the corridor, she paid no attention what so ever as to what other people were doing down the corridor. She just couldn't wait until recess so that she could hopefully see Syaoran. Something stopped her dead in her tracks- it was the mention of her name. She hid behind the corner of the corridor and slowly edged her way around it to get a view of the two talkers. It was Takashi and Syaoran.

'Look Li I don't care! You're taking your sweet time with this whole project! How long can it take?' Takashi asked Syaoran.

'Look Yamazaki-I've just told you I have done what is required.' he trailed off trying to make his voice lower.

Sakura knew she shouldn't be eavesdropping on their conversation but something held her there on the spot telling her to keep listening.

'How do I know that? You could just be lying! I want proof-in fact I want the words to come from her mouth that you are her friend. Then I'll believe you!'

Syaoran looked distressed. 'Yamazaki if you ask her Sakura will say yes!'

'Fine I shall at recess! Otherwise Syaoran you have another week for this stake. After that no more chances.and then I'll win!' Takashi raised his voice slightly in a triumphed way.

'Okay, okay! But I can assure you it's already finished, and I have won.' Syaoran said with smug satisfaction.

Sakura felt tears begin to well in her eyes; she managed to make sense of their conversation. So her whole friendship with Syaoran was a mere bet? This couldn't be! The time they had spent together was so.. magic. There was no other way of describing it. She was sure Syaoran had enjoyed spending time with her-no one could act that good could they? And he had also kissed her, she didn't know if that was an act now.. Sakura not wanting to be seen ran in the other direction tears pouring down her face. As she ran Meiling saw her crying.

'Sakura-chan what's wrong?' she called running after her. But Sakura was too fast for her, Meiling stood there on the spot watching with utmost concern. As Meiling turned around sadly she saw Syaoran and Takashi conversing with one another. It made Meiling wonder what were Syaoran and Takashi up too? And she wondered how Syaoran and Sakura were going? Sakura hadn't said much to her lately, which worried her. All she knew was that Syaoran had slept over Sakura's house on the weekend and Syaoran seemed happy. But now-Sakura looked extremely upset about something.

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~Syaoran's POV~

It was recess time and Syaoran quickly slipped out of class. He was nervous, he was hoping that he would finally win the bet between him and Takashi if he didn't.. he'd look like such a fool, lose his friendship with Sakura and have to pay Takashi too! All he hoped was that Takashi wouldn't make anything look suspicious. But how could Syaoran possibly live with himself? How could he be Sakura's friend and not tell her about the little wager he had had. Maybe he should tell her soon so that hopefully she wouldn't get hurt? Syaoran actually hoped that he wouldn't see Sakura at recess, as it would delay everything.

'Li man there you are!' Takashi slapped him on the back. 'So let's go find Sakura then. Then we'll see if she is really your friend.' Takashi dragged him around the school in search of the girl. Syaoran hoped he wouldn't see her.he just hoped.

'There she is!' Takashi pointed her out. Syaoran sighed and removed his eyes off of the ground. He saw Sakura all right-he saw her-crying.

Syaoran removed his arm from Takashi's firm grip and began running towards her.

'Sakura!' he called. He ran over to her, she sat on a bench under a shady tree. 'Sakura-are you all right?' he panted standing before her now.

She looked up to see him wearing a concerned look on his face. Her eyes were full of tears they shone with them. He hated to see her like this, just how he hated seeing Meiling cry.

'Syaoran!' her voice rose to a tone he had never heard before. It sounded high pitched and shaky. 'Is our friendship all because of a bet?!'

Syaoran gaped open mouthed at her. How did she find out? 'S-Sakura.?' is all that escaped him.

'Is it?' she yelled standing up and facing him, tears rolling down her cheeks.

How was Syaoran to explain this? He took a deep breath and then opened his mouth. 'Sakura-it was.but then-'

'-But then what?' she sobbed. 'I thought you were my friend!'

'You are, you are! Listen to me! It was stupid and foolish I know.' he placed a hand on her shoulder. Before he could continue he heard Takashi approach them.

'Hey Li lemme ask now!' he sounded impatient.

'Just-just go away now please!' he shouted aggravated.

'No! I'm sick and tired of waiting!' he pushed between the two. 'Now Sakura I have something to ask of you.' He cleared his throat totally obliterating the fact that she was crying.

Syaoran felt his anger rise. Not only was he angry but he was upset, he didn't like to see Sakura upset. She may even hate him now he didn't want that. All because of him the stupid bet was made!

'Okay Yamazaki-kun ask away,' her voice sounded cold and distort.

'Righteo then! So I'm just gonna ask you quickly-is Syaoran your friend? He asked.

Sakura glanced past Takashi and her eyes locked on his. For the first time he saw her glare at him. His heart shattered at the sight of that.

'Him?' she snorted, 'of course not! He's the most selfish person I've ever met!' she said this sounding hurt. She was still crying too. Syaoran shook violently, how could Sakura say that?

'I knew it Li! Remember one week-' he smirked and turned around and left still not noticing that the girl was crying.

'Sakura-' he stepped forward, but she stumbled back.

'-Leave me alone!' she sobbed.

'Please just let me explain.' He pleaded.

'Explain what? What's there to explain? You used me! I thought I was your friend! I guess I thought wrong.' She snapped.

'Sakura! Please.I don't want to lose you too..' His eyes began to sting again.

'Well-you just did!' she cried. She didn't want to say that at all but she did. With that she turned and ran. Syaoran let out a sigh. What had he done? He valued their friendship a lot, yet it was all thrown away now.

I-I won't give up! I must prove to her that she is my friend and try to explain I must! He vowed he would do so.

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~Sakura's POV~

After school

Sakura sat on her bed crying. She had lost Syaoran-a close friend. The more she thought back on her behavior today, the more she regretted it. She didn't even give Syaoran a chance to explain anything. But how dare he use her? The worst part was that she loved him too.. now what was she to do? She would miss his amber eyes and chocolate brown hair that always had a bad habit of being messy. She wished today was just a dream, all just a bad dream. Tomorrow would be fine right? She would be his friend?

Oh who are you to kid? You even told Yamazaki-kun that you didn't like him. I have never "hated" anyone in my entire life.Syaoran must think I hate him. But I mustn't have regrets on what I said-I had every right too, but.he looked so hurt. This isn't like me I know.. but he has really hurt me. I feel like my heart is split in half-oh it hurts so much! Sakura let out a loud sob, clutching her pillow close to her heart.

'Oh Syaoran.please find a way for me to forgive you.I really want to,' she murmured between sobs, 'because I love you.'

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~Syaoran's POV~

Dear journal,

She finally found out today.. I feared the day she would. I guess it came a lot more closer then expected too.now what am I to do? She-she hates me now.. well I think so. But it's not like her to hate someone-just like she told me..

Flashback

'Kinomoto-san answer me this please-do you hate me?' Syaoran asked still not looking at her.

'What? Hate you? Of course not. I have never hated anyone in my entire life.' she murmured and once again staring at the curious boy.

'So you do not? How can you have never hated anyone before? I hate many people.'

'I have never hated anyone because.I-always give people chances. I do not judge them by appearance or a little mishap, I like to give them time and see what they are really like. I may not "like" them as much as I would like to, but I could never hate anyone. Hate is a powerful emotion and a very abhorrent one at that. I feel people can only hate someone if they have done extremely terrible things-unforgivable things.' She paused and looked at him still.

End of flashback

She gives people chances.maybe there is still some hope left? But what bothers me so much is "why" do I care? Why did I kiss her before? Just-why? Where are the answers to all these questions? Maybe I love her? But that can't be can it? It'd just be like with mother-losing someone I love. I don't want to lose her-I won't let that happen. I must prove my worth to her I guess-and I have one week to. Otherwise Takashi will really rub it in. But why should I care about a bet? It made me lose an important thing-now I must claim it again. Well either way I'll win. I think I am beginning to fall in love with her, I mean why did I feel sad when I had to leave her house on the weekend? Why did I kiss her again while she was asleep? Urgh! This is so hard for me to contemplate on! All I know is.I'm beginning to miss her eyes, her laugh, her smile, her touch, her scent, and our bond. Well I'll leave it here for now as I am getting thoroughly depressed while writing this.

Ja ne,

Kanashii Syaoran Li (Sad Little Wolf)

Syaoran locked his diary and put it away. He let out a frustrated sigh. The way he wrote about Sakura made him think that he did love her.

'No! This can't be!' he slammed his fist down on his desk, tears brimming in his eyes. 'I don't love her! I don't!' he closed his eyes not wanting one drop to escape his eyes. He would not mourn for her.his heart felt un- repairable unless he had Sakura. He needed her now. She played an important part in his life now he wouldn't throw her away. He took a deep breath and exhaled. He calmed himself down. He wanted to come to terms with himself. Did he or did he not love her? He took a few more breaths and thought hard. This decision would change him surely.

Do you love her? You kissed her-you enjoyed it. You love being with her, in fact you love everything about her! You're distraught about this whole predicament too. Now do I love her? Can I live without her or not?

He opened his eyes and murmured these words to himself then. 'I love Sakura!'

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A/N: ^//^ Kawaii! Well I wonder what will happen now that Sakura knows about the bet? Will she forgive him like he hopes? Well I'll be getting onto the next chapter so ^_^ please review :D Thankies!

Dani-chan