IN HIS EYES
By Sakura-dani
Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D
Chapter twelve-To prove I love you
A/N: Thankies for the reviews on that chappie ^^;; much appreciated indeed =) Sorry if some of my chapters are becoming a bit short at times, but I have limits these days _ I have to do school work and yadda yadda ^^;; well here it is! R+R!
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~Syaoran's POV~
'Syaoran, Syaoran!' Meiling screamed running into his bedroom pulling his covers off of him.
'Urgh!' he muttered shivering slightly. 'What?' he blindly tore the covers out of Meiling's hands and placed them over him again.
'It's time for school! You've slept in!' she giggled but stopped when she heard him sigh unhappily.
Syaoran closed his eyes. He really didn't want to go to school-he just didn't think he could stand to see Sakura without breaking down. He'd become so weak now-that he found out that he loved her.
'Alright-I'll be down in five then,' he slowly got out of bed and stretched.
'Syaoran are you alright?' Meiling asked beginning to fix his bed. He placed a hand over hers and stopped her actions.
'I'm okay-please stop that. I can fix my bed myself..' He muttered hurt apparent in his voice.
'You're sure? -'
'-Yes! Now please-just go!' he trembled turning the other way so Meiling couldn't see his eyes.
'-Okay.' she quickly left his room and closed his door.
Syaoran got changed quickly and then went into the bathroom to brush his hair and wash his face. He stared at his reflection-what had he become? He was so different to what he used to be.. he wasn't so cold anymore. But Syaoran looked worried. His expression said all. He knew that Meiling could read him like a book-there was no escaping her. But she did not know why he was worried or why he was depressed. He glared at his image and felt like punching it in. He didn't deserve to have been Sakura's friend; she was too nice to him. She stuck by him despite his attitude towards others and she had also changed him a lot. He had become compassionate and he now knew what it felt like to love someone. Yes he loved Sakura, he had debated with himself but he knew what the answer was none-the less. The part of Syaoran that was still heartless and cold argued with him, tried to make him get rid of his feelings. A part of him wanted to, but the problem was that he loved her too much to throw it away.
'You are such a fool..' He said to his reflection. After that he left the bathroom and headed downstairs.
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Syaoran placed himself at the table and began eating the pancakes that his mother had placed down. She stared hard at her son. Wei had told her about what he had witnessed on the weekend. How Syaoran had called the girl by her first name. Yelan figured Syaoran must have become quite close friends with Sakura now. But now Syaoran looked-unhappy.
'Shaoran what's wrong?' Yelan asked taking a seat next to him.
Syaoran said nothing; he stared down at his unfinished pancakes. For the second time in his life he felt his heart was breaking--shattering into millions of pieces that couldn't be put back together again. He pushed his plate into the middle of the table, picked up his bag and stormed out of the front door without saying anything.
Yelan blinked, trying to make an understanding of what could possibly be wrong with Syaoran.
'Meiling do you know what's bothering Syaoran?' she asked feeling slightly perplexed.
'Um Auntie.. I am not sure myself. But all I know is that yesterday I saw Sakura crying. She looked rather upset about something, and then not too far from where she was running Syaoran and Takashi were standing there.'
'Sakura was upset about something? But what has that got to do with Syaoran?' Yelan gave a curious look at her niece hoping for the answers to some how piece together.
'Like I said I am not sure.. look I'll tell you what I'll try talking with Sakura today. Maybe Sakura's unhappiness is the key to Syaoran's?'
Yelan gave a hopeful nod. 'From the way I see things-I think Syaoran has fallen for the girl.'
'You mean-Sakura?! Syaoran and Sakura?' Meiling shook her head in a disbelieving way. 'That's implausible! It's just so-'
'-So right Meiling. Like I said I sensed a strange aura from that girl from the very beginning. And I am certain she is the one to win Syaoran's affections. Just you wait and see..'
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Syaoran hopped out of the limousine, he had not said a word to Meiling or Wei at all. Meiling waved good-bye to him, but he ignored it and kept heading towards the school hall.
How am I going to prove to Sakura that I am her friend? This is going to be hard-she'll probably just ignore me.
Syaoran began searching the corridor for her, hoping to see her. Instead of spotting her Takashi spotted him.
'Hey Li!' he slapped him on the back as per usual. 'How's the bet going 'eh?'
'Shut up Yamazaki!' he snapped, 'I'm not in the mood for it.'
'Mood for what? I'm only warning you, you've only got till next week to have Sakura as your friend!'
Syaoran stopped dead in his tracks. What was he to do? He didn't want to lose to Takashi and look like a fool in front of the whole school. And then there was also Sakura.
'Yes I know but-'
'-No buts Li! The dead line is final! After that you either win or lose. Well catch ya later!' he winked and then continued strutting down the corridor and caught up with Ryo and began socializing with him.
Syaoran sighed. He had approximately until next Monday. Until next Monday to prove that he was Sakura's friend.. and to prove that he loved her.
Something useful came to mind as he saw one of Sakura's friends walking down the hallway. It was Tomoyo Daidouji.
'Hey Daidouji-san!' he called out for her attention. She noticed this and made her way over to him.
'Hello Li-kun! What may I do for you?' she asked pleasantly.
He looked Tomoyo in the eyes. 'Daidouji-san.. um have you noticed how Sakura has been upset lately?'
Tomoyo nodded her head gravely. 'Of course I have! But she won't tell me what's wrong with her! All she said was something happened between you and her.'
'Oh.' Syaoran mused. 'Well anyway-I want you to give her a note from me-' Syaoran paused and rummaged through his coat pocket and pulled out a scrap piece of paper. '-Do you have a pen I could borrow quickly?'
Tomoyo nodded. She rummaged through her front bag compartment and pulled out a blue pen. 'Here you go.'
'Thanks.' Syaoran then lent the paper against a near by locker and began scribbling away on it. A few seconds later he folded up the piece of paper and handed it to Tomoyo.
'Please don't read it.' He blushed. 'Can you just make sure that Sakura gets a hold of it?'
Tomoyo smiled warmly, pocketing the note. 'Sure thing Li-kun, well have a nice day!' she waved heading down the corridor towards her locker.
Syaoran waved and let out a relieved sigh. He hoped Sakura would at least read what he had written down on that piece of paper.
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~Sakura's POV~
Sakura closed her locker door and entered her classroom taking a seat in the far left hand corner, right by the window. She would always sit there, as it seemed to calm her by looking out of the window when she needed too. A sigh escaped from her lips as she stared down at her desk not taking note of the graffiti all over it from past students. Sakura wondered what it was going to be like for when she would see Syaoran at school. She knew it would be awkward, but a part of her really wanted to see him-have his company again. But she kept her ground, she was to be stubborn and not give in to the boy like that. He used her, and that was all that was too it. Or was it? She couldn't help but ponder on the events that lead to this unusual circumstance. She was in love with a boy whom to begin with was cold, rude, arrogant and biased. But after getting to spend time with him and getting to know him she had come to see his nicer side, the side she loved. She had never felt for someone as much as she did for him. She wouldn't let go of him so easily but she was still furious with him. A hand was placed down on her desk, which interrupted her trails of thought.
'Good morning Sakura-chan!' Tomoyo beamed brightly.
'Good morning Tomoyo-chan,' she said back lacking her usual enthusiasm.
'I see you are still upset?' she pulled up a chair next to Sakura.
'Yeah..' She muttered avoiding her best friends eyes.
'Sakura.. I'm really worried about you. You won't tell me anything. What exactly is bothering you? I know something happened between you and Syaoran but what exactly?'
'Tomoyo-chan-I'm not meaning to be rude or anything but I'd rather not talk about it now.'
'Oh sure thing Sakura-chan, later maybe?' she began fidgeting with her collar on her shirt.
'Maybe..' Sakura replied nonchalantly.
'Oh! Before I forget-Li-kun gave me something to give to you!' Tomoyo reached into her skirt pocket and pulled out the folded up piece of paper and handed it to Sakura.
Sakura took it and gazed at it in her hand. 'Err thanks Tomoyo.' Tomoyo took this as a signal of her wanting to read it by herself, so Tomoyo got out of her seat and moved it back to where it was usually seated and took a seat in front of her.
Sakura slowly began unfolding the piece of paper to little by little reveal Syaoran's untidy scrawl on the paper. It looked rushed and was obviously written this morning. It read:
Dear Sakura,
I know you are mad at me. But please can you just give me a chance? Look-- meet me under the big tree on the side of the school at recess and let me explain a few things 'kay?
Syaoran
Sakura re-read it again just to make sure. It said what it said. Now the question was, was she going to meet him and hear what he has to say? Well she figured that she should at least hear what he has to say.
'All right Syaoran I'll go,' she murmured to herself with a slight smile on her face. She folded the piece of paper back up and slipped it into her skirt pocket. She was going to meet Syaoran she decided.
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~Syaoran's POV~
Syaoran remained waiting alone under the big tree at the side of the school. He waited there for one person-Sakura. He hoped that she would come. He needed to try and clear things up between the two of them, he just had to.
'I hope she comes..' He sighed watching a cherry blossom petal float through the air and land gently in the palm of his hand. He smiled looking at it. How it reminded him of Sakura, after all her name did mean "Cherry blossom".
There was a sound of leaves being stepped on as Syaoran admired the beauty of the Cherry Blossom petal. His eyes swiftly scanned the area. There stood Sakura.
'Err hi.' she said not sounding as cheery as she usually did. She held his note in her hand, flashing it at him. He blushed slightly but stood up abruptly.
'Look-Sakura.. will you please listen to me?' he pleaded. He expected her to yell at him or even glare at him but she just simply stood there and nodded her head.
Syaoran sighed; at least he knew she was going to listen to him. 'Okay.well.about this "bet" ordeal.it kinda started because Yamazaki asked me to do it. And as mostly everyone around the school knows me, I never refuse a bet. So I had to except it.and I must admit that at the start I was only doing it because I wanted to win-but now-'
'-But now? Syaoran do you know how much this hurts me? I-I'd love to forgive you but I just can't! You've hurt me.it just feels unforgivable. To think that I was your friend, to even contemplate that you were actually mine! It's all lies!' she began to sob again.
'Sakura please don't say that! It hurts me to see you cry..' He said in a heartrending voice. 'Sakura you are my friend! I really meant it when I said it to you!'
Sakura refused to look into his eyes right then, although she wished to look into his amber eyes she couldn't bring herself to even look at him right then.
'Sakura-why won't you look at me?' he said feeling agonized. 'Please look at me-' he reached forward and attempted to tilt her head upwards. Her eyes met with his, hers shone with tears and emptiness while his shone with determination and at the same time sadness.
'Don't!' she pulled away from him quickly. 'I-I must go!' she turned and began running away from him.
'Sakura-wait! I'm your friend!' he shouted in defeat watching her slip away from him into the distance. He fell to the ground on his knees and pounded then ground fiercely. 'I must prove to her somehow.. I must. I cannot lose someone important again.'
As Syaoran remained there it began to rain, gradually saturating his school uniform. But he did not care; he remained there all the while, while it rained on him. He cared nothing for being wet, all he wanted was Sakura to be his friend again.
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A/N: so sorry for the delay in this chappie _ school I blame school! *growls* well only 2 weeks left until holidays thank god! Well R+R, and I'll hopefully be able to upload my next chappie ASAP!
Ja ne,
Dani-chan!
Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D
Chapter twelve-To prove I love you
A/N: Thankies for the reviews on that chappie ^^;; much appreciated indeed =) Sorry if some of my chapters are becoming a bit short at times, but I have limits these days _ I have to do school work and yadda yadda ^^;; well here it is! R+R!
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~Syaoran's POV~
'Syaoran, Syaoran!' Meiling screamed running into his bedroom pulling his covers off of him.
'Urgh!' he muttered shivering slightly. 'What?' he blindly tore the covers out of Meiling's hands and placed them over him again.
'It's time for school! You've slept in!' she giggled but stopped when she heard him sigh unhappily.
Syaoran closed his eyes. He really didn't want to go to school-he just didn't think he could stand to see Sakura without breaking down. He'd become so weak now-that he found out that he loved her.
'Alright-I'll be down in five then,' he slowly got out of bed and stretched.
'Syaoran are you alright?' Meiling asked beginning to fix his bed. He placed a hand over hers and stopped her actions.
'I'm okay-please stop that. I can fix my bed myself..' He muttered hurt apparent in his voice.
'You're sure? -'
'-Yes! Now please-just go!' he trembled turning the other way so Meiling couldn't see his eyes.
'-Okay.' she quickly left his room and closed his door.
Syaoran got changed quickly and then went into the bathroom to brush his hair and wash his face. He stared at his reflection-what had he become? He was so different to what he used to be.. he wasn't so cold anymore. But Syaoran looked worried. His expression said all. He knew that Meiling could read him like a book-there was no escaping her. But she did not know why he was worried or why he was depressed. He glared at his image and felt like punching it in. He didn't deserve to have been Sakura's friend; she was too nice to him. She stuck by him despite his attitude towards others and she had also changed him a lot. He had become compassionate and he now knew what it felt like to love someone. Yes he loved Sakura, he had debated with himself but he knew what the answer was none-the less. The part of Syaoran that was still heartless and cold argued with him, tried to make him get rid of his feelings. A part of him wanted to, but the problem was that he loved her too much to throw it away.
'You are such a fool..' He said to his reflection. After that he left the bathroom and headed downstairs.
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Syaoran placed himself at the table and began eating the pancakes that his mother had placed down. She stared hard at her son. Wei had told her about what he had witnessed on the weekend. How Syaoran had called the girl by her first name. Yelan figured Syaoran must have become quite close friends with Sakura now. But now Syaoran looked-unhappy.
'Shaoran what's wrong?' Yelan asked taking a seat next to him.
Syaoran said nothing; he stared down at his unfinished pancakes. For the second time in his life he felt his heart was breaking--shattering into millions of pieces that couldn't be put back together again. He pushed his plate into the middle of the table, picked up his bag and stormed out of the front door without saying anything.
Yelan blinked, trying to make an understanding of what could possibly be wrong with Syaoran.
'Meiling do you know what's bothering Syaoran?' she asked feeling slightly perplexed.
'Um Auntie.. I am not sure myself. But all I know is that yesterday I saw Sakura crying. She looked rather upset about something, and then not too far from where she was running Syaoran and Takashi were standing there.'
'Sakura was upset about something? But what has that got to do with Syaoran?' Yelan gave a curious look at her niece hoping for the answers to some how piece together.
'Like I said I am not sure.. look I'll tell you what I'll try talking with Sakura today. Maybe Sakura's unhappiness is the key to Syaoran's?'
Yelan gave a hopeful nod. 'From the way I see things-I think Syaoran has fallen for the girl.'
'You mean-Sakura?! Syaoran and Sakura?' Meiling shook her head in a disbelieving way. 'That's implausible! It's just so-'
'-So right Meiling. Like I said I sensed a strange aura from that girl from the very beginning. And I am certain she is the one to win Syaoran's affections. Just you wait and see..'
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Syaoran hopped out of the limousine, he had not said a word to Meiling or Wei at all. Meiling waved good-bye to him, but he ignored it and kept heading towards the school hall.
How am I going to prove to Sakura that I am her friend? This is going to be hard-she'll probably just ignore me.
Syaoran began searching the corridor for her, hoping to see her. Instead of spotting her Takashi spotted him.
'Hey Li!' he slapped him on the back as per usual. 'How's the bet going 'eh?'
'Shut up Yamazaki!' he snapped, 'I'm not in the mood for it.'
'Mood for what? I'm only warning you, you've only got till next week to have Sakura as your friend!'
Syaoran stopped dead in his tracks. What was he to do? He didn't want to lose to Takashi and look like a fool in front of the whole school. And then there was also Sakura.
'Yes I know but-'
'-No buts Li! The dead line is final! After that you either win or lose. Well catch ya later!' he winked and then continued strutting down the corridor and caught up with Ryo and began socializing with him.
Syaoran sighed. He had approximately until next Monday. Until next Monday to prove that he was Sakura's friend.. and to prove that he loved her.
Something useful came to mind as he saw one of Sakura's friends walking down the hallway. It was Tomoyo Daidouji.
'Hey Daidouji-san!' he called out for her attention. She noticed this and made her way over to him.
'Hello Li-kun! What may I do for you?' she asked pleasantly.
He looked Tomoyo in the eyes. 'Daidouji-san.. um have you noticed how Sakura has been upset lately?'
Tomoyo nodded her head gravely. 'Of course I have! But she won't tell me what's wrong with her! All she said was something happened between you and her.'
'Oh.' Syaoran mused. 'Well anyway-I want you to give her a note from me-' Syaoran paused and rummaged through his coat pocket and pulled out a scrap piece of paper. '-Do you have a pen I could borrow quickly?'
Tomoyo nodded. She rummaged through her front bag compartment and pulled out a blue pen. 'Here you go.'
'Thanks.' Syaoran then lent the paper against a near by locker and began scribbling away on it. A few seconds later he folded up the piece of paper and handed it to Tomoyo.
'Please don't read it.' He blushed. 'Can you just make sure that Sakura gets a hold of it?'
Tomoyo smiled warmly, pocketing the note. 'Sure thing Li-kun, well have a nice day!' she waved heading down the corridor towards her locker.
Syaoran waved and let out a relieved sigh. He hoped Sakura would at least read what he had written down on that piece of paper.
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~Sakura's POV~
Sakura closed her locker door and entered her classroom taking a seat in the far left hand corner, right by the window. She would always sit there, as it seemed to calm her by looking out of the window when she needed too. A sigh escaped from her lips as she stared down at her desk not taking note of the graffiti all over it from past students. Sakura wondered what it was going to be like for when she would see Syaoran at school. She knew it would be awkward, but a part of her really wanted to see him-have his company again. But she kept her ground, she was to be stubborn and not give in to the boy like that. He used her, and that was all that was too it. Or was it? She couldn't help but ponder on the events that lead to this unusual circumstance. She was in love with a boy whom to begin with was cold, rude, arrogant and biased. But after getting to spend time with him and getting to know him she had come to see his nicer side, the side she loved. She had never felt for someone as much as she did for him. She wouldn't let go of him so easily but she was still furious with him. A hand was placed down on her desk, which interrupted her trails of thought.
'Good morning Sakura-chan!' Tomoyo beamed brightly.
'Good morning Tomoyo-chan,' she said back lacking her usual enthusiasm.
'I see you are still upset?' she pulled up a chair next to Sakura.
'Yeah..' She muttered avoiding her best friends eyes.
'Sakura.. I'm really worried about you. You won't tell me anything. What exactly is bothering you? I know something happened between you and Syaoran but what exactly?'
'Tomoyo-chan-I'm not meaning to be rude or anything but I'd rather not talk about it now.'
'Oh sure thing Sakura-chan, later maybe?' she began fidgeting with her collar on her shirt.
'Maybe..' Sakura replied nonchalantly.
'Oh! Before I forget-Li-kun gave me something to give to you!' Tomoyo reached into her skirt pocket and pulled out the folded up piece of paper and handed it to Sakura.
Sakura took it and gazed at it in her hand. 'Err thanks Tomoyo.' Tomoyo took this as a signal of her wanting to read it by herself, so Tomoyo got out of her seat and moved it back to where it was usually seated and took a seat in front of her.
Sakura slowly began unfolding the piece of paper to little by little reveal Syaoran's untidy scrawl on the paper. It looked rushed and was obviously written this morning. It read:
Dear Sakura,
I know you are mad at me. But please can you just give me a chance? Look-- meet me under the big tree on the side of the school at recess and let me explain a few things 'kay?
Syaoran
Sakura re-read it again just to make sure. It said what it said. Now the question was, was she going to meet him and hear what he has to say? Well she figured that she should at least hear what he has to say.
'All right Syaoran I'll go,' she murmured to herself with a slight smile on her face. She folded the piece of paper back up and slipped it into her skirt pocket. She was going to meet Syaoran she decided.
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~Syaoran's POV~
Syaoran remained waiting alone under the big tree at the side of the school. He waited there for one person-Sakura. He hoped that she would come. He needed to try and clear things up between the two of them, he just had to.
'I hope she comes..' He sighed watching a cherry blossom petal float through the air and land gently in the palm of his hand. He smiled looking at it. How it reminded him of Sakura, after all her name did mean "Cherry blossom".
There was a sound of leaves being stepped on as Syaoran admired the beauty of the Cherry Blossom petal. His eyes swiftly scanned the area. There stood Sakura.
'Err hi.' she said not sounding as cheery as she usually did. She held his note in her hand, flashing it at him. He blushed slightly but stood up abruptly.
'Look-Sakura.. will you please listen to me?' he pleaded. He expected her to yell at him or even glare at him but she just simply stood there and nodded her head.
Syaoran sighed; at least he knew she was going to listen to him. 'Okay.well.about this "bet" ordeal.it kinda started because Yamazaki asked me to do it. And as mostly everyone around the school knows me, I never refuse a bet. So I had to except it.and I must admit that at the start I was only doing it because I wanted to win-but now-'
'-But now? Syaoran do you know how much this hurts me? I-I'd love to forgive you but I just can't! You've hurt me.it just feels unforgivable. To think that I was your friend, to even contemplate that you were actually mine! It's all lies!' she began to sob again.
'Sakura please don't say that! It hurts me to see you cry..' He said in a heartrending voice. 'Sakura you are my friend! I really meant it when I said it to you!'
Sakura refused to look into his eyes right then, although she wished to look into his amber eyes she couldn't bring herself to even look at him right then.
'Sakura-why won't you look at me?' he said feeling agonized. 'Please look at me-' he reached forward and attempted to tilt her head upwards. Her eyes met with his, hers shone with tears and emptiness while his shone with determination and at the same time sadness.
'Don't!' she pulled away from him quickly. 'I-I must go!' she turned and began running away from him.
'Sakura-wait! I'm your friend!' he shouted in defeat watching her slip away from him into the distance. He fell to the ground on his knees and pounded then ground fiercely. 'I must prove to her somehow.. I must. I cannot lose someone important again.'
As Syaoran remained there it began to rain, gradually saturating his school uniform. But he did not care; he remained there all the while, while it rained on him. He cared nothing for being wet, all he wanted was Sakura to be his friend again.
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A/N: so sorry for the delay in this chappie _ school I blame school! *growls* well only 2 weeks left until holidays thank god! Well R+R, and I'll hopefully be able to upload my next chappie ASAP!
Ja ne,
Dani-chan!
