IN HIS EYES
By Sakura-dani

Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D

A/N: now, now people I'd love to say thanks to all you who called me "evil" xD I mean it's one of my best traits after all lol j/k! ^_^ Thank you guys SO much for the reviews on that chapter ^_~ and sorry for the delay in this chappie-school again -_-;

Chapter eighteen-He awakens

Sunday Morning- One day to go

~Syaoran's POV~

Syaoran opened his eyes in time to see Sakura move away from him slightly. She wore a smile on her face and still had tears running down her red cheeks.

'W-what's going on?' Syaoran muttered through his teeth. He blinked a few times and then took in his surroundings. Syaoran closed his eyes and tried recollecting his memory of what had happened. Syaoran slightly remembered him bringing the knife to school, and Sakura preventing him at school. She followed him after school…. she chased him…his mind was a total blank there; it was as if someone had removed the scene from his memory.

'Syaoran! Oh I'm so glad you're all right!' Sakura said joyously taking his hand in hers.

'Sakura what happened? I don't remember everything…' Syaoran sighed gazing into her jade eyes.

'Oh dear…what don't you remember?' Sakura had to sit down now, as she felt if she stood any longer she might pass out from shock and happiness of Syaoran's awakening.

'What happened when you chased after me in the forest?' he asked placidly Sakura had hoped he would've remembered that, as she really didn't want to re-tell him that particular scene. .

'Um….' Sakura paused and saw him looking at her intently. 'You didn't look where you were going and…a car hit you…' she trailed off. She waited for him to yell at her and start blaming her, but there was nothing-just silence.

Syaoran nodded and smiled. 'I see…I was stupid then…Sakura I want to thank you for preventing me from "hurting" myself like I had intended too…'

'Syaoran it's okay-I just feel really bad at not being able to stop that car and-' Syaoran placed a finger to her lip to silence her incoherent rambling.

'It's okay I was the stupid one….' He said confidently staring at her. He noticed she looked somewhat shocked. 'What's wrong?'

'I-I…I feel I am partly responsible, please except my most sincere apologies,' she bowed, 'and honestly Syaoran, I do not know how you are even alive!' she began to sob softly.

'Huh? Look it's not your fault! And anyway what do mean by that?' he asked sitting up with a groan.

'I really don't know Syaoran…. something happened, something magic or something. It's hard to explain. Syaoran if it weren't for what had happened you'd most likely be dead.'

'What. Happened?' he repeated firmly.

'I leant over your injured body and then suddenly we were engulfed in a pink light and then…you were healed somehow.' Sakura dabbed at the corner of her eye with her sleeve. She had become weak and vulnerable over the past few days now.

'Weird…well I dunno what happened, maybe I can ask mother later?' he mused.

'S-Syaoran I have to go now…' Sakura turned away from him and stared down at the floor.

'Why Sakura? Please don't go…' he begged. He was going to be so lonely if he didn't have her company.

'I-I've been here long enough Syaoran…. and plus your mother will want to speak with you now that you're awake and well.' Somehow Syaoran didn't think that was the real reason, but respected her decision.

'Okay, just one question Sakura?'

'Sure,' she turned around and wore a smile on her face.

'Were you here with me all day and night?' Sakura blushed and slowly nodded.

'Yeah I was Syaoran. Did you-did you hear me speak to you?' she blushed even more.

'Hear you? No…wait-you were talking to me?' he asked with immediate interest.

'Um yeah…doctors said it'd do you good.'

'Sakura.' He paused and looked in her emerald eyes, they shone with the light reflecting off of them. 'I had a dream, well I'm sure it was a dream…'

'Oh? What about?' Sakura's interest perked up immediately.

'Us. I dreamt about us. Except I vaguely remember seeing a pink sort of aura around the both of us. It was quite peculiar, and you seemed to insist that I saw it…' Syaoran cleared his throat and noticed that Sakura was staring at him weirdly.

'Syaoran I'm kind of scared. What is this pink aura!? I saw it-you saw it! What does it mean?' Sakura concluded airily.

'Sakura I do not know. Maybe we're just seeing things?'

'Oh no Syaoran! Do not give me that! There was something-mysterious! I wish to find out what it is…' Syaoran chuckled. He never realized how determined this girl really was until now.

'Sakura all things will be solved eventually just give them time-in fact give me time too.' His tone seemed kind of mysterious. He saw the girl blush again, making her look just as red as a tomato.

'Syaoran-I gotta go now…' she smiled grabbing her coat. It surprised Syaoran when she leant over him and planted a kiss on his cheek. 'I'm glad you're better and I wish you well. Now I must go tell everyone that you have awoken, ja!'

It was now Syaoran's turn to blush as he watched her leave the room silently.

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~Sakura's POV~

'Meiling-chan he's awake!' Sakura gave a gleeful whoop surveying the girl with long black hair and ruby eyes who was sitting down on the sofa reading a magazine.

'Y-you're serious?' Meiling's frown formed into a sharp curve upwards. She threw the magazine down onto the sofa.

'Yup! I'm so happy he's all right now! I'll inform the nurse, go see Syaoran for yourself-' no longer had those last words escaped her lips had Meiling ran down the corridor heading into Syaoran's ward. Sakura giggled and happily strolled over to the reception desk.

The nurse working behind it saw her and returned the cheerful smile. 'Hello how may I help you miss?'

'Oh I'm just letting you know that one of your patients is awake and well…' Sakura began fiddling with her coat buttons.

'Oh who is that dear?' the nurse began tapping away on the computer keyboard.

'Li, Syaoran. He awoke just before, he looks quite healthy.'

'Why thank you dear, I'll alert the other doctors of this useful information.'

'No problem, see ya.' Sakura bowed and then headed towards the exit to the building where Touya greeted her in the parking lot.

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~Syaoran's POV~

'Syaoran I am SO glad that you're awake!' Meiling squealed embracing him tightly.

'Okay, okay gerroff me Meiling!' Syaoran said in a muffled voice.

Meiling released him from her tight grip and watched him breathe heavily. Meiling giggled and grinned back at him. 'Ah Syaoran so Sakura-chan made you wake up eh?' she winked scoffing.

'I-I guess so?' Syaoran scratched his head in slight confusion. Syaoran slightly remembered Sakura kissing him but maybe that was just his dream? 'Where's mom?'

'Aunt Yelan shall be coming in any minute now-'

'-Yes so I shall.' Yelan's voice sounded from the open doorway. Syaoran sat up abruptly and stared hardly at his mother. 'So I see you have finally come around eh?'

Syaoran nodded watching his mother pace the room slowly.

'Meiling can I ask you to leave for a while please? I need to talk with Xiao Lang in private…'

'Oh s-sure,' Meiling bowed, took one last glance at Syaoran and then left the room in a hurry.

Yelan pulled up a seat next to Syaoran's bed and smiled at him. 'So you woke because of her right?' she asked as if she was highly confident in that statement.

'I think so…I…yeah I did…' he nodded. 'But I do not understand something.'

'Oh what's that?' Yelan still beamed at him brightly. 'Sakura said that when I was hit and she knelt over me that some weird strange pink aura emitted from both our bodies. And I even had a dream and we had that same glow around us too-why?' Syaoran wanted answers and if anyone were to explain them no one was better then his mother.

'Syaoran can it be possible that you two love and care for one another so much that you have formed a bond like no other? One that is magic? I think this is the power of love. No magic is stronger then the power of love. She must really care for you to have performed such magic on you…' Yelan still smiled while she explained to her son.

'Whoa, whoa, whoa! Slow down a sec! Let me get this straight-Sakura has magic? She can produce magic!?' Syaoran blurted out rapidly not believing what he was hearing.

Yelan nodded. 'Why of course she does. She is unaware of it but she is a fine conjurer whose strongest magic capability is love. She healed you because she loves you Shaoran.'

Syaoran gaped open mouthed. He never thought that someone like her would have magic of any sort. 'She loves me? I didn't think she really did…I didn't believe her really, I thought we were just confused and I-Argh!' Syaoran pounded his fist on the bed hardly, his hand bounced back up.

'Sakura is a very gifted girl with many talents; she is kind at heart and places others before herself. She has a magic that is unknown, and I have sensed it. I'm surprised you didn't feel anything Syaoran?' she smiled raising an eyebrow at him playfully.

Syaoran remained serious though. 'Do I tell her about her magic? She seemed rather scared at the thought of my mysterious healing…'

'Yes please do. Now I must go off to work Syaoran, I wish I could stay with you some more but cannot. Wei will be taking you home though okay?' Yelan got up out of her chair and began heading out of the room but paused and turned to face Syaoran. 'Syaoran just remember that I care for you okay?' and with that she left the room.

'She has magic? Sakura…. loves me? I have to make sure that she knows I love her with all my heart…but how? What can I give her that no one else can? I hope we can put our troubles behind us like she had wanted too…. I was just stubborn at the time.'

Syaoran sighed and lay back in bed trying to relax when all of a sudden two nurses and two doctors came into his room interrupting his thoughts of peace.

'Mr. Li I assume?' the first doctor said. He had dark brown hair and a pair of blue eyes.

Syaoran nodded and glanced at the other doctor and the two nurses.

'We have come to discuss something important. We found this-' he drew out the knife. It was encased inside a plastic bag. '-On the scene of the accident. Now tell me does this belong to you?'

Syaoran couldn't lie. If he did they could always do finger print tests. Syaoran nodded once more.

'Now why does it have a blood stain on the tip of the blade?'

Syaoran really didn't like this guy one bit he was very persistent. 'Because-because…' Syaoran stopped. Should he tell them the truth? Or lie? Would he get in trouble if he told them about his attempts of suicide? Syaoran gulped. 'Because I attempted to commit suicide.' He said firmly. 'But Sakura Kinomoto prevented me from doing so, nor do I wish to enact it again.'

The man with dark brown hair and blue eyes peered at Syaoran closely, as if he were a guinea pig on display.

'You say you're not going to attempt it again?' one of the nurses stepped forward.

'Yes. I have seen how stupid and foolish I was, I'm sorry…I promise I won't attempt it again,' Syaoran said sincerely.

The doctors and nurses stared at one another and then turned to smile at Syaoran and nodded. 'All right Mr. Li, all right…' they grinned.

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A few hours later Syaoran was able to return home without further questioning from the doctors and nurses. As soon as he set foot in the house he went up to his room to write in his diary.

As Syaoran opened his bedroom door, the familiar scent of home wafted into his nostrils. How he had missed it over the brief period of absence. Syaoran closed his door and sat at his desk and opened his drawer to find his diary.

'Hiraita,' he muttered as per usual. The diary opened with a click and he found his favorite colored pen. He put pen to paper.

Dear diary, I have returned home. From hospital. Why was I in there? I had an accident, an accident that could've been avoided. But alas I was injured. Sakura attempted to save me. She actually did you know? I wish I hadn't decided to commit suicide now, I see how foolish it was and regret doing so. Sakura has made me have a different perspective on life. "Forgive and forget". If I had listened to her maybe… Well a car hit me apparently. I survived. How? Sakura saved me. She seems to have magic, as she was the one that healed me. It was her love that healed me. So she does love me? That is nice to know, and the feeling is indeed mutual. Now just to make sure I must drop the bet, I do not care if I have just come out of hospital, I shall go to school tomorrow to drop the bet in front of the entire school if needed. But something feels unfinished…I feel it's not enough to prove anything to Sakura. But how to prove I love her dearly and never will stop loving her?

Syaoran paused and thought hardly. How was he to prove he loved her? He gazed down at his diary, and for the first time he looked at his diary in a different view. No one had ever read his diary. No one. What if he were to let her read everything? Syaoran smiled. It was decided then.

I have decided to let Sakura read this diary. It may be the only way for her to understand everything that I have been through, how I feel for her. Yes it's decided. Tomorrow I shall let her read it all.

Well ja ne,

Syaoran Li (little wolf)

There was a knock on his door as he finished writing in his diary. Syaoran did not shut his diary but placed it upside down on his desk. Yelan entered the room right then.

'Son I am home. I have an announcement to make though.'

'What is it now?' he glanced at her feeling slightly worried.

'It's no good news unfortunately. Syaoran…I have been asked to work back in Hong Kong, my work is no longer required here in Tomoeda. We shall be leaving by Tuesday…'

Syaoran felt an unexplainable rage burst deep inside him. He felt his heart shatter to millions of pieces. 'WHAT? WE'RE LEAVING? JUST LIKE THAT?!'

'Now Syaoran calm down.'

'NO YOU CALM DOWN "MOTHER"! YOU CANNOT KEEP EXPECTING ME TO JUMP WHEN YOU SAY LEAP! I'VE HAD IT WITH YOUR WORK! I'M NOT LEAVING TOMOEDA! I LOVE IT HERE!' Syaoran bellowed so loudly that his window pain rattled.

'Syaoran silence! I am your mother and I say what goes! Now no more nonsense we leave Tuesday and that's final!' she snapped and turned on her heel and left his room, slamming his door shut.

Syaoran felt tears pour down his face again. He felt hot and bothered too. 'I HATE YOU YELAN LI!' he shouted grabbing a photo frame nearby and throwing it against his door. It shattered and landed on the ground in pieces.

Syaoran was not going to just leave the girl he loved. He refused too! He was going to give his diary to her tomorrow and let her read it all. He would tell her what his mother had announced and maybe they could work something out together somehow? Syaoran knew it was highly unlikely that he would win and get to stay here. After all it was always what his mother said goes.

With one last effort Syaoran drew his sword off its holder and slashed at his bedroom curtains in anger.

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A/N: Sorry to leave it there! I promise the next chappie will be up ASAP! Keep those reviews coming please =) thanks!

Dani-chan