IN HIS EYES
By Dani-chan

Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D

A/N: Now I'm going to start slowing down a little for the rest, as I need to write a lot more. Just remember that patience is a virtue. I'll take my time in the next chapter so please do not rush me =p I appreciate all of you whom review *hugs* and I think the next chapter will be the final so I must make it at its best if you understand ^_~

Chapter nineteen-In his diary

Monday morning-The bet ends

~Syaoran's POV~

The sunlight leaked in through his bedroom window casting various shadows to appear around his room. Syaoran glared up at the ceiling not having a care for anything. He had not slept all night, just lay on his bed thinking infuriated thoughts of his mother. Syaoran sat up slowly and gave a short yawn; he slid off his bed and stood near his balcony. The sun shone very brightly today, the light tended to hurt Syaoran's eyes maybe because he felt extremely tired.

Today Sakura you shall read my diary, today I will lose the bet. Today will I have to say good-bye? Syaoran thought sadly.

Syaoran glanced down onto the floor and saw his sword lying discarded there. He had thrown it there in rage and had not bothered to re-shelve it. He bent over and picked it up and placed it back on his holder and gave a sigh. He felt terrible and useless. Why did his mother have to be so evil to him? That was a great waking up present for him…

As Syaoran shuffled about in his room finding his school uniform he remembered the photo frame he had thrown at his door yesterday. The frame was broken and the many shards of glass were scattered about on the ground. Syaoran hastily got dressed and put his school shoes on and then carefully treaded around the pieces of glass. Syaoran picked up the broken photo frame and looked down at the photo that was in it. It was of him, Meiling and his "mother". Syaoran and Meiling were five years old in that picture, and Syaoran did not like the way he was clinging onto his mothers arm like that. The photo looked happy. A way a family should be-a happy family.

Syaoran slid the photo out of the frame and glared at it and then with one final look at it he ripped it in half and threw it in his bin along with the broken frame.

'Syaoran hurry up!' Meiling wailed down the corridor. She was obviously already prepared for school.

'All right!' he barked. Syaoran pulled open his drawer and pulled out his diary and a box. Syaoran glanced around precariously it seemed fine.

'Anrokku,' Syaoran muttered telling it to unlock. 'Sasae kaihou,' Syaoran commanded. He had said for it to stay open. He then slid the diary into the box and placed the lid on top and then tied it up with green lace. Today he was going to give it to her…

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~Sakura's POV~

Ryo was walking alongside Takashi down the school corridor as per usual. But Takashi had a huge grin on his face, he felt exuberant.

'Ahh today Ryo, today is when I shall win!' he smirked happily.

Ryo nodded. 'But don't you think you've won sort of by default? I mean Syaoran did quit the bet you know? Just he was forced to do it today…I do not see why he must pay you and-'

'-Look! Syaoran is a bloody coward! He failed such a measly task and has nothing to gain from it at all. He lost to me and it's fair and square okay? He's paying me and announcing it to the entire school if possible all right?!' Takashi snapped back. He didn't want anything to spoil his mood.

Sakura had been walking behind them, but keeping a certain distance as to make her not look like she had been eavesdropping at all.

So Syaoran's going to quit today? If his bet was about gaining my friendship then he has won this bet! But knowing Syaoran he will not want to accept winning now…

'O hayo Sakura-chan!' Tomoyo greeted hugging her unreservedly.

'O hayo Tomoyo-chan!' Sakura smiled suddenly forgetting what she was thinking about.

'Word has gotten around the school about the bet. Today is that day eh?' Tomoyo said with some concern.

'Yeah…he's lost…' Sakura replied letting go of Tomoyo.

'But aren't you his friend now?' she queried beginning to walk alongside Sakura now.

'Yes but-'

'-Then he has won!' Tomoyo proclaimed.

'No…' Sakura sighed.

'W-why not?'

'Syaoran is going to lose because I'm sure he still wants to prove something.' Sakura stopped in front of her locker and fumbled about in her skirt pocket for her keys.

'Prove something?' Tomoyo repeated quietly.

'Yeah…although he should know that I-love him…' Sakura continued talking while finally opening her locker and pulling out her textbooks.

Sakura glanced to her side and saw Takashi and Ryo strutting down the corridor. Sakura kept a close watch waiting for him to appear soon. She hoped he was okay, she hadn't seen him since yesterday in the hospital.

'Sakura? Sakura? Hello?' Tomoyo waved a hand in front of her face. 'Earth to Sakura?' Tomoyo repeated giggling all the while.

'Huh? Oh sorry,' she gave a quick bow, 'just looking out for him…' she trailed off blushing slightly.

'Sakura no need to bow silly!' Tomoyo chortled taking out her camcorder and recording her friend. 'How kawaii! I must record today too! Sakura and Li-kun meant to be together!' she obsessed.

'T-Tomoyo-chan! No you can't record today!' Sakura stammered.

'Aww please Sakura-chan? Today is going to be SO kawaii!' she giggled uncontrollably.

Sakura saw no point in continuing her statement, as she knew either way Tomoyo would bring her camcorder.

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~Syaoran's POV~

Syaoran was outside on the oval for P.E.; today they had to do soccer and unfortunately Takashi was in his P.E. class as well.

Syaoran practiced with the soccer ball, juggling it between both his knees back and forth. Syaoran was extremely good at soccer, but his mother had never encouraged him to take it up so he didn't.

Takashi strutted over to Syaoran feeling highly confident in himself today. 'Hiya Li! Nice day isn't it?' he said sardonically but trying to hide it.

'Shut it!' Syaoran grunted trying to ignore Takashi.

'So how have you been lately? I heard a car hit you? My, my…how tragic. Well Li at the end of the day you're announcing something I assume?' Takashi hinted very strongly.

'Yep! I sure am! I do not care anymore Yamazaki, so no use trying to threaten me. I'll pay you too don't worry now just go away.' Syaoran replied tediously.

There was a short silence in the air between the two boys. Takashi cleared his throat. 'Heh…well remember after school at the front near the gates then!' Takashi reminded him and then turned on his heel and left him alone.

Syaoran wasn't angry with Takashi for some odd reason, he felt calm about this whole bet. He didn't care if he was to lose; he just wanted it to come to an end. But Syaoran was angry with his mother. That was one problem. How was he to stay with Sakura now, even if she forgives him?

'Yelan will not make me leave-I wont…' Syaoran said to himself. With slight anger he pelted the ball against the wall. It rebounded back and Syaoran leapt into the air and slammed his foot against it so hard that it went higher then the wall and bounced onto the roof.

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~Sakura's POV~

As the students gathered down the corridor to their lockers to grab their stuff to take home, Takashi came down the corridor yelling out something.

Sakura's ears pricked up and she turned as the many other students also did, and paid complete attention to him.

'LI SYAORAN WILL BE HAPPY TOO ANNOUNCE SOMETHING TO US ALL! PLEASE CONGREGATE AROUND THE FRONT GATES! HURRY!' Takashi yelled.

Sakura gulped. The time had come; she wondered how Syaoran was going to feel about all of this.
Sakura followed the many other curious students outside to the front of the school. Tomoyo caught up with Sakura, her camcorder in her hand.

'Sakura it'll be all right…' she tried to comfort her.

Sakura nodded jadedly. Sakura went to join the rather large circle that was formed around Takashi and Syaoran. Sakura pushed through many students wanting to get in the front row.

'Sorry, sorry-excuse me! Sorry, please forgive me, sorry!' She muttered continuously as she finally got to the front and had a clear view of Syaoran. He looked nervous slightly. But when they locked eyes, he beamed down at her confidently and she smiled back.

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~Syaoran's POV~

Syaoran took in a deep breath-this was it. And at least she was here. Takashi took a step forward and cleared his throat signaling for everyone to pay utmost attention to him.

'Now, now people gather round, gather round. Now I am here to tell you all that Li has an announcement to make. Why you ask? You see our young Li here had made a wager with me, a bet that he could befriend good old Sakura Kinomoto. Now some of you may think this is impossible right? As Li Syaoran is known as the "heartless one" to everyone here.' Takashi paused to see the affect of his words on the many teens standing around him. 'Well in some points he was claimed as that, but then he looked like he was getting rather close to the girl. I think he's turned nice who knows. But all I need to tell you is that he failed to befriend Sakura Kinomoto-'

'-That's not true!' Sakura yelled out for all to hear. 'I am his friend!' she continued loudly.

'Excuse me Sakura, but you claimed that you disliked him.' Takashi said obviously feeling taken aback.

'I did for a while…but he's really sweet, kind and considerate…he is my friend.' Sakura finished and looked up at Syaoran.

Syaoran smiled slightly but knew he must do this-he stepped forwards. 'Everyone I announce that I have failed the bet; I failed in gaining her friendship. I may not of now, but I gained it in an impure way. So therefore results in me losing the bet, I am going to pay Takashi one hundred dollars (A/N: sorry but I don't know yen currency that well O_o I'm sticking with dollars) and also claim something.'

Syaoran walked over to Takashi and drew out one hundred dollars and handed it to Takashi. 'There you have won it; I hope you feel guilty for causing me such pain. It was tremendous pain in trying to gain Sakura's friendship.' Syaoran then turned to face his rather large audience again. 'I wanted to say that learning about friendship was proven very hard for me, but thanks to Sakura I now know a lot about it. Friendship is about trust, loyalty, respect, love and happiness. I do not think that one of those terms was really felt when I was trying to become her friend through a bet. Later on during our so-called friendship, I began to actually love her. Yes Sakura I love you…I do not know what else I can do or say to prove it to you. You may say I am your friend now, but I still feel it's been fraud. That is why I am giving you my diary; no one has ever read it. No one. You are allowed to read every single page if you wish,' Syaoran walked over to Sakura and handed her the box tied up in green lace. 'Read it.'

'I-I…Syaoran I…' Sakura was lost for words.

'But please give me an answer tomorrow if you can truly forgive me, if we can be friends…because any later and it'll be too late…' he trailed off looking into her eyes.

'What do you mean Syaoran?' Sakura was on the verge of tears, everything he was doing and saying was so beautiful.

'What I mean is-Sakura tomorrow I am leaving for Hong Kong. My mother's work is forcing us back there, I am no longer able to stay here in Tomoeda…' he sighed sadly.

'W-what? S-Syaoran, you c-can't leave you just can't…' a few tears shone in her eyes.

'I-I…' he paused, 'Sakura just tell me tomorrow okay? Just remember I love you…' after that he turned and pushed past the crowd and exited through the school gates leaving a flabbergasted Sakura.

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Meiling had said nothing to him on the way home; she was so quiet that it disturbed him. Syaoran sadly trudged upstairs and into his bedroom when he got home. He didn't care if he was hungry; all he cared about was sleep. He was really exhausted, and he absolutely refused to pack his things. When Syaoran opened his bedroom door he noticed that most of his possessions had been packaged into boxes and bags.

'What the-?' Syaoran muttered.

'I did it master Li,' Wei said from behind him.

Syaoran turned around and saw Wei bow to him politely.

'It was Miss Li's orders, as she knew you wouldn't do it yourself…'

'Whatever…' Syaoran closed his bedroom door in his face and threw himself onto his bed and closed his eyes.

So this is my last day here? My last night I spend in this room? I will never see Sakura again? Yelan knew that I would refuse to pack so she got Wei to do it for me…clever witch she is! How can she take something so important away from me? After all the trouble she went to making Sakura try and convert me to nice, what was the point if she's just taking her away from me now? And she wonders why I hate her? The nerve of that woman! Heh I sound so mad to myself…well I have good reasons…I wonder if there is anyway of preventing me of leaving? Syaoran yawned.

He couldn't be bothered contemplating to himself anymore, he turned to his side and drew the covers over him, finally getting some sleep-after all he hadn't slept the previous night…

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~Sakura's POV~

Sakura sat on her bed dissolving into tears. After all they had been through…now he was to leave? This was just a bad dream…

'Why do I always use that excuse? I know it's reality…snap out of it Sakura! He's going…he's going to be gone from my life forever…how can that be? Yelan can't take the one person I love away from me...she just can't…' Sakura sobbed hysterically.

Sakura stared down at the box that lay on her bed. She was afraid of opening it; it held many tales she felt she shouldn't know. But he wished for her to read it…

Sakura took hold of the box and slowly undid the green lace that sealed the box together tightly. She removed the lid and there was his diary… Sakura picked it up and to her surprise it flopped open on her lap as if waiting for her to read it. She glanced at the front cover just t make sure, it read: Xiao Lang's diary.

'Yep it really is it…well here goes nothing…' Sakura turned the page revealing the first line of context written down on the page. Sakura slowly began to reveal his past…

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A/N: Hi, hi guys! Sorry for leaving it there >O I know you're probably gonna call me evil again =p but sadly I think the next chapter will be the last, so I'll try to make it extra long and suspenseful ;)Review please? Thanks guys, love ya all see ya all soon!

Ja ne,

Dani-chan