By Dani-chan
Disclaimer: Okay I shall say this right here and now-I do not own any of the CCS chara's CLAMP © are the wonderful people that do :D
A/N: *cries* Wah! This is my last chapter! *Sniffles* I just wanted to thank each and every single one of you whom reviewed and showed support (and on the rare occasion told me I was going to die in my sleep if I didn't get this chap up soon XD) And well I guess it ends here…I'm not too sure on doing and epilogue (someone requested that ^^o) but I never know =) But if it ends here I hope you enjoy it. And I'll give a much longer Author's note at the end *everyone groans* And sorry for the start of this chapter-but you know Sakura is reading his diary and well…just sorry if you find it a bit monotonous-bleh! You'll understand me ^^;;lol well read on and thanks again! ^.~
Chapter twenty-In his eyes
Monday-Currently finishing off his diary…
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura had read quite a lot of pages from Syaoran's diary, from the beginning of where his woes had started with his mother. She felt extremely sorry for Syaoran now that she had some sort of understanding about why he had become so cold. She had read over his heartbreaking entry of how his mother had hit him. But now Sakura was reading very carefully over the first few entries of when he had first met her…
Dear journal,
Today was very cold, a blizzard at that. I was sent home to walk in that! Mother-always finding petty excuses to not pick me up from school, I had to walk home in it! As I made my way home though, I ran into a girl. She had the most accentuating green eyes I had ever seen. Although I thought she was rather rude and careless-I mean whom does she think she is running into me! I think she should've looked where she was going…anyway as I came home it was finally a place to feel warm in.
Sakura's eyes were filled with many tears. She understood Syaoran's feelings, and why he must've hated her to begin with. But then again she didn't do anything terribly wrong. Sakura turned over a few pages and read a bit more.
Dear Journal,
Yet another frustrating day it was. That girl Kinomoto is such a pain! I think she is out to make me look bad in front of people at school. I mean today I was setting some stupid boy straight and then she comes along and scolds me! Who does she think she is? The way she spoke to me, the way she…looked at me…argh! It's disturbing! She had some sort of power over me I am sure, as I let the boy go…there is something about this girl that maybe more than the eye can see? Or maybe there is the clue? The eye can see? Argh-I am becoming agitated with this crap! Mother makes my life miserable enough as it is, and now I have some girl telling me what to do at school! Now she is even at my own house, damn Meiling bringing her here. I think she is purposely befriending the girl to annoy me…it doesn't seem right to have that girl all of a sudden becoming an acquaintance to Meiling-not at all…and Kinomoto had the nerve to come and bother me outside and say "hello". Hello? What does this girl want? Is she getting a kick out of messing with me? --
'Oh Syaoran I wasn't there to make you look bad at all…' she muttered to herself, she was becoming engrossed with his diary.
Well I took her outside and showed her around…but the worst part is I smiled! Why? I think I was just happy to be outside I guess…but why did she have to see me smile? Argh I must train longer then as punishment for that…
I must go to punish myself now…
Sakura read on until she finally got to the page she had been looking for. The day he had made the bet.
Dear Journal,
I am such a fool! I have made a bet that I know I will surely lose! I am writing this just before I head to school-argh! The bet is starting today…the bet I made was…I am to make friends with the girl Kinomoto. Friends?! That is crazy-no beyond crazy! Me friends with her? But I cannot back out of this bet now…but the thing is I am not entirely sure on how one acts towards a friend…how do you be "nice"? Everyone else seems to know how to be nice to one another-all except me…I feel alone. This is mother's fault! She was the one that insisted that I concentrate on my training…not on anything else-just training…now I do not know how to act upon these predicaments…I am in trouble. But what am I to do? Well I better go-school and torture awaits me…
Sakura sighed. He sounded so alone and very pessimistic. And the way he wrote about her…it wasn't entirely hatred; it seemed like confusion if anything. She was curious as to why he found her eyes so intriguing…
Dear Journal,
I just arrived back home from the Kinomoto residence and I must say her house looks very stunning. Although I am not writing in here to go on and on about her house but simply the matters of what happened today. Today Kinomoto-san and I went to the park down the block…we had a fairly…if you must call it "in-depth" conversation. Some of the lines I cannot erase from my mind are this:
'I have never hated anyone because…I-always give people chances. I do not judge them by appearance or a little mishap, I like to give them time and see what they are really like. I may not "like" them as much as I would like to, but I could never hate anyone. Hate is a powerful emotion and a very abhorrent one at that. I feel people can only hate someone if they have done extremely terrible things-unforgivable things.'
'You know just as much as I do, that that is not true. You do not hate everyone. You know I believe that you possibly hate no one…
Those lines are just…something to ponder on I guess…she had explained it in a very thorough way I guess you could say. I think I was even crying a bit…which is wrong! She makes me feel like a totally different type of person. I-cannot act like myself when I'm around her…it's her eyes! They hold some sort of answer in them! I know I sound weird and psycho or something…but there is something about that girl's eyes!
Sakura wore a smile as she read that last entry. She saw a beginning of weakness to his heart. She knew he was feeling a little compassionate.
Dear Journal,
Today Kinomoto-san announced the invitation to her house. It's this Saturday and I accepted to go. The thing is what gets me is what that girl Chiharu said. Does the whole school have some expectation of me to act like I usually do? It's just the way she said it-it sounded like she expected me to act mean all the time. And she is right; I never do "hang" around girls-well not all the time. I wonder if I have started to gain Sakura's friendship?
Takashi is really beginning to annoy me as well; well I showed him a thing or two. I'm sure I did the right thing, maybe now he will stop pestering me and stop rubbing it in my face that I have a bet to complete…so many things to sort through, and I feel like a wreck. Everything is like scattered files in my brain…. I must sort through them all…
One thing I must confront with myself is my feelings towards my mother. I hate her so…
Yes I hate my mother…because she neglected me. And what gave her the rights to hitting me? I didn't know better I was only six! I don't think I can ever forgive her for that…. she was so angry with me. She knew I was only six and only wanted to play with her…from that day on I never spoke much with her. I think it scared her…that she had lost her son to a simple misunderstanding…
Sakura stopped and took in a breath. This was so exhilarating and suspenseful at the same time.
'So this was the day that I apparently found out about it?' she whispered to herself and began to position herself into a more comfortable position on her bed. She lay down on her stomach and peered down at the page once more…
Dear journal,
She finally found out today…. I feared the day she would. I guess it came a lot more closer then expected too…now what am I to do? She-she hates me now…. well I think so. But it's not like her to hate someone-just like she told me…. She gives people chances…maybe there is still some hope left? But what bothers me so much is "why" do I care? Why did I kiss her before? Just-why? Where are the answers to all these questions? Maybe I love her? But that can't be can it? It'd just be like with mother-losing someone I love. I don't want to lose her-I won't let that happen. I must prove my worth to her I guess-and I have one week to. Otherwise Takashi will really rub it in. But why should I care about a bet? It made me lose an important thing-now I must claim it again. Well either way I'll win. I think I am beginning to fall in love with her, I mean why did I feel sad when I had to leave her house on the weekend? Why did I kiss her again while she was asleep? Urgh! This is so hard for me to contemplate on! All I know is…I'm beginning to miss her eyes, her laugh, her smile, her touch, her scent, and our bond.
Sakura trailed a finger over her lips and closed her eyes remembering the first time they had shared a kiss. A smile spread across her face at the thought. She certainly knew Syaoran wasn't lying to her now…he may have not wanted her friendship to begin with but then began to want it.
Dear diary,
I am at home feeling slightly ill. Ill because I punished myself out in the rain…I deserve to be as sick as a dog quite frankly, but Sakura prevented me from becoming so. She cares for me I see it. I wonder if she loves me too? She didn't turn away from my kiss before…. I just hope I become better soon otherwise I will not be able to drop the bet anytime soon. I love her too much to throw her away or let her slip from me. It's just…it makes me wonder, looking back on our times spent together-she seemed very happy-I seemed very happy. And she has returned a kiss to me before…. I just wonder…. but I shall stop wondering for now…
Dear diary,
Sakura has just told me that part of our friendship was meant in making me turn polite and kind, all because my mother wished for her to do so. That is so cowardice of my mother! Always using others to do her job! I hate her! She had to make me love Sakura, no matter what I do I can never erase her from my heart-it's too hard. I love her with all of my heart, well what's left of it. It appears we have both cheated one another in some way, me with the bet and her with my mother's scheming. How can I ever trust anyone again? I just can't can I? I really hate myself and being here, it hurts so much! Always being the one without love, and now when I feel it it's snatched away from me once more… I guess I'm just not meant to ever be happy…. now I am to hold onto my love for Sakura throughout my entire life knowing that I'll never have her never be with her. I just can't do that! It's too hard. Who's to miss me if I disappear? Maybe I should just disappear…I have no point of being on this planet…. I don't deserve love either…I shouldn't even be aloud to feel love; after all I am the callous one! My love is eternal for Sakura it is, but I am not worthy of her. Mother just used her to get to me that's all! I am now going to be spending my next few hours coming upon a decision of whether I am worthy of even living on this planet anymore,
good bye for now (or forever?)
Syaoran's entries seemed endless to her. Forever having pain and sorrow and love in it. And here was when he wanted to commit suicide…
Sakura turned to the very last entry in his diary, this one made her heart swell with happiness and abundance.
Dear diary,
I have returned home. From hospital. Why was I in there? I had an accident, an accident that could've been avoided. But alas I was injured. Sakura attempted to save me. She actually did you know? I wish I hadn't decided to commit suicide now, I see how foolish it was and regret doing so. Sakura has made me have a different perspective on life. "Forgive and forget". If I had listened to her maybe… Well a car hit me apparently. I survived. How? Sakura saved me. She seems to have magic, as she was the one that healed me. It was her love that healed me. So she does love me? That is nice to know, and the feeling is indeed mutual. Now just to make sure I must drop the bet, I do not care if I have just come out of hospital, I shall go to school tomorrow to drop the bet in front of the entire school if needed. But something feels unfinished…I feel it's not enough to prove anything to Sakura. But how to prove I love her dearly and never will stop loving her? I have decided to let Sakura read this diary. It may be the only way for her to understand everything that I have been through, how I feel for her. Yes it's decided. Tomorrow I shall let her read it all.
Well ja ne,
Syaoran Li (little wolf)
Sakura blinked several times and tried to register in one particular paragraph.
'I have magic? What is he on about? Okay so his healing was a little
anomalous…but how can--? Well it does certainly explain it in a way but.
No, no! What am I on about? Magic is not real it isn't!'' Sakura
debated with herself. She felt slightly frightened at the thought of her
having magic. Sakura glanced down at her hands and stared long and hard.
There was no strange aura this time though…
'Maybe I'll ask Syao-' those last words stopped tumbling out
of her mouth. There was something hurtful about her sentence. It was his
name. She was never going to see him again! He was leaving tomorrow!
Sakura went to close his diary but as she did a page turned over, like as if invisible hands were turning it. She caught one last bit of writing on it, something inscribed in his handwriting.
Sakura remember that I love you with all of my heart and soul and will never stop loving you. As a token of remembrance please keep this diary, as this is my last entry in it. I may be gone from Tomoeda, but I know you'll never leave my heart. I just hope you feel the same way…
Always thinking of you and loving you,
Chibi Okami (Syaoran)
Sakura giggled as a few more tears rolled down her cheeks. She remembered that he didn't like being called "Chibi Okami".
'Syaoran you're not leaving if I can help it…I love you too...' Sakura closed his diary and pressed it close to her chest and closed her eyes…
*
Tuesday-Departure to Hong Kong
~Syaoran's POV~
Syaoran was alone, alone in a black endless void. He stood there
alone. In the far distance he saw her-
'Sakura!' he shouted at the top of his lungs. His voice echoed all
around him loudly. 'Sakura!' he shouted again beginning to run towards
her. She began to come into better focus as he ran after her. Syaoran felt
very weird as he ran, though after all he was bedazzled at how he could
see nothing but the color black-a pitch black. But there was Sakura standing
in the distance. Syaoran ran for what felt like ten minutes until he was
blatantly standing in front of her. 'Sakura?' he repeated. There was no
reply.
He took a closer look at her and saw that she had a hollow look in her eyes. They weren't shining with happiness; they didn't even look friendly-just cold and empty. Sakura had a strange tinted pinkish-purplish aura around her as well.
'Sakura what's wrong?' he took a step forward but she took one back looking frightened at him.
'Shaoran!' she exclaimed as if she had just realized that he was standing there. 'I thought you were gone?' she tilted her head sideways looking perplexed.
'Gone? What are you talking about?' Syaoran asked feeling highly bemused.
'You know…to Hong Kong? You left me alone to suffer…alone-dark and cold,' she shivered. The way she spoke sounded very unenthusiastic and distant, not the usual buoyancy.
'Sakura I didn't leave you, I had no choice. My mother-'
'-Your mother is evil! Do you know what it's like? I have to live here all alone with no one to love me. Nor will I let anyone else love me but you…now you're gone…' she talked as if he weren't really standing next to her.
Syaoran took a step forward and went to place a hand on her shoulder, but Sakura recoiled in fright.
'What's wrong? I'm not going to hurt you.' Syaoran tried to convince her, noticing her eyes still looked very empty.
'You're not real…' she whispered almost sounding inaudible.
'Not real…how? I'm standing here, I'm breathing, I can see you, you can see me-'
'-You cannot touch me.' She finished for him.
'Cannot-what?' If Syaoran had ever claimed feeling confused at a time, this was the most confusing of all.
'You can't touch me psychically…' she said almost sounding like she was taunting him.
'Why do you say that?'
Sakura said nothing and continued to look straight ahead. Syaoran thought she was staring at him, but her gaze on him looked unfocused.
'Your presence makes me cold…' she shivered once more rubbing her arms trying to warm herself up.
Syaoran took one step closer and attempted to embrace her and make her feel warmer but what he got was a shock. His hand went straight through her shoulder!
It was his turn to recoil his hand back. Sakura let out a startled cry.
'What did I tell you? I told you that'd happen! Why did you touch me?!' Sakura almost sounded mad at him, which was hard to believe.
'I-I…' Syaoran stared down at his hands. They seemed perfectly fine, but they had gone through her shoulder. How was that possible!? 'Sorry-I didn't think…'
'Now I'm cold on the inside…' she stared at him unfocusedly again.
'Why are you so cold? And why do you keep looking at me like that? -Sakura?' he tried to gain her attention.
'I'm not looking at you…' she said sounding very robotic.
'But-yes you are! You're looking at me!' Syaoran was beginning to feel very frustrated at her. Why was she acting so-ill defined?
'I'm not…I'm looking ahead…right through you…' she replied in the same droning voice.
'T-through me? What?'
'Didn't I mention that I could see through you?' she raised an eyebrow, all though it was still hard to pinpoint any facial expression.
'Um…no…I do not understand…confide in me please?' he begged wanting answers from her.
'You are simply not Syaoran…the real Syaoran is not see-through. The real Syaoran can touch me, the real Syaoran would not leave me here in this world…' she said once more in that repetitive tone.
'I AM Syaoran! And I didn't leave you-well not yet! I do not leave until…today I think…' he trailed off. It hit him. What day was it? What year was it? Where was he even?
'What is today?' Sakura mused.
'SAKURA WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?' he shouted angrily.
'Please do not yell boy, now excuse me but I am waiting for when Syaoran returns…' and with that Sakura began to walk, but Syaoran stood in front of her trying to prevent her from leaving. This did not work and Sakura ended up walking straight through him.
Sakura shivered once more and turned to face him one last time. 'Good-bye see-through boy…I hope you find what you're searching for…' Sakura then disappeared into thin air as it appeared.
*
Syaoran bolted upright immediately from bed, sweat beading down his forehead. He panted and began to suck in air greedily as if he had run out of it. Syaoran's hands were all clammy and he was shaking slightly in fear of his weird dream. What had that been all about? It was so-scary. Syaoran sighed and ran a hand through his messy brown hair. That had been so real.
'What-was-that all about?' he panted, slowly hopping out of his bed. He dashed into the bathroom and splashed icy cold water onto his face. He seemed a lot more awake now that he had done that. He stared up into the mirror, he could see himself.
'Now, now Syaoran stop being stupid that was just a dream…although it seemed very real…' Syaoran stopped and looked around in the bathroom. Everything had been cleared from its spot and the bathroom was considerably empty. He was to leave today…
The bathroom door opened and revealed a fully-dressed Yelan standing there staring at him oddly.
'Syaoran you may go to school for a short while to bid farewell to your classmates…but be home at eleven thirty, as we are to be at the airport at twelve…' with that she left him to ogle at himself in the mirror glaring angrily…
*
~Sakura's POV~
Sakura rushed around her bedroom quickly trying to find her math textbook. She seemed to have misplaced it, and now wasn't exactly the time for her to be wasting on finding a stupid textbook.
'Hoe! Where is it?!' Sakura upturned books in her shelf, hoping it was there. 'Urgh! I have to hurry Syaoran will be…' she shook her head and continued searching rapidly.
'Looking for something Imoto?' came Touya's voice from outside her bedroom.
Sakura turned around to find her brother enter her bedroom carrying a textbook in his hand.
'Oh! Oniisan where did you find it?' she exclaimed taking it from him appreciatively and shoving it in her bag.
'On the kitchen table…my you seem like you're in quite a hurry this morning…' he raised an eyebrow curiously, wondering why she would move so fast.
'Yes I must get to school as quickly as possible!' she threw her bag over her shoulder and quickly hugged her brother. 'Can you please drop me off to school?' she pleaded giving him the sort of look that a puppy would do when seeking attention.
Touya sighed. 'All right Imoto, all right. Are you ready?'
Sakura nodded vigorously. 'Yes now can we please go?'
'Okay…' he gave her another quizzical look but found he was being ushered out of his room by her and down stairs to the car.
*
Sakura hugged her brother quickly once more and muttered thanks and then hopped out of the car and dashed into the school building.
'SYAORAN? SYAORAN WHERE ARE YOU?' she screamed as she bolted down the corridor in search for him. Many students gawked at her as she ran and repeatedly bellowed out his name.
'Sakura-chan?' Tomoyo popped up around the corner with her camcorder in her hand.
'T-Tomoyo hi! H-have you seen Syaoran?' she said in a croaky voice.
Tomoyo shook her head in a discontented way. 'So he really is leaving for Hong Kong?'
'It appears so…oh I hope he hasn't left yet!' Sakura held back her unshed tears. 'After all he did say for me to give him an answer by today, so that'd mean he'd be here right…?' Sakura hoped Tomoyo somehow had the answers to her questions, but she knew she shouldn't expect that much from her.
'I don't know Sakura-chan…' Tomoyo patted her on the back sympathetically, 'let's go for a walk for a bit shall we? Until class starts?' she suggested noticing how frantic Sakura was looking.
'O-okay Tomoyo…but I really hope Syaoran comes…' she sighed and reluctantly followed after Tomoyo.
*
Sakura stood out on the balcony overlooking the school courtyard. Tomoyo and her stood in silence for a while, as Tomoyo knew that Sakura was looking out for Syaoran to appear through the school gates.
'So…did you read all of Li-kun's diary?' Tomoyo began striking up conversation.
Sakura nodded. 'Yeah it was really depressing and some of it made me smile…' she said wistfully. A slight breeze swirled about, trying to entangle Sakura's hair in a knot, Sakura attempted to flatten her loose hair that flailed about in the breeze.
'Oh I see…so he was telling you the truth then?' Tomoyo focused her camcorder on Sakura's features. Sakura nodded hesitantly. 'Yes I knew I should have just trusted my instincts…' Sakura said contritely.
'Ah but you never could have known…Li is a nice boy at heart isn't he? You never said too much about him to me…'
'Yes he is very nice to me. He softened up I guess, he has a kind heart…my little wolf…' she trailed off softly.
Tomoyo giggled finding all of this very cute. 'I'm sure everything will turn out all right Sakura.'
At the moment Sakura seemed like she had never been happier. Her face widened into a smile.
'Syaoran's here!' she yelped and without hesitation ran down the stairs and began making her way to his locker as she knew that's where he was heading.
'Sakura-wait!' Tomoyo yelled running after her, but made sure she held her camcorder tightly.
Sakura ignored Tomoyo's pleads of slowing down, she didn't want to stop for nothing-she just had to see him and tell him…
'CHIBI OKAMI!' she yelled with a smile apparent on her face. Syaoran saw her running towards him; she had her arms wide open.
Sakura flung herself around him embracing him tightly. 'Shaoran-kun you're here…' she smiled into his chest.
Syaoran held her tightly hugging her back. 'Syaoran I am so sorry…sorry for everything stupid that went on between us. Your absence has made my heart grow fonder for you-Syaoran I realized that I love you!' she said not feeling ashamed anymore.
'So that is your answer?' he smiled looking down at her. Before he could say anything more Sakura had kissed him on the lips. He smiled and wrapped his arms around her and kissed her back.
Tomoyo and the many other viewers stood in awe. Tomoyo giggled making sure that her camcorder recorded all of this.
'So kawaii!' Tomoyo squealed.
Sakura believed that any feeling of doubt that she had felt had vanished as she kissed him. This is how she wanted it to be, her and him forever. Sakura drew away blushing slightly but smiled at him. Syaoran blushed also as he noticed the many people in the corridor hanging around to see the both of them.
'Sakura my love,' he smiled shyly not being familiar at calling her something like that. 'Unfortunately I have bad news though…' Sakura felt her heart sink low, low into the ground.
Please stay, please stay, please stay Syaoran! Sakura pleaded to herself.
'I am leaving…I have too. Yelan is making me, I have to return to Hong Kong and do as she says…I'm so sorry I wish so much to just be with you for eternity but I can't because of Yelan…' Syaoran watched Sakura's beautiful emerald eyes fill with tears.
Sakura bowed her head in silence; she wanted to avoid his eyes right then. She had silently prayed that he was going to announce that he could stay, but apparently that thought was shattered. Sakura sniffed rubbing the tears away from her eyes; still she looked down at the floor.
'Sakura?' Syaoran asked taking her hand. 'I'm so sorry, please don't cry…'
Sakura finally looked up into his amber eyes, her heart felt like someone had clamped it together tightly slowly killing her.
'But I love you…' she murmured letting go of his hand. She backed away slowly, gave one last look at him and then pushed past everyone congregating in the corridor and ran out of the building heading home…
*
'Imoto what are you doing back home?' Touya asked as he saw her run into the house crying, she ran past him and up the stairs into her bedroom.
Sakura slammed her bedroom door shut and slid down to the floor. She wrapped her arms around her legs and held her face close to her body. This was terribly wrong she couldn't stop weeping. What was she to do without him now? Sakura felt a silent hatred towards Yelan right then.
I-I hate her? But I never hate anyone…it's not right to feel that way about someone…maybe this is all just a big misunderstanding and everything will turn out right again? What am I on about? Nothing goes right…when things do something bad happens to ruin the moment…Sakura sniffed and closed her eyes tightly. There was a knock on her bedroom door.
'Sakura-san? Are you all right? What happened?' Touya asked standing outside her bedroom door.
'Nothing-just leave me alone Oniisan…' she chocked out rubbing at her eyes.
'No! Something happened! Is it that boy-Li? What did he do to you!' Touya growled pressing his ear closer to her closed door.
'No no! He did nothing wrong…' she paused. No it was not his fault that he had to go it was her fault. 'I…I found out that he has to return back to Hong Kong…' she finished. There was a silence between brother and sister then. Was it a silence of understanding?
'Sakura-san…I'm sorry that you're upset…'
Sakura moved out of the way and let her brother come into her bedroom. He slid down onto the ground and took a seat next to her wrapping his arm around her. Sakura leant her head into his shoulder and sobbed.
'He meant a lot to me Oniisan…I don't want him to go!' she grabbed onto his jacket and gripped it tightly causing it to crease.
Touya rubbed her back slowly. He had never comforted his sister like this before…
'Sakura-san I'm here for you…' he smiled closing his eyes. It actually felt nice comforting his sister.
Right then the phone rang. Touya jumped a little and let go of Sakura.
'I'll get it!' he jogged downstairs and went to answer the phone. A minute later he came upstairs with the cordless phone. 'It's for you Sakura…' he handed it to her and closed the door behind him.
'Moshi Moshi! Kinomoto Sakura speaking.' She said shakily.
'Sakura-chan it's Meiling!'
'M-Meiling?' Sakura said bemusedly.
'Yeah-look please I beg of you come down to the airport ASAP! Our plane shall be boarding within the hour or so…please hurry!' Meiling begged.
'Sure thing! I'll see you soon! Ja ne Meiling-chan!' Sakura quickly hung up the phone and then pulled herself up to her feet. 'Oniisan quick we must go to the airport!' she exclaimed running downstairs…
*
~Syaoran's POV~
After seeing Sakura run away in despair Syaoran had just gone home as well. Now Syaoran was at the airport, he had bid farewell to his home that he had grown fond of, to Tomoyo, Ryo and even Takashi. Syaoran felt so alone. He hated the way Sakura had looked at him with her eyes, so empty…just like in his dream.
'Syaoran?' Meiling came and took a seat next to him. Syaoran was sitting alone in the over-crowded room full of people waiting to board the plane-he was at the terminus. Syaoran sighed and looked up to face his cousin.
'Yeah…?'
'I'm sorry…sorry about you and Sakura…' Meiling sounded remorseful.
'It's okay…' he replied and then continued to look down at the carpet. He fixated his interest in the obscure patterns on the carpet and attempted to ignore Meiling now.
'Syaoran, Sakura's coming here you know?' Meiling added taking note that he was trying to ignore as he usually did when he was down.
Syaoran raised his head up quickly and looked at her with mild interest. 'Are you serious?'
'Yes, I rang her and told her to come.' Meiling winked and then left Syaoran alone walking over to her aunt.
Syaoran also got up and wandered over to the window to glance at all the airplanes. Syaoran glanced back at his vague reflection on the window. He looked empty-soulless.
'Sakura are you really coming?' he muttered in an undertone. 'Even if it's to bid farewell I wish to see your beautiful face once more…' Syaoran pressed his face to the glass and closed his eyes for a few seconds. He opened them and stared up into the everlasting blue sky. He would soon be up there, flying away from Tomoeda, away from her.
'Syaoran are you ready?' Syaoran focused his gaze behind him and saw his mother's reflection standing behind him.
'No…I never have and never will be.' He replied refusing to look at her.
'Son look I'm sorry-'
'-Don't you EVER call me son you hear me? You have absolutely no right to claim me as your son!' Syaoran growled. He knew he was sounding disrespectful but he no longer cared for that.
Yelan sighed. 'I am sorry Syaoran really! But we have no choice we have to move.'
'Who's this we? I'm certainly not for it!' Syaoran spat and glared at her reflection behind him.
Yelan placed a hand on his shoulder to try and comfort him. Syaoran ripped her hand away from his shoulder and gave her a scathing look.
'Don't touch me-ever!' he snarled. If he had sharp teeth to bare he would've done so. Syaoran was exceptionally mad at her.
Yelan sighed and turned and left him alone. 'Ten minutes and we board…' she said audible enough for him to hear.
Syaoran took a deep breath trying to calm himself. Nothing seemed to be working; the only think that kept him hopeful was Sakura. Syaoran turned from the window and went and sat back down at his seat that he had occupied beforehand.
He stared out into the crowd gauzily looking out for Sakura. He had complete faith that she would be here, he knew she would come-she just had too! He gripped onto the armrest tightly in anticipation and anxiety and grinded his teeth. One eye kept a close watch on the clock on the wall. 12:53. They were to board the plane at 1:00. Syaoran didn't know why his mother had persisted for them to be at the airport at 12:00 as they had been hanging around here for practically an hour!
'Sakura…' her name escaped his lips without him even being aware.
Syaoran suddenly snapped out of his trance. Was he seeing things? No he couldn't be! There she was jogging around the room looking for him. Syaoran bolted up from his chair and stood there trying to stand out from afar. She didn't seem to have noticed him yet.
'SAKURA!' he cupped his hand around his mouth to try and make his voice carry out farther.
Sakura seemed to have heard his cry as she stood there looking dumbfounded for a second.
'HOE?! SYAORAN-KUN!' she darted through all the people and made her way to him.
Time seemed to slow down tremendously as Sakura ran towards him. Everything seemed to be going so slow, he just wished for Sakura to hurry and make it over to him. Syaoran outstretched his hand hoping this would make time hurry up.
Sakura finally made it over to him and clasped her hand in his hand, he pulled her in to him and she immediately wrapped her arms around him tightly. 'Syao-ran-I-thought-I'd-already-missed-your-plane!' she panted heavily obviously out of breath.
'Not yet,' he glanced up at the time: 12:57. 'By one I'm leaving…'
Sakura sobbed uncontrollably into his shirt at hearing that. 'Oh Syaoran please don't leave me don't go!' she wailed clutching onto him tighter.
'I don't want to Sakura. I want to stay with you…but I can't…Yelan is forcing me to go.' Sakura noticed how he referred to his mother by her first name avoiding calling her his mother.
'I want you to know how sorry I am for every single thing that I did to hurt you, I never intended to I swear!' she sobbed looking into his amber eyes once more.
'I know that now Sakura and I am sorry too. I'll never forget you…' he held back his tears; he had to be strong at a time like this. Cry later Syaoran, he told himself mentally.
'Nor will I forget you my Little Wolf, never. Forever shall you reside in my heart, my heart is only for you and no one else I am certain of that.' She kissed him on the cheek and held his had giving an affectionate squeeze. 'We shall meet again right?'
'Of course,' he blushed and held her tighter pressing her against his body. He kissed her forehead and breathed in her scent one last time.
'Would flight 105 please board now? Departure from Tomoeda-to Hong Kong. I repeat Departure from Tomoeda to Hong Kong. Please board now.' the voice on the receiver echoed loudly around the room.
Yelan walked over to the couple then and cleared her throat. 'Syaoran it's time to board…'
Syaoran felt Sakura's grip on him loosen a little at hearing Yelan's penetrating voice. Syaoran closed his eyes and then turned to face his mother. This was it.
'No.' he said sharply.
'I beg your pardon?' Yelan said cynically giving a disgusted look.
'You heard me. No. I refuse to leave! I am staying with Sakura!' Syaoran said firmly not letting go of Sakura.
Yelan smiled at that. 'Ah congratulations Syaoran on finally understanding what love is. I knew you would fall in love with her if given enough time…but sadly we must leave.' She sighed.
Syaoran blinked. 'Well you know what? I know all about your little "Deal" with Sakura. You know "turn me nice"? Tell me mother what was the point of it!?' he stared at his so-called mother hardly. 'Tell me do you still wish for me to be callous?'
Sakura clung onto him tighter and sobbed. He drew her closer but continued his focus on his mother.
Yelan looked at a loss for words. What was she to say? He was indeed right-what was the whole point of that if the outcome was this now?
'I refuse to leave.' Syaoran repeated more firmly then before, making sure that his Mom got the picture. Syaoran smiled slightly. An idea formulated in his mind right then. 'Oh Mom…if you want me to forgive you then you must let me remain here with Sakura.' He grinned. He knew he had her there. What his mother had always wanted. Forgiveness.
It looked like Yelan was contemplating hard on this deal. 'You will forgive my doings in the past and love me again?'
Syaoran was certain he had her there. 'I'll forgive you and work on loving you as much as before…' he felt repulsed on the inside, but if this was what it took to remain with Sakura then he would do it.
'I-I…Syaoran you know how long I have been waiting for you to say that to me?' her voice shook slightly.
'Please board now…' the woman's voice droned on the speakers once more.
Yelan ignored this statement and continued to stare at her son. 'I…don't know what to do…maybe I can compromise with my work and fit in a better schedule that involved in working here still…' Yelan bit her lip and glanced up at the clock.
'Well Mom?' Syaoran asked noticing that she looked very vulnerable at this point. 'Am I boarding the plane or staying? I can guarantee you that I will never speak with you again if you take Sakura away from me!'
'We'll…' Yelan stopped and glanced over to the gate. Meiling was waiting there but noticed the hesitant look on her aunt's face and ran over to her.
'Aunt what's going on? Hurry up otherwise we'll miss the flight!' Meiling tugged on her aunt's sleeve.
'Meiling I have decided…we're staying…' Yelan sighed in defeat. She had always wanted her son to forgive her and she did know that Syaoran would indeed loathe her if she took Sakura away from him.
'We're-we're WHAT? REALLY?' she squealed in delight!
'I'm sure I can arrange something…' Yelan muttered. 'Meiling go see if we can collect our luggage quickly!' Yelan ordered. Meiling bowed and dashed off.
Sakura drew away from Syaoran and clasped her hand in his. She smiled up at him. They were to be together…
'Sakura?' Yelan interrupted her happy thoughts.
'Y-yes?' Sakura asked politely.
'Do you know that you have magic? I do not know if Syaoran has told you…'
'Yeah Syaoran did write something but-I do not understand fully…' Sakura was very interested in this topic.
'Sakura you helped Syaoran heal with the power of love before…' Yelan continued, glancing up at the clock quickly.
'Magic-power of love? What…? Hoe?' she blinked perplexedly.
'Sakura all you need to know is that you have some mysterious magic running through your veins,' Syaoran added in.
'Can we discuss this another time please?' Sakura asked, 'as I would like to acclaim Syaoran staying!' she giggled hugging Syaoran again.
Syaoran smiled and grabbed her hand. 'Let's go for a walk shall we?' he suggested, wanting to get away from his mother.
'All right,' she said in her usual optimistic tone.
Syaoran for the first time smiled at his mother. She had done the right thing, now maybe they could all get on with their lives happily? Well Syaoran would do his best to approve of his mother from now on. And now Syaoran had Sakura to support him, everything seemed great now…
Yelan smiled back and waved a hand as if encouraging for her son to go for a walk with Sakura.
Everything is finally right now…Sakura…my Mom…this is how I wanted it to be… Syaoran grinned as he walked down the corridor with Sakura leading her to the front of the airport.
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~Sakura and Syaoran's POV~
'Ah Syaoran so finally we're together huh?' Sakura giggled care freely sitting on his lap on his balcony at home. She leant her head into his chest and didn't hesitate to sigh in relief.
'Yes my Cherry Blossom…' he grinned. Syaoran stared up into the sky. It was a beautiful mixture between pink and purple. They were watching the sunset together as Sakura had suggested they do so.
'Isn't it beautiful? It just brings a sudden feeling of peace to your heart as you watch it…' Sakura giggled entwining her hand around his playfully.
'You know what else is beautiful? You are…I love you Sakura…' he smiled down at her. He leant down and planted a kiss on her lips. If anyone were to watch them they would've seen a strange green and pink aura merge together around the two. They stayed like that for a while; just sitting together watching the sunset for they finally knew they were together at last…
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A/N: OMG!! It's finally finished T_T I cannot believe it! Wah I'm so sad ;_; But I'm SO happy S+S are together =) wow that was the longest chapter I have EVER written, as I felt I needed to go more in-depth and make it extra long. ^_^ Well I have thoroughly enjoyed writing this story and forever shall it reside in my heart *glomps it* I just wanted to thank you all for your support again =) and hope you enjoyed reading it! Well if you wish to keep in contact with me and find out about my new ideas for another S+S story *chuckles evily* then E-mail me at: Sakura_dani@hotmail.com ^_^ or if you just wish to talk with me ^.~ Well I hope to see you all soon sometime! Love ya all and thanks again! *hugs* Ja ne, Love Dani-chan
