I know that this chapter has taken a while. It's been done for quite some time now, it's just that I've had family staying with me for about 3 weeks, and they aren't too keen on the yaoi thing...so I just decided it was better to just wait...so here it is, have fun!

Story: Lifebonds

Author: Unaspirality

Chapter II

Disclaimer: I do not own Weiss Kreuz, or the characters. I am a poor cashier...I have nothing to offer you, except the clothes I have on...well...and the clothes in my dryer...but that's not the point...

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I can remember when I first met Ken. Something struck me about him, something I was drawn to. The first thing that I noticed was his hair. It was cut just like hers. Not only that, Ken was beautiful.

We had a couple drinks that night, and just got to know each other. I told him my life story, I told him all about Asuka.

I fell for him instantly. He made me want to get out of my self-destructive pattern. Ken hadn't been with very many people; he was still rather young and inexperienced. But that didn't matter to me. I made a pass at him. He looked like a deer caught in headlights. My guess was that he had never been with a man, or even thought about it. He turned me down. Imagine that. Inexperienced Ken, turning down the sex god, that is me. Wow. I was angry. I wanted him bad! But despite my anger, we became the best of friends.

Over the next few months, my passion for him only grew, and it was hard. We spent most all our time together. Ken was my absolute best friend. He knew everything there was to know about me, some things I would never tell anyone else. He seemed to be warming up to me, but nothing ever happened. We often had dinner together, or saw a movie on our nights off-you know-date like things. But never once, did anything ever happen.

Then one day, (almost two years later) Ken asked me out to dinner. The way he asked did not indicate that it was a date. However, it sure seemed like one. We had a candle lit dinner for two on the balcony of a restaurant. If that wasn't a hint, then him paying for both our meals might have tipped me off. However, it was his finishing touch that was unmistakable. He kissed me. Hidaka Ken kissed me.

Then I just stared at him. I searched his eyes for a few minutes just trying to sort it all out. I was confused, yet at the same time; I wanted to cry out from the pain in my heart. I had longed for him and this moment for so long. It seemed unreal. I took him into my arms, and kissed him with all the want and need that I possessed, then pulled him into my room. I then showed Ken what it was like to love a man.

I only regret that I was not gentle. It was his very first time with a man, and my first time in a long while. I had desired Ken for so long, that I was unable to take it slow like I should have. Poor Ken. He never once complained, but I could tell that he was in pain, most certainly when morning rolled around.

After that night, we became quite the couple. We spent every moment of out days and nights together. We were so cute, that it was sickening. I was in love, no denying that. I lived to be in his embrace. He's intoxicating. I don't know what I'd do without him. Life would be unbearable, if not impossible.

It's difficult to believe that just over two years ago, I was a mess. I had just lost her, and I didn't know what to do. She had been the love of my life. I knew she was. It was like, somehow, our lives were bonded-forever joined. So you'd think that if one of us died, the other would go shortly after. But somehow, I hung on.

But then I met Ken, and it was like being reborn. He awakened me, and refueled my body. It was like the part of me that died, just suddenly was there again. It was amazing.

There's just something about Ken that screams her name. Yet, Ken is a very different person. I love him, because he's Ken, not because he reminds me of my lost love. I've somehow, re-bonded to him. I know it's hard to believe, I thought great loves only came around once. That's why they call them the 'love of your life', right? I didn't think if was possible to have two great loves. I have been fortunate. Yes, I did loose my first love, but I've found another that's just as great. Life is amazing.

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Well, I don't know if I'm going to continue this or not...I don't think I like this story very much...I honestly don't think it's a very good piece, considering my others recently...

Anyway...I've been writing for over a year maybe two now...and I've finally decided that I need to get me a beta-reader...so...if you'd like the job...just ask, and we'll see what happens. I do need someone that can do the job fairly quickly...so keep that in mind. Thanks for reading!!

My e-mail is ashely.mcclellan@connectseward.org

~Unaspirality