A/N: Hello again all!!!!!!!! Just letting you know, we are skipping ahead a LONG
time
because you all want Sirius back so much… Oh well, I was having a hard time
with….
Hehe, not saying! Here ya go!
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Harry groaned and rolled over. He had been feeling worse and worse as the days
progressed the past three weeks. His mother had tried her best to get him to
feel better, but nothing had worked. He had no clue where his father was, and
quite frankly he didn't care. He had made it very clear that he wanted nothing
to do with his son.
"Here Harry," Lily said, coming into his room. "Drink this, it might help you
feel better."
"You mean like the rest have?" Harry grumbled, but took the goblet from his
mother. He sniffed it and stuck up his nose. "What is this?"
His mother smiled. "Don't ask."
Harry drank the disgusting potion and handed the goblet back to his mother.
"Where's dad?" he asked after a couple moments of silence.
"He's busy."
"Too busy to check on me?"
His mother was silent.
"I thought so."
"Get some sleep Harry. You need to rest." His mother left the room.
"No," he whispered. "What I need is Sirius." Harry lay, staring at the wall for
a long time before finally drifting off to sleep.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
(Harry's dream)
Harry stood outside a magnificent castle. Not as big as Hogwarts, but still
marvelous.
"Wow," he whispered. "Where am I?"
"Welcome to my home, Mr. Harry J. Potter."
Harry spun around only to find nothing there. "Who's there?"
"I'm right here."
Harry turned around to find that the voice belonged to a beautiful woman.
"Who are you? How do you know my name? What am I doing her…"
"One question at a time young one." She said with a smile. "Let me introduce
myself. My name is Victoria. Victoria Marie Dumbledore.
~*~ *~ ~*~
"Sirius, let's go get something to eat…"
"No."
"Come on, Padfoot, I can count on one finger how many times you've been out of
this room. It's been three months, Sir. Three months. Nothing will change if you
go get something to eat for a few minutes. Come on…"
"No."
"Would Harry want you o sit around and mope or would he want you to take care of
yourself?"
"Why don't you ask him, Remus? Oh, wait, I forgot, YOU CAN'T!!!"
"Sirius, don't start…"
"I'm not leaving, Remus! And who are you to say what Harry would want or not
want? YOU didn't bother to find time to be in his life…"
"Sirius! We've gone over this a thousan…"
"Yah, yah, I know. The ministry wouldn't let you have him. But what about
visiting him? And what about after his third year? He knew you! You could have
easily gone and seen him, check up on him, but you didn't."
Remus was silent. Sirius was right. He hadn't bothered to visit Harry. Sure, he
had thought about it once or twice, and he had tried to write him a letter… But
none of the letters had been sent and he had always been 'too busy' to go see
him…
"You're right, Sir. I'm sorry."
"Don't tell me your sorry, tell Harry."
For the first time, Sirius actually left Harry's side without being forced to.
He motioned towards him and sat down in the chair across the room.
Remus moved and sat down on the chair next to Harry's bed. He gently held his
hand and just stared at the boy laying in front of him.
"I'm so sorry, Harry." He whispered. "I'm sorry I never came to see you. I'm
sorry I never wrote. I meant to… But I couldn't… I know that sounds pretty lame…
And it is. I just thought… Every time I tired to write, tried to visit you,
there was that voice inside my head that told me you wouldn't want me there.
That you wouldn't want to hear from your ex-professor who is a werewolf. But I
was wrong… Or, at least I think I was wrong, judging from what I've heard from
Padfoot. I'm sorry Harry. I meant to be part of your life, but I was scared. I
just hope you can forgive me, someday. And if you can't, then I'll understand…"
Remus took a deep breath. "Please Harry, you have to get better. I don't know
what Sirius will do If he loses you… I don't know what I would do… We're both
here, Harry. We're both waiting for you to come back." Remus leaned over and
gently ran his hand through Harry's hair. He felt Sirius' hand on his shoulder,
an indication that his time with Harry was up, but he ignored it. At least,
until Sirius gave up…
"Sirius! Get off me!!"
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Harry stared at the woman standing in front of his. "What?"
Victoria smiled. " I bet you didn't know that Albus Dumbledore had a daughter,
or was even married at one time, did you?"
Harry shook his head.
"My mother and I were killed by Voldemort when your parents were in their 7th
year at Hogwarts. I've been here ever since, watching over young witches and
wizards, helping them make the right decision. Although it is rare that I
actually bring one here, so you should be honored."
"If you help people make the right decision, then why am I here?"
"Because, Harry, you have a very important decision to make."
"Decision? But I'm dead… What could be that important?"
"Ah, Mr. Potter, that is where you are wrong. You are not dead. Yet."
"What? But my mother said…"
"Your mother does not know that you are indeed alive. Although I would guess
that she might be suspecting something by now. You see, Harry, once you are,
erm, dead, you can never be hurt again. You can never get sick either… And you
have been pretty sick over the past few weeks, am I right?"
Harry nodded.
"Do you remember what happened before you came here?"
Suddenly Harry remembered everything that had happened. His uncle… The beatings…
The car…
"Harry?"
Harry looked up. "Yah," he said quietly. "I remember."
"You're not dead yet Harry. But you have a choice to make."
"What choice?"
"A choice between life and death. And, as it seems, between your parents and
your godfather."
"WHAT?"
"Come with me, Harry. I have a few things to show you."
Suddenly Harry was engulfed in a cloud of smoke. When the smoke cleared, he
gasped in shock.
(shall I stop? Nah, I still got school time to type!)
There in front of him, was his mother… And him.
"Harry," Victoria said. "This is what your life is like here. Your mother loves
you, Harry. And I know you love her. If you chose to stay with her, you'll get
better. You'll never be sick or in pain again. You'll be with your parents
again. Isn't that what you always wanted?"
Harry nodded his head. He had always wanted to be with his parents again. He sat
there, watching his mother for a few hours, watching her gently smooth his hair
and whisper soothing words to him, telling him how much she loved him. He saw
his father come in and sit next to him, holding his hand.
"I thought he didn't want anything to do with me?"
"No, Harry. He was scared. I'm guessing that he felt and somehow knew you
weren't dead and tried to pull away from you, to make it easier on him and on
you…"
Harry just sat there. Why would his father do that? Didn't he know how much he
had hurt him?
"Come on, Harry. We have one more place to go."
Harry was once again surrounded by smoke. He had a feeling he knew where he was
going.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Sure enough, when the smoke cleared, Harry was in his room at the hospital.
"Sirius." He whispered.
"You can choose to go back to this life Harry." Victoria said quietly. "But I
must warn you, it will be full of pain. You will not recover fully. It will be
hard, and you'll want to give up. But you can't. If you choose this life, you
will not see your parents again for a very long time…"
"What if I chose to be with my parents? When will I see Sirius again?"
"You will see him in time, I promise."
Harry watched as Sirius sat next to him on his bed and gently pulled him up and
laid him against him.
"Harry," he whispered. "Please get better, Buddy. I need you. Please come back.
I love you Harry…"
He watched as Remus Lupin, his ex-professor came in with a hot bowl of what
looked like chicken noodle soup and offer it to Sirius.
"Sirius, you need to eat."
"No."
"Come on, Sir, you haven't eaten in 3 days. Starving yourself won't make harry
wake up…"
"I'm not hungry."
Remus sighed and put the bowl of soup down and came back over and sat on the
side of the bed. "You have to get better, Harry." He whispered, stroking Harry's
hair. "We need you. The doctors said that if you don't get better soon, then
there's no hope. Please Harry, wake up."
Harry felt the tears streaming down his cheeks. "I thought they didn't need me."
He whispered. No one had ever told him that he was needed, other than to be the
Boy-Who-Lived, but he had heard it twice in the last few minutes. And both times
it was from the two people he cared about more than anything. He turned to
Victoria.
"What happens if I chose to be with Sirius?"
"You'll leave the earth permanently, you won't be able to come back. Although I
can tell Sirius and Remus of your choice if you wish."
"What if I chose Sirius?"
"Then you'll come back to earth, you'll be able to be with your parents again
though. You'll feel a lot of pain, I'm warning you Harry. It won't be an easy
ride the rest of your life; you'll never be fully recovered. You'll have to
deal with the trial of your uncle also."
Harry sat and thought about it for a while. He remembered his mother's voice,
telling him how much she loved him, His father finally able to be with him. He
saw Sirius and Remus sitting there, holding him. Willing him to et better. He
heard Sirius tell him how much he loved him, Remus tell him how much he needed
him.
"I know what I want," he said quietly.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
A/N: My longest chapter ever!!!!! And, of course, it has to be a cliffy!!!!
Hehe. The story is not over, don't worry. It will either have one chapter left,
if Harry chooses his parents, but a whole lot left if he chooses Sirius. Don't
tell me what to do though; I already know where it's going! Lol. Hey, think of
it this way, you finally got a big chapter!!!! Yea for me!!!!
Thanks for all you wonderful people who reviewed, my hands hurt so I won't
review to you all personally.
KaceyRat
Ps- I told you Siri would be back!
time
because you all want Sirius back so much… Oh well, I was having a hard time
with….
Hehe, not saying! Here ya go!
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Harry groaned and rolled over. He had been feeling worse and worse as the days
progressed the past three weeks. His mother had tried her best to get him to
feel better, but nothing had worked. He had no clue where his father was, and
quite frankly he didn't care. He had made it very clear that he wanted nothing
to do with his son.
"Here Harry," Lily said, coming into his room. "Drink this, it might help you
feel better."
"You mean like the rest have?" Harry grumbled, but took the goblet from his
mother. He sniffed it and stuck up his nose. "What is this?"
His mother smiled. "Don't ask."
Harry drank the disgusting potion and handed the goblet back to his mother.
"Where's dad?" he asked after a couple moments of silence.
"He's busy."
"Too busy to check on me?"
His mother was silent.
"I thought so."
"Get some sleep Harry. You need to rest." His mother left the room.
"No," he whispered. "What I need is Sirius." Harry lay, staring at the wall for
a long time before finally drifting off to sleep.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
(Harry's dream)
Harry stood outside a magnificent castle. Not as big as Hogwarts, but still
marvelous.
"Wow," he whispered. "Where am I?"
"Welcome to my home, Mr. Harry J. Potter."
Harry spun around only to find nothing there. "Who's there?"
"I'm right here."
Harry turned around to find that the voice belonged to a beautiful woman.
"Who are you? How do you know my name? What am I doing her…"
"One question at a time young one." She said with a smile. "Let me introduce
myself. My name is Victoria. Victoria Marie Dumbledore.
~*~ *~ ~*~
"Sirius, let's go get something to eat…"
"No."
"Come on, Padfoot, I can count on one finger how many times you've been out of
this room. It's been three months, Sir. Three months. Nothing will change if you
go get something to eat for a few minutes. Come on…"
"No."
"Would Harry want you o sit around and mope or would he want you to take care of
yourself?"
"Why don't you ask him, Remus? Oh, wait, I forgot, YOU CAN'T!!!"
"Sirius, don't start…"
"I'm not leaving, Remus! And who are you to say what Harry would want or not
want? YOU didn't bother to find time to be in his life…"
"Sirius! We've gone over this a thousan…"
"Yah, yah, I know. The ministry wouldn't let you have him. But what about
visiting him? And what about after his third year? He knew you! You could have
easily gone and seen him, check up on him, but you didn't."
Remus was silent. Sirius was right. He hadn't bothered to visit Harry. Sure, he
had thought about it once or twice, and he had tried to write him a letter… But
none of the letters had been sent and he had always been 'too busy' to go see
him…
"You're right, Sir. I'm sorry."
"Don't tell me your sorry, tell Harry."
For the first time, Sirius actually left Harry's side without being forced to.
He motioned towards him and sat down in the chair across the room.
Remus moved and sat down on the chair next to Harry's bed. He gently held his
hand and just stared at the boy laying in front of him.
"I'm so sorry, Harry." He whispered. "I'm sorry I never came to see you. I'm
sorry I never wrote. I meant to… But I couldn't… I know that sounds pretty lame…
And it is. I just thought… Every time I tired to write, tried to visit you,
there was that voice inside my head that told me you wouldn't want me there.
That you wouldn't want to hear from your ex-professor who is a werewolf. But I
was wrong… Or, at least I think I was wrong, judging from what I've heard from
Padfoot. I'm sorry Harry. I meant to be part of your life, but I was scared. I
just hope you can forgive me, someday. And if you can't, then I'll understand…"
Remus took a deep breath. "Please Harry, you have to get better. I don't know
what Sirius will do If he loses you… I don't know what I would do… We're both
here, Harry. We're both waiting for you to come back." Remus leaned over and
gently ran his hand through Harry's hair. He felt Sirius' hand on his shoulder,
an indication that his time with Harry was up, but he ignored it. At least,
until Sirius gave up…
"Sirius! Get off me!!"
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Harry stared at the woman standing in front of his. "What?"
Victoria smiled. " I bet you didn't know that Albus Dumbledore had a daughter,
or was even married at one time, did you?"
Harry shook his head.
"My mother and I were killed by Voldemort when your parents were in their 7th
year at Hogwarts. I've been here ever since, watching over young witches and
wizards, helping them make the right decision. Although it is rare that I
actually bring one here, so you should be honored."
"If you help people make the right decision, then why am I here?"
"Because, Harry, you have a very important decision to make."
"Decision? But I'm dead… What could be that important?"
"Ah, Mr. Potter, that is where you are wrong. You are not dead. Yet."
"What? But my mother said…"
"Your mother does not know that you are indeed alive. Although I would guess
that she might be suspecting something by now. You see, Harry, once you are,
erm, dead, you can never be hurt again. You can never get sick either… And you
have been pretty sick over the past few weeks, am I right?"
Harry nodded.
"Do you remember what happened before you came here?"
Suddenly Harry remembered everything that had happened. His uncle… The beatings…
The car…
"Harry?"
Harry looked up. "Yah," he said quietly. "I remember."
"You're not dead yet Harry. But you have a choice to make."
"What choice?"
"A choice between life and death. And, as it seems, between your parents and
your godfather."
"WHAT?"
"Come with me, Harry. I have a few things to show you."
Suddenly Harry was engulfed in a cloud of smoke. When the smoke cleared, he
gasped in shock.
(shall I stop? Nah, I still got school time to type!)
There in front of him, was his mother… And him.
"Harry," Victoria said. "This is what your life is like here. Your mother loves
you, Harry. And I know you love her. If you chose to stay with her, you'll get
better. You'll never be sick or in pain again. You'll be with your parents
again. Isn't that what you always wanted?"
Harry nodded his head. He had always wanted to be with his parents again. He sat
there, watching his mother for a few hours, watching her gently smooth his hair
and whisper soothing words to him, telling him how much she loved him. He saw
his father come in and sit next to him, holding his hand.
"I thought he didn't want anything to do with me?"
"No, Harry. He was scared. I'm guessing that he felt and somehow knew you
weren't dead and tried to pull away from you, to make it easier on him and on
you…"
Harry just sat there. Why would his father do that? Didn't he know how much he
had hurt him?
"Come on, Harry. We have one more place to go."
Harry was once again surrounded by smoke. He had a feeling he knew where he was
going.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
Sure enough, when the smoke cleared, Harry was in his room at the hospital.
"Sirius." He whispered.
"You can choose to go back to this life Harry." Victoria said quietly. "But I
must warn you, it will be full of pain. You will not recover fully. It will be
hard, and you'll want to give up. But you can't. If you choose this life, you
will not see your parents again for a very long time…"
"What if I chose to be with my parents? When will I see Sirius again?"
"You will see him in time, I promise."
Harry watched as Sirius sat next to him on his bed and gently pulled him up and
laid him against him.
"Harry," he whispered. "Please get better, Buddy. I need you. Please come back.
I love you Harry…"
He watched as Remus Lupin, his ex-professor came in with a hot bowl of what
looked like chicken noodle soup and offer it to Sirius.
"Sirius, you need to eat."
"No."
"Come on, Sir, you haven't eaten in 3 days. Starving yourself won't make harry
wake up…"
"I'm not hungry."
Remus sighed and put the bowl of soup down and came back over and sat on the
side of the bed. "You have to get better, Harry." He whispered, stroking Harry's
hair. "We need you. The doctors said that if you don't get better soon, then
there's no hope. Please Harry, wake up."
Harry felt the tears streaming down his cheeks. "I thought they didn't need me."
He whispered. No one had ever told him that he was needed, other than to be the
Boy-Who-Lived, but he had heard it twice in the last few minutes. And both times
it was from the two people he cared about more than anything. He turned to
Victoria.
"What happens if I chose to be with Sirius?"
"You'll leave the earth permanently, you won't be able to come back. Although I
can tell Sirius and Remus of your choice if you wish."
"What if I chose Sirius?"
"Then you'll come back to earth, you'll be able to be with your parents again
though. You'll feel a lot of pain, I'm warning you Harry. It won't be an easy
ride the rest of your life; you'll never be fully recovered. You'll have to
deal with the trial of your uncle also."
Harry sat and thought about it for a while. He remembered his mother's voice,
telling him how much she loved him, His father finally able to be with him. He
saw Sirius and Remus sitting there, holding him. Willing him to et better. He
heard Sirius tell him how much he loved him, Remus tell him how much he needed
him.
"I know what I want," he said quietly.
~*~ ~*~ ~*~
A/N: My longest chapter ever!!!!! And, of course, it has to be a cliffy!!!!
Hehe. The story is not over, don't worry. It will either have one chapter left,
if Harry chooses his parents, but a whole lot left if he chooses Sirius. Don't
tell me what to do though; I already know where it's going! Lol. Hey, think of
it this way, you finally got a big chapter!!!! Yea for me!!!!
Thanks for all you wonderful people who reviewed, my hands hurt so I won't
review to you all personally.
KaceyRat
Ps- I told you Siri would be back!
