Chapter 9: Cannot Be Together
~Justine's POV
It was an hour before the ball and all the girls were already ready. I took a quick shower and slipped into my gown. It was really uncomfortable. My cousin had a hair fairy come over to help me with my hair.
I walked with to Ron, Harry, and Hermoine down the grand staircase. Hermionie and Ron were going together and Harry was going with Cho.
I disagreed with Harry going with Cho. I kept my opinion to myself though. If Harry was happy I was happy for him. I'm willing to bet Cho breaks his heart soo. She soo.I don't know how to explain her.
I stopped in the middle of the staircase. Draco was standing at the bottom. My God he was hot. He didn't gel back his hair so if fell loosely over his eyes. He really did look like a prince.
Ron and Hermionie left together.
"Err.Justine Cho's waiting for me. Do you-"
"Go ahead"
"You sure? I mean-"
"Yeah, go have fun"
"Alright"
I looked back to where Draco was standing but he wasn't there anymore.
A soft voice reached my ear.
"You look radiant," Draco whispered.
His head was right next to mine. I turned to face him and we kissed.
He took my hand in his and we walked into the great hall together.
The hall looked exquisite. There were snowflakes falling from the ceiling. Christmas trees were everywhere. Light fairies flew from tree to tree, do those things ever settle down?
The only thing that really bothered me though were the people that kept whispering things like 'a Gryffindor and Slythren?' and 'It doesn't make sense.' I tried to ignore them so I kept my head high and proud as we walked onto the dance floor together hand in hand still.
He glided me gracefully around the floor while others stared. Look of envy crossed over some girls' faces. I saw Asia smile brightly in approval while her husband winked. Ron was red in the face from anger I suspect. Hermionie and Harry's mouths were hanging wide open.
When I saw Pansy's face I almost laughed out loud. She had a mixture of hatred and shock on her face. That look was priceless.
When the dance ended Draco smiled at me uncomfortably. I smile back weakly.
Maybe it was a bad idea for us to come together. Everyone looked either shocked, angry, upset, or venomous. Only three people looked like they didn't care and though it was a good idea: Asia, Kouji, and Dumbledore.
When the ball ended Draco said we needed to talk. I agreed and we went to Asia's private room. We stood in front of the portrait of Athena, the Greek goddess of war and wisdom, with an owl on her shoulder.
"Password?"
"Angel of Light"
She opened the door and yelling reached our ears.
"-DAM IT! HOW COULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN! I'M GONE FOR ONE DAM MINUTE AND THIS! WELL WHO THE BLOODY HELL INVITED THEM IN, IN THE FIRST PLACE?!"
"I'm sorry Asia but-"
"OH BLOOD SHIT YOU'RE SORRY! FOR WHAT? HAVING THE CASTLE UNDER ATTACK OR FOR EVEN LETTING THAT VENAMOUS THING IN! OR FOR THE PEOPLE THAT GOT HURT! WELL I'M COMING THIS INSTANT!"
"Thank you-"
"THERE'S NO TIME FOR THAT! WAIT TIL I GET MY HANDS AROUND THE JACKASS'S NECK WHO LET THOSE BLOODY THINGS IN! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!"
She pushed a button and slammed the marble ball back into it's case.
"Did we come at a bad time," I asked timidly.
"No I have to go," she said trying to sound calmer but failed.
"What happened?"
"Vampires are loose in the fairy castle. Some idiot invited then in and now, things are going really bad. I have to go."
"Bye," Draco and I said.
I watched as Asia took off one of her rings and it opened into a portal. She stepped into the swirling lights and disappeared.
"What did you want to talk about?" I asked turning me attention back to Draco.
He looked down at the ground and was quiet.
After what seemed like an eternity he mumbled, "I don't know how to say this.
And then it clicked in my head. We couldn't love each other no matter how we felt. We had to hide our feelings within us.
"I know what you're about to say," I said trying to keep my voice from cracking.
"Please understand. It's for the best."
I wanted to hold him close but restrained myself from doing so.
I wished we could be together. But I had to deny the feeling I felt for him. We had to pretend it was over. I tried to tell my heart I never truly loved him, it was just my hormones kicking in.
"Maybe it's best if you left," I said sitting on the couch.
He nodded and left reluctantly with one last look at me. Then he was gone as the door clicked.
How was I supposed to walk away from all the memories? How was I not supposed to miss him when he was gone?
The thing that I wanted the most was the one thing I could never have.
I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I tried to convince my heart I didn't.that never loved him.
But I couldn't lie to my heart. Deep down inside I knew I still loved him. I wished I could do something about it. But I couldn't. He had walked out of my life and all I had left is the memories we shared.
I went back to the common room refusing to cry. When I went in things went from bad to worse.
The second I stepped in Ron totally exploded on me.
"HOW COULD YOU GO WITH THAT SLIMY GIT MALFOY!? I MEAN I THOUGHT YOU HAD MORE SENSE THAN THAT!"
I pushed past him and a glaring Harry. Tears streamed down my face and I ran into the girls' dormitory. The girls were sitting on the bed staring at me with hatred. So I opened my trunk quickly and climbed in. I locked it using magic and sat on the couch placing my head in my hands.
A day that was supposed to be great became the worst thing in the world. I wanted to grab a dagger and kill myself. But I knew nothing would happen. I'm a fairy after all. Cutting my own flesh would only cause more pain.
So I cried for all the events that happened tonight. For all the things that broke my heart. For the things I couldn't have because others disapproved.
~Justine's POV
It was an hour before the ball and all the girls were already ready. I took a quick shower and slipped into my gown. It was really uncomfortable. My cousin had a hair fairy come over to help me with my hair.
I walked with to Ron, Harry, and Hermoine down the grand staircase. Hermionie and Ron were going together and Harry was going with Cho.
I disagreed with Harry going with Cho. I kept my opinion to myself though. If Harry was happy I was happy for him. I'm willing to bet Cho breaks his heart soo. She soo.I don't know how to explain her.
I stopped in the middle of the staircase. Draco was standing at the bottom. My God he was hot. He didn't gel back his hair so if fell loosely over his eyes. He really did look like a prince.
Ron and Hermionie left together.
"Err.Justine Cho's waiting for me. Do you-"
"Go ahead"
"You sure? I mean-"
"Yeah, go have fun"
"Alright"
I looked back to where Draco was standing but he wasn't there anymore.
A soft voice reached my ear.
"You look radiant," Draco whispered.
His head was right next to mine. I turned to face him and we kissed.
He took my hand in his and we walked into the great hall together.
The hall looked exquisite. There were snowflakes falling from the ceiling. Christmas trees were everywhere. Light fairies flew from tree to tree, do those things ever settle down?
The only thing that really bothered me though were the people that kept whispering things like 'a Gryffindor and Slythren?' and 'It doesn't make sense.' I tried to ignore them so I kept my head high and proud as we walked onto the dance floor together hand in hand still.
He glided me gracefully around the floor while others stared. Look of envy crossed over some girls' faces. I saw Asia smile brightly in approval while her husband winked. Ron was red in the face from anger I suspect. Hermionie and Harry's mouths were hanging wide open.
When I saw Pansy's face I almost laughed out loud. She had a mixture of hatred and shock on her face. That look was priceless.
When the dance ended Draco smiled at me uncomfortably. I smile back weakly.
Maybe it was a bad idea for us to come together. Everyone looked either shocked, angry, upset, or venomous. Only three people looked like they didn't care and though it was a good idea: Asia, Kouji, and Dumbledore.
When the ball ended Draco said we needed to talk. I agreed and we went to Asia's private room. We stood in front of the portrait of Athena, the Greek goddess of war and wisdom, with an owl on her shoulder.
"Password?"
"Angel of Light"
She opened the door and yelling reached our ears.
"-DAM IT! HOW COULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN! I'M GONE FOR ONE DAM MINUTE AND THIS! WELL WHO THE BLOODY HELL INVITED THEM IN, IN THE FIRST PLACE?!"
"I'm sorry Asia but-"
"OH BLOOD SHIT YOU'RE SORRY! FOR WHAT? HAVING THE CASTLE UNDER ATTACK OR FOR EVEN LETTING THAT VENAMOUS THING IN! OR FOR THE PEOPLE THAT GOT HURT! WELL I'M COMING THIS INSTANT!"
"Thank you-"
"THERE'S NO TIME FOR THAT! WAIT TIL I GET MY HANDS AROUND THE JACKASS'S NECK WHO LET THOSE BLOODY THINGS IN! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!"
She pushed a button and slammed the marble ball back into it's case.
"Did we come at a bad time," I asked timidly.
"No I have to go," she said trying to sound calmer but failed.
"What happened?"
"Vampires are loose in the fairy castle. Some idiot invited then in and now, things are going really bad. I have to go."
"Bye," Draco and I said.
I watched as Asia took off one of her rings and it opened into a portal. She stepped into the swirling lights and disappeared.
"What did you want to talk about?" I asked turning me attention back to Draco.
He looked down at the ground and was quiet.
After what seemed like an eternity he mumbled, "I don't know how to say this.
And then it clicked in my head. We couldn't love each other no matter how we felt. We had to hide our feelings within us.
"I know what you're about to say," I said trying to keep my voice from cracking.
"Please understand. It's for the best."
I wanted to hold him close but restrained myself from doing so.
I wished we could be together. But I had to deny the feeling I felt for him. We had to pretend it was over. I tried to tell my heart I never truly loved him, it was just my hormones kicking in.
"Maybe it's best if you left," I said sitting on the couch.
He nodded and left reluctantly with one last look at me. Then he was gone as the door clicked.
How was I supposed to walk away from all the memories? How was I not supposed to miss him when he was gone?
The thing that I wanted the most was the one thing I could never have.
I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I tried to convince my heart I didn't.that never loved him.
But I couldn't lie to my heart. Deep down inside I knew I still loved him. I wished I could do something about it. But I couldn't. He had walked out of my life and all I had left is the memories we shared.
I went back to the common room refusing to cry. When I went in things went from bad to worse.
The second I stepped in Ron totally exploded on me.
"HOW COULD YOU GO WITH THAT SLIMY GIT MALFOY!? I MEAN I THOUGHT YOU HAD MORE SENSE THAN THAT!"
I pushed past him and a glaring Harry. Tears streamed down my face and I ran into the girls' dormitory. The girls were sitting on the bed staring at me with hatred. So I opened my trunk quickly and climbed in. I locked it using magic and sat on the couch placing my head in my hands.
A day that was supposed to be great became the worst thing in the world. I wanted to grab a dagger and kill myself. But I knew nothing would happen. I'm a fairy after all. Cutting my own flesh would only cause more pain.
So I cried for all the events that happened tonight. For all the things that broke my heart. For the things I couldn't have because others disapproved.
