Chapter 10: I Cannot Mend My Broken Heart

When I finally wiped the last tear away I went to wash my face in my connecting restroom. I opened the silver door to the right and decided to go in my Jacuzzi to calm down.

I turned on the water and a Greek waterfall appeared as always. I changed into my bathing suit and walked in slowly. I sat underneath the mini waterfall letting the cooling water wash away my pain. It was soo relaxing I fell asleep.

The next morning at 6 o' clock I found myself in warm water. I opened my eyes and saw that I was underwater. I jumped out and turned off the foist. I went quickly into the next room and changed into my silk pajamas.

I bounced onto the bed and fell asleep. At 7 I changed into my robes and snuck out of the dormitory. No one goes to breakfast this early.

I ate a quick breakfast and dashed into an empty classroom. I just studied and studies until class was about to start. I took a seat away from everyone else. I needed to be alone for once.

Through out class I tried to ignore Draco who kept staring at me with worried eyes. Everyone else avoided me. I didn't know weather it was because I had a look that clearly said leave me alone or because they were mad at me.

I kept my head down and worked. I felt tears sting my eyes but I pushed them back down and into my throat.

When class ended I gathered my things and went to Charms.

"Justine!"

My head zapped up and I slowly turned around and saw Harry running toward me.

"Can we talk?" he asked.

"Maybe later," I said putting my head down.

I turned and quickly left. Truthfully, maybe for me always meant never.

For the next few weeks I built walls around my heart. When I was worried I covered it up, most of the time through anger. When I was hurting I would go to a private place and cry until I couldn't cry anymore.

I decided to never fall in love. I wouldn't let myself become vulnerable to others. I just don't want to get hurt again.

On the 29th of January Asia decided to have a little talk with me privately.

We sat down and she looked into my eyes.

"There's something I need to talk to you about."

"What?"

"Voldemort is planning to attack the school."

I was soo shocked that I couldn't say a word.

"How? What? NO!" was all I could get out.

"He's planning to attack us with the aid of vampires and his death eaters. It's time for me to tell you something."

"Good or bad?"

"Kind of a mix of both. You have fairy powers as you know but I need to teach you a erm.little trick."

"How?"

"You need to read this."

She handed me a blue leather bound book.

"Okay"

"Justine, are you alright? You've been acting.differently."

"Yeah I'm fine"

"You broke up with Draco didn't you?"

"How do you know?"

"You don't hang out with him anymore; in fact you've been avoiding him. So what happened?"

"Nothing awe just decided it would be for the best."

"But you still love him don't you?"

"Even if I do there's nothing anyone can do about it. If I love him war will break out between the houses. We would be called traitors. There's nothing going on between us anymore. It's all for the best."

"Don't worry about your houses. Time will solve their problem. You will understand later on."

"Can I go now?"

"Yeah"

As I went outside I ran right into Draco. His goons Pansy, Goyle, and Crabbe were crowded around him. I fell backwards. Draco ignored me like the others."

I got up slowly and went the other way. Even now I couldn't change the way I still felt for Draco.

My broken heart couldn't mend and I was lost.