Here is my collection of short song fics about Meilin! I hope you like it!
(I don't own any of the songs! Except the one I made in the third chapter!! So please don't sue! None of them are mine!!! I don't have any money to spare!! I need it for Christmas presents!)
Chapter One
We Want What We Can't Have
By MoshiMoshiQueen
^Lyrics^
^ The door behind me closes-
I know for sure this chapter's over
I'll never more see my reflection in her loving eyes^
I looked out the window slowly, knowing it would cause me pain, knowing that my tears would fall.
I could taste the bitter sweetness of my salty tears as they fall slowly down my flushed cheeks. He hugged her.
Her, not me. It was always her never me.
My insides wanted to scream and hate her but how could you hate her? How could you hate Sakura?
I couldn't hate someone who made him happy, someone who made him smile those rare smiles. But of course I wished it was me who could make him feel that way. I wished it was me in his arms, not her.
^A million times
before I've seen
When opposites attract to me
The flame burns uncontrollably but soon the fire dies
But I'm not sure what I'm asking for -
Why if I want love do I beg for more? ^
They walked beside each other, still not knowing of their love for each other, but I knew. I just wanted to leave that window, I want to stop looking. I just want to disappear but my body doesn't move and I keep on watching. I keep breaking my own heart more. I keep causing my self more tears.
There was only one reason for my pain… it was myself. It was myself because I kept holding on I kept dreaming. I kept wanting more…
^ Guess we always
want what we can't get
Love just strikes us blind
But in the end, we always get what we can't want
You'd have thought we'd have learned
But we fall for it every time ^
They say love is blind man or how ever it goes, guess it means the same thing that you always want what you can't have and are always blind for the things in front of you.
I was blind; because I didn't see my friendship with him I only saw my needs for him to love me back. I was selfish and childish even stupid at time. Chasing him around like a lovesick puppy and hanging on to him like a leech, knowing that he loved her the whole time.
I knew I could not compete against love, if only that arrow had hit me and not her. But then what would have happened? Life and destiny would have to change courses. Where would I be than living a loveless life with someone who didn't love me?
They say everything happens for a reason, I know this well but I guess I can't help but cry. To taste those salty painless tears.
^ It turns me on
if she's unreachable or dangerous
When what I need and what I lust
Are completely different things
How many times have I let love slip through my fingers
Chasing after promises I know will never keep? ^
You know I realized that I was stuck in a dream my whole life with him. A dream that never would come true. It sometimes makes me wonder why I went on dreaming. I knew I wanted to dream about my future and the person I would love. I could picture him in my mind holding me, kissing me and loving me.
I wish I had realized before that it was not him who I was dreaming of but someone I would hopefully meet in my future. I guess life always throws you things that you think you can't handle but then some how you find that strength to pull threw.
I don't know where I'm getting my strength but some how I will manage. Li Meilin is not down for the count just yet! Life can't bring me down!
^ But I don't know
why I can't let go-
When my heart says yes
But my mind screams no^
Life will go on! And I will let! What has happen and what is going to happen is up to me!
I'm in charge of my life and I refuse to be crying all the time! I refuse to just turn in all my hope for love! I will find someone who loves me mark my words I will!!! I know I will!
And I know I can! Life always throws stones your way but you can miss them, but only if you just don't give up!
Ok, maybe it is something like that, but doesn't matter! I still have my hope! No matter if the sayings don't go with it!
^ I've been
looking all my life for answers
Questions of the heart I've got to ask him (it is really her but changed it to
fit)
Does he (she)
exist or does he (she) not? I wonder...
And so my search for him (her) goes on and on and on ^
I can see it now, a huge beautiful gown with long white lace. Cherry blossoms and peonies floating amongst the wind. With soft music played by a harp and piano.
It will be so beautiful. Everything will be perfect, like a wedding in heaven. Everything will be so kawaii.
I'm not turning in or giving up! He will always be in my heart… forever
^ But I don't know
why I can't let go-
when my heart says yes
but my mind screams no ^
Forever… as my friend. But I have to get going! Can't wait to tell Tomoyo-chan of my plans! Their wedding is going to be so kawaii! But first I have to do something.
I ran out the door quickly to the young card captors hugging them both, "Hey guys I wanted to say that I'm going to Tomoyo's house! I will be back tomorrow! I have a lot to tell her!"
"Kawaii!!!!!" I yelled running away from them.
Guess life always throws things at you that you can't have. But everything has a purpose in life. You'll never know what will happen.
I kept running from the two confused card captors with the plans of their wedding fresh in my mind.
I felt the soft wind blowing cherry blossoms and peonies, just like in my daydream and I knew it wouldn't just be a dream. It would be real.
^Guess we always
want what we can't get
Will I be running around chasing love
'Till I lose my mind?
We always get what we can't want
Does anybody - anyone at all feel the same?^
Guess we always want what we can't get but we live and we learn! I might be searching for love for a while. But I'm putting that on hold for now because I have a wedding to plan!
How did you like it??? The song is by Nelson (have no clue who that is but I came across the lyrics and decided to write a song fic) any way hope you liked it!!! Please R+R!!!
