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Here is chapter 5, I hope you'll like it! Wanna read more? : )
Part (5/10)
4 p.m., ER
Abby didn't want to be alone at Carter's apartment so she came with him to the ER one hour before her shift started. But she was not sure if that was a good idea. To her it seemed like everybody was watching her, staring at her, like everybody knew what happened.
Immediately after they changed their clothes, Carter had to treat a patient and left the lounge.
Abby was just about to close the door to her locker when Luka entered the room.
"Hey, Abby! How are you? You look better today."
"Yeah, thank you, I feel better too.", she answered, smiling a little.
"So you're working again. I thought you'd take a few days off."
"No, I need the distraction. But I don't know if that was right, everybody here is staring at me."
"Really? But nobody knows what happened. Except the nurse, Susan and me of course. We didn't want any gossip."
"Thank you. I guess I was just seeing things.", she said.
"Yeah. Well, I have to look after a patient. See you later?"
"Sure."
She sighed when Luka left the room. She was glad that only a few people knew what happened.
Then she started her shift. There was a lot to do. But Abby was glad that it was a busy day.
Later that evening in the ambulance bay
Susan was standing outside to catch some fresh air during her break when Carter came out and joined her.
"Hi Susan!", he said and kissed her on the cheek.
"Hi! How is Abby?"
"She's fine, considering what happened."
"That's good!", she said, honestly delighted.
"I hope you are not mad at me because I spent so much time with her during the last hours."
"Of course I'm not, she needed you. But I think we have to talk about us.", she said calmly.
"So you are mad at me. But there is no need to be, nothing happened, she's just my friend!"
"No, I'm not mad at you! I'm only facing the truth. You and me are not meant to be. You love Abby and she loves you."
"What are you talking about?", he wanted to know, confused.
"You know that and I know that. We are great friends and I hope we will always be! But a relationship is not right for us.", she said, in a friendly voice.
"Really?", Carter asked, not sure whether he should be happy or sad. He felt the same, considering Susan and Abby. But he never wanted to hurt Susan.
"Yes, really! I love you, but only as a friend. Go and be happy with her."
He was glad that she still wanted to be his friend because he really liked her. But he knew that she was right because he really felt more for Abby than friendship.
"Susan, I love you too, as a friend.", he said with a smile, hugging her, "and we will always be friends!".
"I'm glad!"
"And you really think she loves me?", Carter asked shyly. He was a little unsure about that.
"Of course she does! Trust me, I'm a woman too, I know it.", she said with a grin. Though she was a little bit sad because Carter was a great person and she lost him as her partner, she was happy for him. She meant every word she said. Carter and Abby were made for each other. He was still her friend, and she even liked Abby.
"Thank you.", he said.
"No problem! So, my friend, how about going back inside? I'm freezing to death out here!"
"Me too!", he said as they walked inside.
30 minutes later, at Susan's locker
"Hey, Susan!" a voice called after her.
"Hi Abby! Are you okay?"
"Yes, thank you! And I wanted to thank you for everything you did for me! And don't be mad at Carter, he was just a friend!"
"Don't worry about that, Abby. We broke up a few minutes ago.", Susan said.
"What?! Why? Not because I stayed at his apartment, right?!", Abby asked. She felt guilty.
"No, really, don't worry! We were just not meant to be. I know, I love him, but only as a friend. And we are great friends, but nothing more."
"So it's really not because of last night?"
"No, really.", Susan repeated. She didn't want Abby to feel responsible for that. To be honest, it really had nothing to do with her. Sure, he was in love with Abby, but even without her they couldn't be more than friends. But how much he cared about her at the moment made it clear for her, he loved Abby.
Abby was relieved. She didn't want to be the reason for them to break up. But she didn't know how to react. She was glad, because that was what she secretly wanted. But she felt sorry for Susan, too.
"How do you feel?", she finally asked her.
"I don't know", Susan answered, "I know it was right to break up. But it's sad anyway."
"I'm sorry!", Abby said, putting a hand on Susan's shoulder.
"Thank you.". After a few seconds she finally continued with a slight smile, "So, I have to see a patient now. How about you?"
"Me too.", Abby responded, smiling back before she went off in the opposite direction to see her patient.
Abby had not seen John during the rest of her shift. She was glad that she was quite busy during the whole time.
She was just coming out of trauma two when she saw him standing in the hallway, leaning against the wall in a small corner, his eyes fixing the floor.
"Hey.", she said.
"Oh, hi Abby. Are you waiting for me?", he asked weakly.
"Yes, I am."
"I'll just change my clothes and we can go.", he said, but did not move, his eyes fixing the floor again.
"Are you okay? Susan told me you two broke up."
"Yes, we did. And yes, I'm okay."
"Then why are you hiding here in the corner, staring at the floor? Come on, I can see that you are not okay.", she said, staring at him, demanding an answer.
"I was just thinking about … ."
"I know, break ups are hard.", she said, taking his hand, supposing it was because of Susan. She knew how you feel after break ups, even when they are right, from her break up with Luka. Though she knew it was right, she was feeling bad afterwards. On the other hand she was glad that he wasn't with Susan anymore. She was quite jealous, to be honest.
When he felt her hand touching his, he suddenly forgot everything around. His heart skipped, he blushed slightly and a smile appeared on his face. When he looked at her, he saw that she was staring at him and their eyes met. He felt hundreds of butterflies in his stomach. Without thinking he leaned down and kissed her soft lips gently. He was glad when she kissed him back. He felt her putting her arms around his neck and he put his around her waist.
They were standing there like that for a while, holding each other tight, kissing more intense now, forgetting where they were.
" … about us!", he finally finished his last sentence after they parted from their kiss. "I was thinking about us and how I could tell you my feelings for you. I was thinking about whether you'd give me a chance or not. I love you, Abby! I always have and I always will!", he finally blurted out. He was still not sure if she felt the same he did. He stared at her, waiting for her reaction. Seconds seemed like hours for him.
Abby was staring back at him. She was still stunned. She did not expect that, especially not a few hours after he broke up with Susan. But it was time to be honest with him.
"Abby, we can wait if you're not ready.", he said to break the silence between them. 'Or if you are not feeling the same.', he thought, but he didn't want to say it out loud.
