As much as I hate making Meilin morn over Syaoran the song goes perfect with a morning Meilin over a happily in love with Sakura type of Syaoran. Any ways this was requested by Xiao. Thanks so much for all the reviews and requests!!

Don't own this song!! Don't sue, cause well you can't cause I have stated no claim on this song, plus why sue someone who doesn't have money and is not using the song for profit?

The Love After

By MoshiMoshiQueen

^Lyrics^

"Talking"

(Me Talking)

Meilin sat upon the stage with the red light shinning upon her pale skin as she began to play the melody of the song she had just written for the purpose of recovering and building back her broken heart.

Her hair was astray in different positions, but looked as if she spent an hour placing it just right. Her eyes, a full bright crimson color, and no one could ever notice the slight sad gleam they had once portrayed. She had looked normal to all of her friends, and none of them worried for she was the same old Meilin they knew… they never knew she once had pain…

She started to part her lips letting the soft tones of her song flow out softly; "Here I go again I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today. It's been seven months and counting. You've moved on. I still feel exactly the same…"
 
Every time she sung the song she wrote on that rainy, cloudy day she felt like crying once more… to give in to the depressing feelings that clawed at her heart striping it from any love that wanted to bleed through, but the truth was the song helped her more than pained her… but she still felt like crying, but not entirely because of pain.
 
"It's just that everywhere I go all the buildings know your name. Like photographs and memories of love. Steel and granite reminders…the city calls your name and I can't move on…"
 
She tried to love again, but no one was the man she thought loved her. No one was him… and no one ever would be. Her heart cried out, but the tears never dried… She was left with too many empty feelings that left her cold inside.
 
"Ever since you've been gone. The lights go out the same. The only difference is you call another name. To your love. To your lover now. To your love. The lover after me…"
 
She blamed her self for not being good enough… for not fighting his wish to love another. She blamed her self for not being able to be the one he held at night, the one he kissed every morning and hugged everyday. She cursed her self for she knew that him leaving was not a mistake that was made…
 
"Am I all alone in the universe? There's no love on these streets. I have given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway. So this is my new freedom. It's funny… I don't remember being chained. But nothing seems to make sense anymore. Without you I'm always twenty minutes late…"
 
Life seemed blank and she truly did want to blame the one who had her love's heart, but she could not for she made her love happy and that was all that mattered. She tried to make her self feel happy… to look happy, but she could not.
 
"Ever since you've been gone. The lights go out the same. The only difference is you call another name. To your love. To your lover now. To your love. The lover after me."
 
She hoped the crowd realized that she was smiling… because the fact was that she truly was smiling. This song that she wrote on that rainy day helped her heal… maybe only a little, but nonetheless she healed.
"And time goes by so slowly. The nights are cold and lonely. I shouldn't be holding on. But I'm still holding on for you. Here I go again. I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today. But I'm standing at your doorway. I'm calling out your name because I can't move on…"
 
She loves him there is not doubt in her mind… but just like him she loves him as family and nothing more. His love still is in her heart, this was a true statement, but his love did not make her complete as it once had. This song took place in the past, and she was in her future.
 
"Ever since you've been gone. The lights go out the same The only difference is you call another name. To your love. To your lover now. To your love. The lover after me."
 
Everyone clapped, even her ex boyfriend who he knew her heart was not his and that he too was looked at as only family, but that did not matter.
 
"That was great Meilin-chan," he said happily coming towards her.
"Thanks, I'm glad that everyone enjoyed it."
 
She paused for a moment, "Do you think I can love again? To find someone of my own?"
"I know you will, Meilin. I know you will, because you got over the pain and your to strong to not go one. Someone will find you. I promise."
"You're not angry about the whole I-love-you-as-family thing are you?"
"Of course not we might be ex boyfriend and girlfriend, but we aren't ex friends."
"That is why I love you. You always know the right thing to say."
He smiled, "Come on lets stop thinking about the love after and go for the love beginning."
"That is sweet, but I hope you mean ice cream, because I don't want to love another right now. Plus, ice cream is so much better than men."
"I'm hurt," he said pouting.
 
They kept their conversations going as they walked out the door… maybe love did not find them yet, but it sure will one day… maybe they might have love after love but they will differently find the love beginning…
 
Was that strange? I was afraid that most wouldn't understand it… well any ways. Please R+R!