This is a request from saiya-gurl a fateful reviewer!!! Thanks for all of your support!! And don't worry if you have requested something your chapter will be out. The song is Don't Speak by No Doubt.

Also I quoted from episode 60, where Syaoran tells Meilin he loves someone else. I think it is called Meilin Returns… but don't quote me on that.

I don't own any of the songs nor the episode or the quotes I took out of that episode so don't sue please!!

 

Don't Speak

By MoshiMoshiQueen

~Lyrics~

"Talking"



~You and me
we used to be together
every day together, always~

She knew the words were coming, and there was no time to stale as he spoke the words she had feared since she came back to Japan, "I promised if I ever found someone, I'd let you know."

She listened slightly acting as if the night sky was more interesting then the words that were tearing her insides, and making them bleed bitterly, "Have you found someone?"

She felt the cold air hit her like a whorl wind knocking the breath out of her lungs as she heard him finally say what she had feared, "Yes."

She held back her tears, as she created a glossy liquid shield around her ruby eyes, "Kino… moto… san."

~I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
this could be the end~

She watched Syaoran answer her with out words, and she pretended not to care, although her heart was tearing apart and her ruby eyes showed all her pain.

"How?"

She stopped and pondered, "You always called her 'Sakura.' The only girls you call by their first name are your sisters and me."

She needed to leave… run… cry, "Well, the engagement is over, than."

She quickly got her shoes on heading towards the door shaking as her hand reached the doorknob, "Where are you going?"

"Daidouji's house. I'd like to talk to her some more."


~It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know~

"But it's so late," she heard him say as she kept her head down fighting back the salty crystal tears of her own broken heart, "Wait, I'll go with you."

"I'll be fine," she said more bitter than she meant to.

"Meilin…"

"I'll be fine. I'll take a taxi. Please, pick me up from there tomorrow. Good-bye," she muttered running as fast as she could away from the one male she ever loved… and now the only male she ever cried for.

She couldn't help, but run the whole way to a place where she felt that she could let all her angst out. She wanted to die at that moment, but her legs kept moving towards a mansion she knew was her safe haven.

The night's winds cut her ski as it gazed past her face while salty drops of anguish fell towards the ground as she ran quickly holding back what she really wanted to do.

~Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts ~

I jumped into Tomoyo-chan's arm letting all if it go… I had no where else to turn… no one that could help, but she managed to help my pain by listening to how much my heart hurt at that moment.

"How could he? I-I loved him more than any thing in the world! I wouldn't let any one else have him. But, the really worse part is that… I like Kinomoto-san too! (Not in that way people) I like her too. She's so nice."

Tears slide down her pale white skin, "If Syaoran loves her, than there is nothing I can do, but… I can't stop crying. It's not helping."

(Did any one notice that in the episode where Syaoran tells Meilin he loves someone else Tomoyo's eyes are really scary? They had a nice color… but still they were scary. )

~Our memories
they can be inviting
but some are altogether
mighty frightening ~

"And I can't hate him no matter what happens or Kinomoto."

(If you haven't seen the episode you should… it's a real tearjerker… I hated Meilin back than and I still felt bad… it almost made me cry watching her cry… so sad.)

Tomoyo soothed the poor girl listening to her, and finally Meilin's cries subsided, "I think I'm going to go take a walk."

Tomoyo nodded knowing that Meilin needed time to herself for awhile, "Thank you, Daidouji"

"You're welcome Meilin-chan."

Meilin walked slowly not knowing where she was going, but ended up in a place where many did… the park.

She sat quietly down on one of the swings playing with her raven black hair trying not to cry again, "why does it hurt so much?"


~As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry~

She knew that is why he asked to come, but hearing it in his own words hurt more than a stab to the back. She knew one day he would find someone else… but it was too soon…

She wished he never told her… Any thing was better than this pain… anything. Did he know how much she hurt? Did he know how much those words hurt? Why did he speak? Why did he tell me?

~ Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts ~

She frowned at the moon, and it's happy glow. She secretly wished it would rain… for she wanted the world to feel what she was feeling. She didn't need happy stars and moon grinning back at her when she felt like crap…

She wanted to rip the moon's smile right off its happy little face… but then she realized the moon wasn't even real…. And the moon 'didn't' smile. She sighed at her pathetic self… here she was like a heart broken girl after losing a famous movie star to some hot model. She needed to get over this and move on.

She knew one day this would come… and here it was. She was stronger than this! She couldn't be crying at a time like this! She needed to be coming up with plans to make Syaoran confess!

She jumped off the swing, "All right Syaoran your in love, and now you have to tell her!! I will make sure of that!"

She rolled up her sleeves, and ran towards Tomoyo's house quickly ready to come up with plans to get the kawaii couple to confess their love.


~It's all ending
I got to stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying...are we? ~

"Syaoran, you're going to be sorry if you don't confess soon!! Tomoyo and I will make you confess!!" She laughed at her self, saying good-bye to the moon and apologizing for sending waves of destruction it's way earlier.

"You spoke, and now you will pay!" she said evilly, grinning like a Chester cat.

~Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts ~