Chapter Nine: The Reason to Go
Kae sat on her bed laughing hysterically to herself. Today was the day, she thought to herself.
Today she would run. Run from her problems. A part of her kept telling her that wasn't the right thing to do, but she just shoved that part aside to go through the plan again.
She glared at Pansy and a friend of hers who both gave Kae a strange look and then hurriedly left the room. Kae who was sitting cross-legged and cross-armed on her bed, with her head slightly tilted back laughing like a maniac, did give off a strange impression.
It was pretty early in the morning so she didn't really care. One whole day of school to attend and show the others that she was way more superior to them. One more day and she'd show them. Kae swung her legs over the side of her bed and quickly changed out of her pajamas into the school robes. She dug around in her trunk and pulled out what she had worn on her last two break-puts too. She quickly pulled on the black finger-cut gloves that were rimmed with silver, and of which the left was missing the whole thumb. Kae grinned down at them.
Lessons were just as always – Kae punching up during potions and transfiguration and sinking in anything else. She didn't really care that is was most noticeable that in last mentioned subjects, she didn't really seem to be at all anywhere near what they were doing.
"Love, is something troubling you?" Professor Trewlawney asked knowing well Kae neither liked her nor really cared what she said.
Kae looked up smiling like the teacher hadn't seen anyone but Lavender Brown and Pavati Patil smile.
"Yes" Kae said and looked back out in the window.
"Well, what is it then?" Trewlawney asked when after a while silence had filed the room. Kae looked up again.
"Nothing really. Just planning something" Kae answered as if she were planning to kill someone. Trewlawney unsure what to do next ushered the class to continued with their doings.
Malfoy ignored her, his eyes still rested on the back of Kae's head. What was she planning? And why was she so – strange?
A dinner Kae smiled at everybody who looked at her in a strange assassin-like way, having most of the students move away from where she was sitting. Malfoy, whom she still sat next to, stayed where he was and his goons, Crabbe and Goyle, were to stupid to notice anything.
Kae during dinner kept looking at her gloves, which Malfoy found a bit disturbing. He turned and asked her: "What is with your gloves, apart from that the left one is a bit broken?" Kae grinned at him with her assassin smile, her insides jumping.
"Just a remembrance" she said. Of what I'm planning, she continued. And you won't mess it up.
Ever since Kae had started running from her problems, she noticed it was much better to act different than she usually did. It kept her concentration elsewhere. And the gloves just made her remember to run.
Malfoy shook his head and continued eating.
Later when the other girls in Kae's dorm had fallen asleep she put on black jeans, a black t-shirt and black robes. She breathed in deeply, her grinning self from before lost. She looked over the girls and thought how pathetic they were to stay and confront their problems, and then left.
She jumped the last stair into the common room and had a good look there too. She sighed thinking that she would leave Malfoy for good now, Malfoy and the bunch of Slytherin's, which were so different, yet so similar.
She turned to the door and then opened it.
"Leaving?" she heard a voice behind her. This wasn't supposed to happen. Her plan didn't have anyone noticing her. She stopped and turned to see Malfoy leaning against the wall next to the stairs to the boys dormitory.
"What are you doing here?" Kae hissed in a hushed voice. She looked round, half suspecting someone else to show up.
"What are you doing here?" he asked her back, not making himself the trouble to quiet down.
"Running" she told him, glad that she was standing in the shadows, unlike him who was bathed in sunlight. Kae closed her right eye to stop it from tearing. Why was he here? He was messing it all up. "Go away."
"Why?"
"You – you're messing it all up" she told him.
"What? Your plan to run?" he asked and advanced to her. Kae gulped and took a step back.
"Yes" she hissed. Malfoy stopped walking.
"And why are you running? Hogwarts not good enough for you?" he asked spiteful. Kae closed both her eyes and then wiped her face quickly with the back of her glove.
"Because I can't stand it" she said slowly moving towards him. Malfoy looked at her, waiting for more. "It's none off – " Kae stopped herself. It was. It was all his business.
"Tell me" he said. "I mean there has to be a reason you've been planning this so long."
"It's because – how do you know I've been planning for long?" she hissed and stopped just before she stepped into the light. Malfoy reached into his pocked and pulled out a piece of parchment in a pretty bad condition.
"Found this lying around. Got the plans. And it is your handwriting" he said. Kae turned her head slightly. She thought a moment.
"Why won't you tell me?" he asked, suddenly sounding more caring than ever.
"It's because of you" Kae said shaking her head as if to tell herself off.
"Me?" Malfoy looked confused, no, perplexed.
"You – " Kae paused. "I feel different for you than for anyone else" she mumbled. Malfoy took a step towards her and she took one back. "You've clouded my mind, Malfoy. Draco. I can't think straight anymore, cause everything that crosses my mind is you. I always see you, it's always you, Draco, always!" Kae felt tears slowly creeping down her cheeks. She sunk her head and wiped her left cheek on her shoulder.
Then she felt his arm around her and his head on her right shoulder. She wanted to protest but she couldn't. Her body wanted this – she wanted this.
"Leave me alone" she managed to say through the tears. Malfoy hushed her and she then found it best to just let it be. Still she urged him to leave her as she sunk to her knees and he with her.
"Just – go away" she said choking beneath the tears. Malfoy tenderly stroked her hair and hushed her again.
"Leave me" she said again and put her head on his shoulder. She closed her eyes and let her mind drift.
"Well you're just a know-it-all who thinks she knows everything" a younger Kae said. A younger Hermione pulled a face at her and stood up."And you're so mean, no one's ever going to like you. You'll never ever have a friend" Hermione said and ran off. Kae watched her leave.
"Stupid idiot" Kae said and fiddled with one of her earrings. She took them out. "Stupid earrings." Tears filled her eyes. "Stupid Hermione. I don't want anyone to like me anyways."
"Stupid idiot" she mumbled. Malfoy ignored this and kept stroking her hair and rocking her back and forth slightly. "She was right. I wasn't. It was me all along" Kae continued.
"Kae" Malfoy then said quietly. Kae gulped but said nothing. Malfoy let her go and looked at her. Her cheeks were stained with tears and she didn't look her best.
"Draco" she mumbled and sat down properly. "Draco, I love you" she said and stared at her knees. She wouldn't bear it if he didn't repeat her feelings.
"Yeah" Malfoy said a hint of amusement in his voice. "I'd – I'd kind of guessed that, from what you said before." Kae sniffed. "I love you too, Kae" he said. Kae looked up. "When we first met, you were this unfriendly bitch who always wanted things to be different. But I guess I kind of liked that. I'd only been helping you around school and all because I like you. But now – now that you've confessed your feelings, I guess I love you too."
Kae smiled but was unsure what to do.
"You aren't going to run away, are you?" Malfoy asked. Kae got up and Malfoy followed her example.
"I am" she said. Malfoy looked at her confused. "But I'll be back" she added smiling. Malfoy smiled. Unsure of what to do Kae leaned forward and kissed Malfoy. It was a small peck, nothing more, but Malfoy then placed his hand on her cheek and repeated the kiss, this time longer.
When they broke, Kae turned and ran.
*sniffs* how sweet… I've written romance before but I can't really judge my writing cause mostly I say it sucks. Of the only people who can, only one of them is reading this… Chame? Help?
The other isn't a Harry Potter fan.
