Author's notes: Well I finally got this part done! Ugh it was so hard I'm running out of ideas!@ dam writers block urgh! I got like the last 20 episodes of Cardcaptor Sakura I've watched a few of them and they are so cool!!! Much better in Japanese if I do say so myself! I can't wait to watch the rest and get more. I'm starting from the last episode to the first… why I have no idea I'm just weird in that way. Well thanks for all who reviewed!!! Please do again!
"Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye."
--H. Jackson Brown Jr.
Sakura woke up to the sun blaring in her eyes. She mentally cursed for
not shutting the blinds when she went to bed. She yawned trying to wake herself
up. It hadn't been as rough a night as usually. A small smile spread across her
lips as she remembered when he had come back. He had given her a promise ring
stating they would be together forever. If only that were the case. She sighed
twisting the ring around her finger. Despite herself she still wore it. Along
with her wedding and engagement bands. She couldn't help it a part of her just
wouldn't let go of him, or perhaps she just didn't want to.
"Oh Syaoran why did you have to leave me? I miss you so much….. I know I'm disappointing you though. You never liked to see me sad but it's just so hard. I lived for you than than you where taken away from me. Life is so cruel isn't it…..? but but I can't live like this anymore… Living for the day that everything can just be over." A tear slid down her cheek as she stared at the scar on her wrist. She had tried it once…. To end her life before it was time. It had been a week after Syaoran died. The pain was just unbearable so she tried to end it. Tomoyo had found her before she lost too much blood. After that Tomoyo was always around her trying to cheer her up. She had made her promise to never do that again. This was one promise Sakura intended to keep. She knew how it felt when someone broke a promise to you unintentionally but still it hurt like hell. She didn't want anyone else to ever feel that kind of pain, especially her best friend…
"Tomoyo you and Kero have been
with me from the start. You guys haven't given up on me. Although I hurt on the
inside I need to let them back into my life. I don't want to hurt either of them
anymore…. I just hope they are willing to forgive me…."
"Yummy pudding." A little voice exclaimed from beside her. She jumped up
in surprise seeing Kero asleep next to her. Her smile grew as the little beast
snored once and a while muttering something about food. Her hand went behind his
ears she knew as one of his sensitive spots. She rubbed back and forth until the
sleeping beast awoke.
Kero sighed happily as he felt someone rubbing his favorite spot. His
eyes opened to the bright sun. After a few minutes his eyes adjusted to the
light to find him next to his mistress. He jumped up in shame cursing himself
for sleeping in. He knew it wasn't a good idea to stay. Now she would probably
get upset and he would never get to come back.
"I'm sorry Sakura I didn't mean to oversleep. I umm just wanted to visit
I hope you can forgive me." With that he headed for the window. He was stopped
as Sakura reached out and brought him towards her. She hugged him tightly to her
chest.
"I should be the one asking for forgiveness Kero…. I've been so awful to
you. You have been a wonderful friend and guardian, and this is what you get
repaid with. I'm truly sorry. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?"
Sakura asked tears in her eyes. She hadn't realized how much she missed the
little fluff ball.
"Of course Sakura! I was never mad in the beginning. I know you have been
through a lot." Kero replied snuggling against her.
"I still had no right to act the way I did….. I have to face facts that
Syaoran is gone… and he's never coming back. He would want me to go on…. Kero….
I was ummm wondering… if you would like to move back in with me? I would
understand if you don't… but you're more than welcome to." Sakura
stated.
"Sakura of course I want to live with you!" Kero exclaimed.
"I promise to make it up to you." Sakura replied giving him one last
squeeze.
"There's really nothing to be made up…. I just want you back is all. Its
not easy getting over someone you care for. And I will always be there for you
when it hurts."
"Thanks Kero. I love you….. How about I make a big pancake breakfast for
you."
"PANCAKES!" Kero exclaimed his mouth watering. Sakura giggled getting up.
"I'll get right on it." She stated moving into the kitchen with a hungry
guardian beast behind her.
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Xiao Lang sighed tiredly as he sat up in bed. He had had a weird dream.
It was of a younger version of himself and a girl trying to capture this weird
card. "The Void" He believe it was called.
"She looked a lot like a younger version of Sakura." Xiao Lang stated
thinking back to the girl in his dreams. She was very beautiful even at such a
young age. Plus she had pledged her love to him. "Was it really just a dream…?
Or more?" He sighed again in frustration. Why couldn't he remember his past?
"Whatever it was it couldn't have just been a dream…… Somehow Sakura is the link
to my past… and I'm going to find out how… No matter what." Xiao Lang stated
forcefully. "The only way to do that though is to get close to her…. Something
which apparently isn't an easy task."
"Shaoran you up we are going to be late for work if you don't hurry."
Chris stated from the other room. Xiao Lang got up and did his morning routine.
After this he sat down infront of Chris to a nice big cup of coffee.
"Did you sleep well?" Chris asked eyeing his friend. He seemed really
tired.
"Yea." Xiao Lang replied yawning.
"Yep it looks like it." Chris replied sarcastically.
"I just had a weird dream that's all." Xiao Lang replied.
"Oh what about?"
"Not much you wouldn't understand it." Xiao Lang stated coldly. He didn't feel like sharing the context of this dream, not tell he figured out what it meant.
"Well if you want to talk I'm always here…. I suppose we should get to work… otherwise we are going to be late." Xiao Lang nodded as the two got up and headed for the hospital.
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Sakura set Kero's fourth plate of pancakes down for him. She glanced at the clock and figured she should probably get ready for work.
"Kero I'm going to take a shower if you want more it's on the counter." Kero answered but his reply was muffled from his full mouth. Sakura slipped into the bathroom and locked the door.
"It wasn't easy letting Kero back into my life… but I suppose it's for the best… though I'd thought I'd feel better about everything but the pain is still there." Sakura traced the heavy bags that lay under her eyes. "But I can pretend to be ok for them…. It's the least I can do." Sakura than jumped into the shower with a sense of determination.
An hour later Sakura walked into Blinkers with her head held high.
"Sakura your early!" Tomoyo stated a bit shocked looking at her watch. Usually Sakura woke up last minute and rushed to work. A habit she hadn't been able to change from her youth.
"Hello Tomoyo-chan! How are you?" Tomoyo stared at Sakura getting another shock. Sakura actually greeted her back. This was a day full of surprises.
"So what has gotten you in such a good mood?" Tomoyo questioned eyeing Sakura. Perhaps she wouldn't need to give her friend a little push.
"Not much I just got a good nights sleep I suppose." Sakura answered.
"No more nightmares?" Tomoyo asked.
"Not that I can remember." It wasn't exactly a lie. Last nights "dream" had been more peaceful than the others. There was no need to worry Tomoyo with such a minor dream.
"Well that's good!" Tomoyo exclaimed. "Would you like to go out tonight? We could grab a bite to eat or something after work?" Tomoyo suggested.
"Actually my cabinets are kind of bare… I think I need to go food shopping." Sakura answered deciding it wouldn't do her any good to have no food in the house. After all Kero was back and he had to have his meals. She was lucky she was able to find even the pancake mix for his breakfast. That had been a manage miracle in itself.
"Oh ok well I'm glad you've finally decided to get some food! God knows you need it. I guess we should get to work." Tomoyo stated as a few customers came in. Sakura nodded as the two went about their work.
The rest of the day was proven to be hard work for both Sakura and Tomoyo. Blinkers seem to be busy morning, afternoon, and night, no breaks at all. Tomoyo sighed flipping her cell phone on. She dialed Chris's number waiting for a reply from the other side.
"Moshi moshi." She heard Chris's voice greet. She smiled inwardly thinking of her boyfriend.
"Hey Chris! You know we aren't in
"I know but you're the only one who usually calls my cell, and I kinda like it." Chris teased.
"Hmm I've missed you… How about we get together tonight?" Tomoyo suggested.
"Sounds great to me!"
"You don't happen to need any groceries do you?" Tomoyo asked an evil glint in her eyes.
"Umm no not really I've got a lot of foo…"
"GOOD! Send Shaoran out to get you some! I'm sure he won't mind since your letting him stay there free of charge." Tomoyo exclaimed. Chris sat puzzled for a minute tell he caught the hint in her voice.
"Oh I see Sakura must be food shopping." Chris chuckled from the other side.
"It's perfect!" Tomoyo stated excitedly.
"Yea I suppose…. And we can have the place to ourselves!"
"Well I wanted to you know tag along…. Without notice." Tomoyo stated pouting a bit. Although a nice quiet evening with her love did indeed sound enticing.
"Come on if you set it up right… which you will… It will be sure fire and you won't have to be there. We haven't had much alone time!" Chris explained. Tomoyo sighed knowing this was one battle she was not going to win.
"Alright! But make sure Shaoran goes now! I know for a fact Sakura is going from here."
"Of course my love, see you in a few goodbye."
"Bye!"
Chris hung up his phone and turned around to his roommate. Xiao Lang stared at him not liking the look he was receiving.
"What?!" He demanded as Chris just stared at him.
"Tomoyo is coming over…. And we want to be ALONE." Chris stated.
"Oh umm…."
"And we need some food so I was thinking you could go to the grocery store you know stay for a while make yourself scarce!"
"Well I could just…"
"I know you'd agree thanks a lot man!" Chris interrupted shoving Shaoran out the door. "Its not far only bout a minutes walk! But take your time go see a movie afterwards or something!" Chris exclaimed from behind the locked door.
"Guess I'm going to the grocery store." Xiao Lang muttered. He sighed heading toward the direction which he thought the grocery store was in.
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Sakura walked around the store aimlessly. She was more exhausted than usually. Acting as if nothing was wrong was more tiring than she had first thought. Nothing really seemed appetizing to her so she just threw in stuff for Kero. Sakura rubbed her eyes trying to get them to focus. Things where becoming considerable blurry.
"What's wrong with me?" She asked rubbing her temples. A splitting head ache was raging threw her. She studied herself on one of the stands so she wouldn't fall over.
"Are you alright?" A voice questioned from behind her. Startled she dropped her basket which held her food in it. She felt steady hands grip her shoulders so she would not lose her balance.
"Yeah I'm ok." She replied not wanting the man to worry. She looked up to be greeted with amazing amber eyes. They made her knees want to give way but she managed to keep herself up. Of course with the help of his hands on her.
"You don't look ok." He replied she almost sensed worry in his tone but dismissed it. After all he was a doctor that was his job. Even if he did happen to be interesting in her that way she could never pursue it…. ~Why?!?!~ Her inner voice screamed at her wanting her to jump the guy and kiss him. She again managed to resist the urge. ~Why do I feel this way whenever he's around?~ She questioned herself. ~Duuuh~ The voice replied annoyed. She sighed deciding she had finally gone off the deep in. Shaoran was staring at her in concern her obvious lack of words had worried him even more.
"Look I'm fine just tired." Sakura stated pushing his hands away from her. The spot where they had been tingled in desire, screaming to be held again. Shaoran nodded although not quite believing her. She still looked like she could faint at any moment. ~God she's beautiful~ Xiao Lang thought taking in her image once more. ~Stop that she obviously isn't well. Don't just stand here and stare at her for god sakes!~ He scolded himself.
"Let me help you with this stuff." Shaoran stated picking up the contents which had been dropped. Sakura stared at him dumbfounded while he picked her stuff up. "I'm sorry I didn't me to startle you." He apologized after cleaning up the food.
"It's not your fault… Thank you." With that she turned around ready to walk away. She couldn't stand being with him another minute. He had this effect on her that no other did. He seemed to seep throw her highly devised shields with just one glance of his eyes.
Xiao Lang quickly grabbed her wrist before she could get too far.
"Are you sure you're ok? You looked like you where going to faint." Xiao Lang asked worriedly not liking the idea of her being alone.
"Of course I'm fine!" Sakura replied coldly pulling her wrist away. She was so tired shopping hadn't been the best idea. All she wanted to do now was go home and go to bed. Xiao Lang put his had to her forehead and frowned.
"You have a fever Sakura…. And a high one at that… I should take you to the hospital." Xiao Lang stated whipping away a piece of honey brown hair that clung to her face. She shuttered at the feeling of his fingers gently brushing against her skin. ~Oh god how can I feel this way after only meeting him twice!!! I've got to get rid of him! He's going to destroy me…. No I'll destroy him.~ She thought sadly.
"I WILL NOT GO TO A HOSPITAL! NEVER! EVER!" Sakura exclaimed tears glittered in her eyes. Painful memories flashed throw her mind. She would never step foot in a hospital again. She had lost Syaoran in a hospital, lost her whole life.
Xiao Lang was taken back by the look in her eyes. It was as if she where scared of something. Well she obviously didn't like hospitals for one reason or another. He could tell by that look that there was no way to get her to one. Still her fever was high he knew and he was afraid she had some kind of viral infection that had been going around.
"Alright no hospital." Xiao Lang sighed in defeat. "But I am going to at least walk you home!" He stated forcefully leaving no room for argument. She was about to protest but knew he wouldn't back down.
"Fine suit yourself." She stated walking out of the store. Her food was left on the floor where Xiao Lang had picked them up. He sighed placing his down knowing he wouldn't have time to pay for them, not with her quickly retreating figure. Chris would have to get his own food sometime. He hoped he wouldn't be too mad, but this was more important.
Sakura walked hurriedly trying to get ahead of Shaoran. He had caught up to her a while back and was matching her pace perfectly. No matter what speed she went at he seem to follow right along. She cursed mentally for not arguing with him before. She should have never just let him come along without a fight. He wasn't suppose to walk her home. He was suppose to get mad at her and never speak to her again. Obviously that plan hadn't succeeded. She was quickly growing tired from walking so much. She probably should have taken the car but it had been such a nice day out. Sakura suddenly stopped her eyes beginning to lose focus once again. Shaoran stared at her in concern as she leaned heavily against a wall.
"Sakura?!" He questioned hesitantly. He really didn't want to upset her anymore than he had. He knew she hadn't been comfortable with him following her home. Yet he wasn't going to leave her in this condition.
"I don't feel so good." Sakura mumbled as her body gave way letting gravity take her down. Xiao Lang caught her though before she could hit the ground.
"Sakura?!?" He exclaimed panic rising up in his voice. He couldn't lose her not again… again??
~~LeoAngel~~
