Author's Notes: I'm back!!! *sobs* no don't all run away from me!! *sobs* I'm not that scary… coughs well most of the time… heee hope you enjoy this part… and thanks to all who reviewed last time! ^ ^ please do again!
"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul."
Judy Garland
Sakura yawned sleepily as she woke up from a blissful night of sleep. For once she hadn't waken up from a nightmare or from the need to vomit. She sighed happily nuzzling her cheek against Syaoran's bare muscular chest.
"How are you feeling?" Syaoran questioned behind a yawn as his eyes fluttered open. He swept gentle fingers into her honey brown hair twisting one of the strands around her finger.
"Ok… though I haven't eaten yet." Sakura stated enjoying the feel of Syaoran playing with her hair.
"Do you think you can try eating something?" Syaoran asked pulling her body towards his. Sakura purred lightly as their legs intertwined, body heat flowing from one another. Syaoran gently kissed the top of her forehead while pushing back stray strands of hair.
"I don't know…" Sakura sighed lightly wishing she could eat something. She knew it would ease Syaoran's tension, but she was just afraid it would come back up. Nothing would stay down and she knew this would only worry him more. Sakura pushed back the silent tears that almost overflowed from her eyes. She wasn't going to cry from here on out no matter what was happening, she knew it only upset Syaoran, and that was something she had done way to much.
"Its ok… the doctor will find what's wrong and give you some antibiotics and than everything will be fine. I'm sure it's just some sort of stomach flu that's going around." Syaoran stated giving a small smile to the young woman in his arms. Anybody who knew Syaoran and had seen him happy, though could tell that this was plainly obvious a forced smile. Sakura wasn't sure if he was trying to convince herself of this outcome or himself, she shook her head lightly deciding that the answer was probably both.
"Hopefully." She mumbled lightly into his chest. The words were said so softly that Syaoran barely caught them, but he had defiantly heard the lack of hope in her strained words.
"Everything WILL be ok… We've been through a lot… nothing can stop us ne?" Syaoran stated more forcefully putting his soft hands on her cheek. Sakura stared into his eyes seeing the despair, pain, hope, and above all love in his eyes. She knew that he needed to know everything would be ok… but the fact of the matter was, she didn't know, not yet at least. Sakura didn't want to give him false hope, but she certainly didn't want him to fall into depression either.
"We'll get through this, one way or another." Sakura replied kissing his cheek softly. Syaoran nodded letting a real smile grace his features, Sakura letting herself lose the tension that had aroused within her body.
"We should probably get dressed… we slept pretty late and we are suppose to be at the hospital soon to get your test results." Syaoran stated glancing at the clock. Sakura nodded as Syaoran pulled himself and her out of bed. The two got dressed hurriedly as they noticed they would indeed be late. Neither bothered to grab any breakfast, Sakura for obvious reasons, and Syaoran because he didn't feel like eating alone, it just didn't feel right.
Sakura and Syaoran sat in the parking lot of the Hospital, neither moving. Neither was ready to face something that could be so life altering.
"What if it's not just stomach flu?" Syaoran whispered softly blinking his eyes lightly as if the thought just crossed his mind. Sakura knew that the fact hadn't just now crossed his mind though, but rather had been pushed to the very back where he could possible forget about it. "I love you so much…" Syaoran let the statement lie in the heavily filled air. Sakura brushed her hand lightly against Syaoran's, after a few moments she more firmly grasped her lovers hand in hopes of giving him a little reassurance. She hadn't trusted her voice at a time like this, not when she was struggling with tears of her own.
"Let's go in…" Sakura stated opening the car door. Syaoran followed wrapping his arms around her waist as they slowly walked to the hospital entrance. "It will be alright don't worry Syao-chan." She whispered kissing him softly on the lips.
The two entered and were immediately told to relax in the waiting room; the doctor would be with them when he was done with his other patient. Instead of sitting Syaoran went to the task of pacing while Sakura watched him silently. It felt like an eternity tell the doctor finally arrived carrying a yellowish folder. Syaoran nodded his face was grim and dreading, knowing that the worst part of a doctor's job was telling the patient that they were terminally ill made Syaoran even more anxious.
"Ms. Kinomoto how are you feeling today?" The doctor asked pushing up his glasses in thought.
"Not to bad." Sakura replied.
"Have you eaten anything?" Sakura only shook her head to the comment.
"Did you get the tests back yet?" Syaoran asked getting right to the point, he didn't want to have to wait any longer. Not knowing was the worst part of having to deal with something like this.
"Yes I have…" When the doctor didn't continue Syaoran's panic rose a bit more. The doctor sighed half heartily flipping open the folder. "I'm afraid Sakura has gastric cancer, also known as stomach cancer."
"Cancer…?" Syaoran ask downfounded as he fell back into his chair. Sakura instantly seeked out the warmth and comfort of his hand.
"I'm afraid so…"
"What's the cause of it… and can it be treated?" Sakura asked surprisingly keeping quite calm about the information.
"There is no one cause of it, and sometimes these things just happen. As for treatment there are three forms surgery, radiation therapy, and chemotherapy. The stage of your cancer is unfortunately advanced and your only choice of treatment would be the surgery." The doctor stated pausing so that the two could get all that information straight.
"What are the chances that I will die?" Sakura asked the question they were both dreading.
"You would need a total gastrectomy which is when the surgeon removes all of the stomach, as well as some of the tissue around the stomach. After a total gastrectomy, the doctor connects the esophagus directly to the small intestine. Because cancer can spread through the lymphatic system, lymph nodes near the tumor are often removed during surgery so that the pathologist can check them for cancer cells. If cancer cells are in the lymph nodes, the disease may have spread to other parts of the body. This surgery could go either way depending on if we get all the cancerous cells. There is a fifty percent chance you will live, and a fifty percent chance you won't. I'm truly sorry, but there is a chance that you will walk away from this completely fine, so I think it's better to stay on the bright side." The doctor tried to sound enthuastic but giving a patient such news always took a lot out of somebody.
"When does the surgery need to be done?" Sakura asked sparing a glance at Syaoran. His eyes were shut tightly and he seemed to refuse to open them. Her face twisted in worry as she held his hand even tighter.
"Soon, so that we can get it before the cancer spreads even more, but for now you two should go home and talk this over. If you have any questions at all just call me." Sakura nodded to him and the doctor left to check on other patients. Neither moved from their stops stunned from the information they had just found out.
"It's so surreal… you always hear about people dying of cancer… but you never think that it will be you, or someone you know." Sakura whispered her thoughts trying to get a bit of acknowledgement out of Syaoran besides the frantic grasp of his hand.
"You're not going to die Sakura." Syaoran stated determination flooded violently within his voice. He opened his eyes which only blazed with more resolve. "I won't let you, I love you to much."
"Oh Syaoran… I love you to." They wrapped their arms around each other in a silent promise to do whatever they could to stay together. Syaoran also made a silent promise to himself he would do everything in his power to stop this. Unfortunately sometimes love such as this isn't enough to keep the person we care most about by our side, because fate and destiny truly have a mind of their own, and their paths can never be seen by a mere mortal.
~~Sora-chan~~
More Author's Notes: Ok ok so your probably going stomach cancer… wow that's random… yes I know it is… but that is the workings of my brain… poor Sakura-chan… waaaah I'm so mean…. Ok you'll have to forgive me if the cancer information or the hospital information is completely accurate… This is all from research I've done on it!... Well thanks again for reading!
