Author's Notes: *hits computer* I lost my hard drive AGAIN!!!! Meaning I lost all my stories!!! Which I'm pissed about cause I had a part to Sinful tears done ~ ~! *Sighs* So sorry to anyone else reading my other fics… but a chapt of this story did get done… so that's good ^ ^!.... THANKS so much to everyone who helped me find that story!!!!! The one I wanted was The Guiding Star!!! Thanks a loooooooooooooooooot!!!!.... And sakurakawaiicherry I do know that all that crap is on the first few chapters… *Shrugs* didn't mean it to be but it is and I'm just too lazy to fix it… and plus its stop doing it so no harmed done. Anyways thanks for reviewing and I hope you enjoy this chapt ^ ^!

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."

Lao-Tzu

Syaoran paced the hospital waiting room like a caged animal. He would walk briskly from one side of the room, pause slightly than start the whole sequence over sick again.

"He's making me nauseas." Kero muttered from his hiding place within Tomoyo's pocketbook. He had refused to stay home at a time like this, but obviously couldn't be seen in public, so Tomoyo offered this hiding place for him.

"Syaoran, I know you are worried, we all are… but perhaps you should sit down." Tomoyo stated looking up from her book; she gently patted the seat next to her to indicate he should sit down. After her break down in front of Sakura she had quickly realized that she had to return to her natural calm and collected self, Both Sakura and Syaoran needed some of her strength which she would give to them gladly.

Syaoran sat down in the seat Tomoyo had pointed to and sighed heavily. He stared at the clock urging the minutes to pass quicker.

"Sakura is strong, we must believe in her strength that she will get through this." Tomoyo stated softly returning to her book, which she hadn't really been paying attention to. She couldn't concentrate on the words they seem to blur everytime she tried. After a few more futile attempts she placed the book down and glanced at Syaoran who had remained silent.

"God Tomoyo what if she isn't ok?" Syaoran asked barely audible, he pushed back the urging tears knowing this wasn't the time.

"Than we will have to get by, just like we promised her." Tomoyo answered truthfully. She didn't want to think about living a life without Sakura, but she couldn't ignore it.

"Its not suppose to be people we know getting these types of things… it's always so distant… no one really understands the pain tell it hits you yourself." Syaoran thought out loud trying to make sense of the world. Since he had gotten his memory back he just couldn't help but feel cheated.

"I know Syaoran… god do I know…" Tomoyo answered quietly.

"God I was robbed of a marriage with her for so long… we were going to have a child for god sakes… but than everything was taken… and now there's a high possibility that it will happen again." Syaoran sighed running a hand through his hair. He wanted to curse whatever high deity for choosing his life to screw up, but he didn't have the energy.

"Doctor!" Syaoran exclaimed jumping out of his seat. The doctor, a man in an immaculate white coat with brownish red hair and a tinge of gray came in to appearance. He sighed softly checking over his charts while walking over to Syaoran and Tomoyo.

"How is it going?" Tomoyo asked knowing that Syaoran was to nervous to ask himself.

"I'm afraid there has been a complication." The doctor stated grimly taking off his glasses and wiping them down.

"What's wrong? Oh god she's ok right? Please she's alright?!?!" Syaoran asked hurriedly panic almost taking over.

"Oh yes she's alright for now, its just we weren't able to perform the surgery yet." The doctor explained vaguely.

"Why not?" Tomoyo questioned.

"We discovered she is with child. I admit it was stupid of us not to check before hand, but it really never crossed my mind that she could be pregnant. It showed up on our last test before we started." The doctor explained tapping his pen over his clip board. Syaoran stared eyes opened wide for a few minutes trying to comprehend what the doctor just said. His limbs almost gave out on him as he fell clumsily to a chair.

"She's… she's pregnant." Syaoran whispered more to himself than to the doctor. He ran a hand through his hair trying to sooth his raging nerves even more.

Tomoyo was shocked herself quite a bit but she refused to fall apart at a time like this, she wouldn't do that again as she had promised already.

"What do we do now?" Tomoyo questioned voicing both their thoughts.

"Well we can not go through with the operation while the child is still in her. The risk is just too high; she would have to have an abortion before we could operate." The doctor stated heavily pausing so the other two could think.

"And what if she doesn't want to have an abortion?" Syaoran asked barely audible dreading the answer.

"There's a high chance that the baby won't be affected at all by this, but I must tell you there is a high risk that the pregnancy would just be too much for Sakura. It all depends on how rapidly this cancer spreads and affects her. You need to know if she waits this pregnancy out that there is less chance for the operation to work. The ultimate decision is up to Sakura herself though. We haven't told her yet; in fact she should just be waking up soon. I assume that you are the father, we figured you would want to tell her." The doctor assumed writing a few things down as Syaoran nodded slightly. "Talk it over with her than let me know your decision." The doctor added before heading in the direction of the emergency room. Tomoyo and Syaoran sat in silence for a few minutes neither knowing what to say to the other.

"I don't know whether to laugh or cry." Syaoran muttered rubbing at his eyes. "A child, god knows I've always wanted one, but at a time like this…." Syaoran drifted off not finishing the statement.

"I know… She'll want to keep it you know, despite all the odds." Tomoyo stated a fact that they both knew.

"That's what scares me." Syaoran answered he than got up deciding he would go see her now. Tomoyo stayed seated knowing the two would need a few minutes alone to discuss such a hard decision.

Syaoran walked slowly to the door that he knew Sakura was behind. He wanted a child, he really did, but not at the expensive of Sakura. He stood outside her door for a few minutes pondering what he was going to say… what could he say? He shook his head clearing his thoughts as he opened the door.

Sakura layed sprawled out on the white hospital bed, dressed in a white gown. Everything in the room was absolutely immaculate; there was something utterly eerie about a room being that clean. Sakura was still sleeping that much Syaoran could tell; he deeply studied her features frowning slightly at what he saw. Her skin was even paler than before; something he didn't quite think was possible. Somehow her body look a bit frailer which obviously made him nervous. Despite those growing factors she was still the most beautiful person he had ever layed eyes on. Her honey brown hair lightly framed her face which had a small smile on it as if she knew a secret was hidden inside her. Syaoran sighed softly as he sat down he wasn't willing to wake her up from her much needed sleep, so he gently ran his fingertips down her arms as he awaited her awakening.

Sakura sighed happily in her sleep as a light warm presence filled her. She felt warm and fuzzy all around especially near her arm. After a few minutes of trying to decide whether to end this blissful sleep or awaken she took to the latter. Her bright emerald greens eyes opened slightly trying to adjust to the blinding light of the room. She blinked dazedly not recognizing the room to be her own. The only thing she did recognize was the silent figure brushing his hands against her silky skin.

"Syaoran." She whispered gently reaching up her own hand to intertwined with Syaoran's.

"How are you feeling love?" Syaoran whispered placing a kiss to her forehead. Her smile grew brighter at the contact loving the skin on skin feel.

"Tired… but not to bad..." Sakura replied telling the truth. She was extremely tired but then again that wasn't any different than how she had been feeling for a while.

"I love you so much." Syaoran answered this time kissing her on the lips. The kiss was soft and gently but there was an under lining of need and desperation behind it, which Sakura could clearly feel. She made sure to hide her feelings of alarm from Syaoran before voicing her next question.

"What happened?" She asked knowing that something was possible wrong. Syaoran only smiled lightly at her while running his hands through her soft hair. "What is it?" She asked again urging him to answer when he had not replied.

"You're pregnant Sakura." Syaoran answered gently bringing her hand to his lips for another soft kiss. Sakura sat stunned for a few minutes not fully understanding the words that had come out of her loves mouth. She had been prepared to hear a lot of things, some worse than others, but being pregnant was certainly not one of them.

"Pregnant?" Sakura answered dumbfounded.

"Yes." Syaoran replied. A few more minutes of silence went by as Syaoran gave her some time to comprehend his news.

"Oh my god… we are going to have a baby." Sakura finally burst out a small smile forming on her face. She hugged Syaoran hardly to her kissing his cheek. When he didn't give the same enthusiastic reply she became somewhat alarmed resting back down into her pillows. "You aren't happy Syaoran?" She asked her voice coming out more afraid than she would have liked. Despite everything that had happened she was still afraid that he would leave her because of something like this. She knew it was stupid but just look at the way he was acting, he didn't seem very happy at all and that's one of the things she wanted most in life.

"Sakura…" Syaoran started already knowing the thoughts flying through her mind. "Its not that I don't want a child, because I do, god I want to be a parent with you, but it's just…. The timing Hun." Syaoran stated. Sakura's face fell immediately she had completely forgotten about her sickness, why she had truly been in the hospital.

"Oh god Syaoran is the baby in danger?" Sakura questioned frantically. "What's what's going to happen now?"

"Shhhhh." Syaoran ran his hands more through her hair in a soothing manor.

"The doctor said that there is a very good possibility that the cancer will not affect the child, but the operation can not go on while you have the child Sakura. We would have to wait nine months tell you have given birth, if you don't get an abortion, and by that time it might be to late." Syaoran explained. "Don't don't make a decision without thinking this through Sakura… please." Sakura nodded slowly listening carefully to every word Syaoran spoke. She knew by the tone of his voice which course of action he preferred.

"What… What do you want to do Sakura?" Syaoran questioned barely audible gazing at his lover. Sakura was silent before she answered, and that silence was probably the longest period in Syaoran's life so far.

TBC

I know I'm evil at stopping it there hehe ^ ^! Anyways this medical information is in no way true as far as I know. I'm too lazy to do any more research than I have so please don't review or email me saying 'that's not true!! Blah blah blah' in order for this story to work I'm making changes… cause I can do that cause I'm an author ^ ^ hehehe!!! Thank you again for reading!!!!