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Summary: After the death of his friend, Aragorn falls into depression and there may only be one person who can draw him out of it. AU Non slash.
~*Author's Notes*~ Thanks to everyone who is still reviewing. Please continue to inform me of what you think of how the story is going.
How Can I Survive
Chapter 30
"A coma? No I don't believe you! You're lying to me" Arwen shouted as she attempted to push her father and Elrohir out of the way so she could get in to the healing room. "Arwen…" Elrond said as he softly placed his hand on her arm, stopping her from moving.
"I have to see him" she yelled as she freed herself from his grip and ran into the room. She ran to the side of Aragorn's bed and grabbed his shoulders, not trying to be gentle. She began to shake him. "Wake up, you have to wake up. I'm sorry" she said as a plentiful amount of tears started to pour from her grey eyes. "Please just wake up."
Elrohir looked at his father, not sure what to do. The peredhil shook his head to show that he too wasn't sure of what actions to take.
Knowing that something had to be done, Elladan went in to the space where his sister had a moment ago entered. "Undomiel" he said as he tried to pull Arwen off of Estel. "Leave me alone" she snapped. "This isn't helping anything" he responded a little bit more firmly. She looked at him and her face was covered with fear and sorrow. She let go off Aragorn and then ran out of the room right past the other members of her kin. She continued running until she was outside.
It was late and rain was coming down heavily. Once she was at the garden she just walked letting all of her lamentation out.
"Arwen" she heard someone call her name and it wasn't either of her brothers nor her father, but it was Nessime.
The evenstar turned around to see the other elf jogging after her. "Arwen" she said again when she finally
reached her. The Mirkwood representative grabbed her arm very kindly. "He's going to live. He isn't going to die. It's alright" she said trying to be supportive. "What's the point of living when you can't even open your eyes" Arwen said as she collapsed to the ground pulling her companion down with her.
The dark haired being continued to sob. Her violet dress was soaked and covered with mud. Nessime who was now on her knees, wrapped her arms around Arwen and embraced her. She was trying her best to be encouraging, for she had never been in this kind of situation before.
"Your father is the best healer in Middle Earth and he has great helpers including your brother. They will make sure that Aragorn will see light again. They will not let him be alive, but in an eternal sleep" she said as she drew away. "Even if you're right and he does wake up, he'll hate me. He was telling me the truth and I didn't believe him. No, instead I yelled at him and I punched him" the evenstar said, her words were filled with self loathing and hate of her actions.
"It's not your fault about what happened. He won't hate you, he loves you and nothing will ever change that" Nessime replied. "The person to blame is not you, but Ireth" she finished. Arwen wiped away the drips of water that were collecting on her porcelain face, though it wasn't clear wheter they were her tears or the rain. It was falling so hard and the two females didn't have any cover from it. Nessime's golden hair was drenched as her green gown.
"I would love to think like that but I can't" Undomiel said earning her a confused stare. "She's right. I should think more of other people. I am selfish and I deserve to be hurt."
"Arwen -"
"No it's true. If I wasn't self-centred I would have listened to Estel as a replacement for inflicting pain upon him. Undeserving pain at that. No I thought of myself first and of how I felt instead of giving him a chance to explain." she concluded, mentally smacking herself across her head for her stupidity.
"You did let him explain. And from what it looked like, it appeared as if he was lying. The only way you would've known was if Ireth told you the truth, which she didn't" Nessime shot back. The last thing she wanted was for Ireth to go off without any punishment. "I can not blame Ireth, I don't feel that it's her fault. Therefore it wouldn't be moral" Arwen said shaking off that suggestion.
"I don't believe you just said that. Of course she's to blame. Do you not recall that she is the one who kissed the man that you loved to prove something that wasn't even true? Letting her free without any type of punishment, that isn't moral" Nessime nearly shouted as she stood up from the ground. The evenstar followed her movements. She was extremely surprised that this visitor took this matter very much to heart.
"There is no need for you to get angry. This is my decision and I have made up my mind. Why do you even care anyway?" she asked. Nessime covered her face. She thought that somehow her shame and her guilt would be visible on her features and that was a risk that she was unwilling to take. "I care because I made a choice to. It means a lot to me that justice is always served" the Mirkwood elf lied.
She couldn't say the real reason that she wanted Ireth to have a burden of trouble laid on her shoulders. She couldn't actually say that the only reason this mattered to her was because she didn't want anyone to find out about her past.
"Well I am sorry then that my views are different than yours, but I will not change what I have settled on. I do not believe that Ireth needs to pay for anything. I think she was right, maybe not in her actions but in her reason to execute her them."
Nessime was infuriated by this. Not just because now there was a chance that her secret may be revealed but by the fact that it seemed like Arwen had no self love or respect for herself. However she wouldn't say anything because she didn't want to look any more suspicious than she already did.
"Alright fine. I may not agree with your decision but I will support you in it" she responded. "Thank you" was the reply that she received.
Sorry this chapter was really short but don't worry the next one will be longer! Please continue to review. Oh and I have an idea for a story to write when this one is done. What do you think of this summary?
"A brother and a sister go in search of a new life, what they find is Middle Earth"
Do you think that it would be good? Anyway let me know what you think. Pretty please with sugar on top! Thanks!!
~*Judy Greenleaf*~
