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Duo lay coldly on the bed, shivering slightly. He had woken up in the early morning from the stinging pain in his stomach. He had been dreaming about a conversation he had been having with Commander Shar, and it had frightened him. He remembered, and wasn't sure if he had wanted to or not.
It had been from the day he had woken up in Shar's office. The conversation had been about his job, what he did for a living.
Why do you fight, Duo? Why do you pilot a gundam?
I pilot a gundam for the good of the people, the colonists of this world. I pilot to save them and their families. I fight you guys for all the pain you have caused on others, all the merciless deaths that happened because of your soldiers..... He had told her.
I realize that Oz soldiers have slaughtered civilians in the past without any reason whatsoever. I know they kill for the smell of blood, for the torture of others. But not all of them are like that, are they? Some understand, because they are civilians too. They want to do this for the good of the colonies as well, but who is right? Are you, the gundam pilots, right in your decisions for a better tomorrow, or are Oz? Everyone dies, and all soldiers dying here are dying because they think they are doing what is right..... She had replied.
Choices of opinions..... Is that really the reason why there are so many meaningless deaths? Because they are doing what they think is right..... This is why I have killed them, because I find myself of higher status...... Because I think that I am right, and they could never be.... Is this really so? Is this really why I kill?
It's up to you, Duo. You must think for yourself in situations like this. You must decide for yourself why you do what you do, and you cannot let others influence your decisions.
Do I fight for honor? Justice? Because I think these soldiers are fighting for the wrong cause because that's what was told to me? Do I fight because I.... I love to watch others suffer....die? I fight for my past, I fight for the church.
Are you, though? Do you really think that your loved ones would really want you to kill for their sake?
.....No, no, they wouldn't. They would tell me that it's wrong, that it's sinful....... I killed for them; something that Father would have never wanted..... Why did I do it.....?
Why do fight, Duo? Why do you pilot a gundam?
I don't know, please, I don't know. Just don't ask me that, just don't....!
Duo rolled over on the stiff bed, and closed his eyes, trying to forget that conversation, and the others like it, that he had had that fateful day.
I kill.....by my choice......
As a tear for every soldier dead because of him streaked down his cheek, staining his eyes red, he tried to forget everything about this war, his war, that had been bloody and murderous.
Peach: How ya'll like? We have another chapter getting ready, so be prepared! Please review, and as always, thanks a million for reading! I'm very sorry if this chapter was too short, but it's needed for the next bits^_^
