Waiting For You
Disclaimer! Rurouni Kenshin doesn't belong to me, but to Nobuhiro Watsuki. Darn, maybe some day ^_^x
And without further ado: Waiting for you!
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I watch the temple high up in this sakura tree. You do not know this, but sometimes I'll wake up earlier than you, while it is still dark outside. And I come to this very sakura and wait. Wait for you to come to the temple. I wait. Just so I can see you
Just so I can see your long black bangs. Those long black bangs that cover your ice blue eyes. One filled with sadness, regret, melancholy, and most of all: guilt.
There's no need to be guilty. Kaoru told me what had happened at Kanryuu's estate. Hanya, Beshimi, Hyotoyko, Shirkiju. Their whole life was the Oniwanbanshuu. Just like my whole life is you.
I know you feel as if you should have dies. But if you had died, I would have too. If you had died, I would have known. No matter the distance between us. I would have felt it in my heart. Like someone had pricked me with a needle.
Sometimes I wonder. Do you even know of my feelings? Did you dismiss it as a childhoos infatuation? I am not a child anymore. I have grown into a young woman while you were away. My so-called 'childhood infatuation grew into a real love. A real love like the way a woman loves a man. A real love like the way I love you.
Nine months have passed since the Jupongatana incident. Nine months have passed since you returned to me. Nine months you have been to the temple, day in, day out. Nine months I have brought you tea and dinner, day in, day out.
And I wonder. Do you even appreciate me? If I came just to see you, no tea nor dinner, would you mind? Or would you send me away. Or would you finally say something to me? If I did not come at all, would you even notice?
If I did not come at all, would you miss me?
I fi did not come at all, would you be happy?
Would you think to yourself, 'finally that annoying weasal girls has gotton the point and stopped bothering me.'?
Am I just an annoying weasal girl to you?
Am I just a bother to you?
Am I even your friend?
Or am I just someone you loathe and despise.
Doubts like these cloud my mind, constantly. Afterall, it's impossible to understand you.
It's impossible to understand the mind of a man who is so troubled, yet refuses help.
You isolate yourself.
Away from your friends and loved ones.
Away from me.
I'll never understand why you do these things.
But until the day you finally open up to me, I'll wait.
I'll wait, sitting on this very sakure in hopes that one day you'll see the light.
Hoping you'll see the light and come back to me.
And so I sit here.
Waiting . . .
Watching . . .
Hoping . . .
for you.
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A/N: Wahh! so sad! Major angst, but I still liked writing it. just an idea I had and it only took me an hour to write it. So what did you think? I dunno, I might write a sequel to it, in Aoshi's POV. I just love A/M! It's fun exploring the depths of characters. And I just noticed, but this is my first non-A/U fic! But for A/M lovers, I'm working on a new A/M story!
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