A/n : just a short letter thingy , not my best work , but yeah , please r/r and let me know if you would like a companion piece for it , I have the idea in my mind , so you just give me a shout and I'll write it :)

Goodbye

Just because people said it was wrong, didn't stop me from doing what I wanted to do, Heck I'd do anything to numb my feelings, just like after Dad died and I turned to drinking. So what you did to me, what would that classify under?. Heartbreak? Rejection?. Fear? The last one is more of a reason, but that's what holds it all together, fear. The things I made you feel scared you.

Good grief, you're a male, are you blokes suppose to be like that, if my dad would have known you ...., well I won't dwell on that, I'll dwell on now. When you read this you'll probably think I've run off somewhere and killed myself. I might think you'd deserve that guilt, I would feel that If I didn't love you. How Could I not love you after you had helped me, despite what other people might think or even say things such as that I'm emotionally attached to you and that I rely on you, Well I don't rely on anyone and if you know me as well as you claim to, you would already know this. Why do I love you then? Cause we are so alike. And because you're the only person I can trust on this entire earth.

We were meant for each other, we need each other, it seems like we are the only single people in the Bay, and we are, well now you'll be on you own with that.

Don't worry about where I'm going, not even I know.

But I'll be alive ok...

I may do stupid things, but I won't do two things, and that's killing myself or going back to drinking.

Those I promise you.

Please know that I love you.

It feels so nice to say that and I'm not one to say it to many people. I haven't said it to Scott and Mum for years. but your different , so even if it is only on paper, it means something and maybe one day I can say it to you out loud.

But that'll be when you're ready.

Thanks for everything and thanks for nothing,

Goodbye Noah,
Kit