I don't know if I'll feel better. The thing is, I know I will in a few weeks, like during dance recital. I always feel better then^.^ But until then, I'm gonna feel depressed. But I can't be at school. There's too many people counting on me to be happy, so I'll try my best. Writing always makes me feel better, so here I am. Yup. Wish me luck.
And for those who have guessed, yes! Yoka, if you haven't figured it out, is…ha! Those who've guessed are correct, but I won't say it…even though you probably all already know.
NOTE: I went back and added in the next few lyrics to "I Remember" during the Yoka part. Just in case you wanted to go back and read it…
Disclaimer: I'm still broke, and when I do get more money, I will buy either a CD case or more small jewel cases. I'm not sure which. It'll probably be the first. Well, I don't own Inuyasha, so don't bug me about it^.^
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*A slip in fate has no time certainty. It can last for hours or a few minutes. It depends on the event. Strange things can happen during a slip. Things you never thought possible could easily appear before you. During a slip, no one can die, and if their death caused it, then they can be saved. A shattered soul can be healed with the help of friends. Destiny is the prime factor in a slip of fate, but it's hard for the paths to cross so that it forms. A slip will never last forever though. Fate doesn't take that long to rearrange itself. Life will continue and no one will ever know there was a slip. People live in ignorance because thinking about these things often just leaves you confused and depressed. It's not worth it, but some would rather understand the strange links. And the link between fate, destiny, and life is one of the hardest there is. And about those slips…how do we know when one happens? We don't, so we have to live our lives as if we have control constantly. Because if we don't, we may miss out on something…something important.*
"Houshi-sama!" shouted Sango as his body lay limp on the ground. Her and Kagome turned him over so that he was on his back. His eyes were closed and he wasn't breathing. "Houshi-sama…wake up! Onegai! Get up!" She shook him, but he wouldn't open his eyes. 'Oh Kami-sama…this is just like my dream…my first dream when this all started. Iya…'
"Iya!" she cried as she slumped next to him, her shoulders slouched and her head down. "Houshi-sama."
'Sango-sama!' shouted Yume. Sango lifted her head and looked around.
"Yume," she whispered.
'Hai, Sango-sama. Don't give up."
"Nani?"
"Sango-chan…where is that voice coming from?" asked Kagome.
"You can hear it?" asked Sango. Kagome, Inuyasha, and Shippo all nodded.
'All of you, listen closely. There's a way to save him, demo…it won't be easy. Not in the least.'
"We'll do it," answered Sango.
'Sango-sama. I will have to transport all of you into his soul. It's a risky procedure, but you'll have to save him from inside. His soul was shattered. I will warn you, though, it's possible that he could still die…and that all of you could as well. Everything you see in there will be real, so don't underestimate any of it. That, and it's possible that when he comes to…he'll be different.'
"Different? How?"
'He will know what happened. He may be the opposite of what he is now. He may lose his memory, his emotions. He may lose everything about himself.'
"I don't care. Having him here, even if he's different, is better than not having him at all."
'Very well. Those of you who will be going, you need to place your hands on him.'
"So…who's…" But Sango never got the chance to finish. Inuyasha, Kagome, and Shippo were already next to her.
"We're all going," said Kagome. "Miroku-sama means a lot to all of us."
"We're not going to leave him," added Shippo.
"There's still some things I gotta chew him out for," said Inuyasha, but they all knew he wanted to save Miroku for the same reasons they did. Miroku was their friend and they weren't about to leave him.
"Kirara," said Sango. The small neko looked up at its owner. "I need you to stay here and watch over Houshi-sama. Make sure no youkai get through, alright?" Kirara mewed as if to say "you can count on me". She transformed and sat down on the trail, looking for youkai. Sango smiled.
"Yume, we're ready," announced Sango.
'Good. Reach out to him and I'll do the rest.' They all nodded and reached out their hands. In a flash of light, they were all gone.
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"Where are we?" asked Kagome. The area they were in was a swirl of purple colors. They seemed to be standing on solid ground, but they couldn't see it. It was just a swirl of purple fog, all different shades of purple.
'This is his soul. It was shattered. It's up to all of you to piece it back together. He's struggling right now. There isn't much time. You have to hurry, or he will disappear. His soul will give up and move on. Then there will be no way to save him."
"Right. Let's get going," said Sango.
'I'm afraid I can't help you anymore. I have to go. Good luck to you.'
"Sayonara, Yume."
'Sayonara.' And with that, her presence left.
"What should we do?" asked Shippo.
"We should split up," suggested Inuyasha as he received some questioning looks. "Think about it. We don't have much time. If we split up, we can cover more ground and save him." They all nodded.
"Then let's get going," said Kagome. They all turned away and began to walk in different directions, seeing if they would be able to find stuff. The purple fog soon engulfed all of them, sending each one into a different part of his soul.
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"There are four parts to a soul," said Yume to herself. "Just like the Shikon no Tama."
"Yume," said Cycil, walking up to the dream weaver.
"Hai?"
"What can they accomplish by going into his soul?"
"Cycil. Let me tell you a story." Cycil simply nodded, so Yume continued. "The Shikon no Tama is composed of four souls. Arami-tama, Nigimi-tama, Kushimi-tama, and Sakimi-tama. They are in charge of courage, friendship, wisdom, and love. It is believed that the soul of a human is also made up of four parts. These four parts can be described as Kokoro."
"Kokoro?"
"Mind, heart, spirit, and will."
"What else?"
"That's all there is to the story. They will have to complete each part to save him. His soul is suffering to piece itself back together, but it can't. His friends will have to heal him. It won't be easy, on account that they don't know just what they have to do. I hope they succeed."
"Is the slip still going?"
"Hai. I don't know how long it will take to finish. They have until the slip disappears. The gateway to his soul will close then and they will all die. I don't want that to happen."
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Kagome was walking through black mist, not sure as to where she was going. 'Everything in here is real.' She kept repeating Yume's words. She couldn't take anything lightly here. She had to be careful.
"The soul is composed of four parts," said Miroku. Kagome stopped walking and looked around.
"Miroku-sama?" she questioned to the darkness.
"Mind, heart, spirit, and will. These make up the human soul."
"Miroku-sama!" shouted Kagome, but he didn't speak again. "Four parts," repeated Kagome. "Which one am I at?" She kept walking and ended up in a forest.
"Iya!" shouted Miroku. Kagome began to run towards his voice. She found herself in a clearing. The mist was heavy and the forest was dark.
"Where am I?" asked Kagome.
"It can't be," said Miroku.
"Miroku-sama?" She walked further in and found where Miroku was. He was on his hands and knees, his head low. There were figures on the ground in front of him. Kagome gasped when she recognized the figures. It was them.
"Iya," sobbed Miroku. He was crying. The collective and calm Miroku was crying.
"Miroku-sama," said Kagome softly. He gasped and turned around to face her.
"K-kagome-sama," he said in shock. "Demo…you…"
"It's alright, Miroku-sama. I'm not…dead."
"But I watched you die. I watched all of you…die. You were killed…because of me."
"Nani?" she questioned. Miroku lifted his cursed hand and showed Kagome. He had ripped it again.
"You all died trying to save me…trying to protect me. I'm nothing but a…burden to all of you."
"That's not true. You're not a burden; you're our friend. We care about you, just like you care about us."
"I don't think I…should travel with you anymore. I'll end up causing your deaths. I'm just…worthless."
"Miroku-sama, stop that! You're not worthless. Why don't you understand? You're always risking your life to help us. There have even been times where you've come close to dying on us. Do you think you're the only one allowed to do that? We care about you too, you know. We're willing to give it up for you. It's what friends do."
"…"
"And no matter what you do, we'll stay with you. If you leave, we'll just track you down. There's no way you can get away from us," Kagome said while smiling. Miroku looked up at her and gave a small smile. "Now let's get going, Miroku-sama." Miroku simply nodded as Kagome reached out her hand. He grabbed it and she helped him up. They walked off into the fog. 'Miroku's heart has been saved. I hope the others are okay,' thought Kagome. They soon disappeared into the fog.
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"Just what happens when a soul shatters?" asked Cycil.
"It falls apart. Every doubt, pain, fear, and contemplation he has ever had is roaming around, trying to find its way back, but it can't. That's impossible."
"Doushite?"
"Because Miroku-sama has pushed them all back. What they will see has either happened or it hasn't. The heart will most likely be something that hasn't happened. It will be his fear. The mind will be something that might have happened if he had chosen it. That will be his contemplation. The will will be something that could happen in the future. That will be his doubt. And the spirit will be something that has happened. That will be his pain."
"I'm not sure I understand. Why are the only things in him negative?"
"Because when a soul shatters, the emotions switch. All of his positive emotions are being overwhelmed by the negative ones. He can't heal from his pain. The soul will never heal from being shattered unless someone can change the negatives into the positives. They have to show him that everything has a shadow, an opposite. Of doubt, there is hope; of pain, there is tranquility; of fear, there is courage; of contemplation, there is decision. Each with an opposite and each with the ability to change."
"Yume. All of this isn't helping, you know. It's just more confusing."
"I'm trying Cycil, but it's so difficult to explain. To me, it all makes sense, but I know it will take a while. Soul shattering isn't something that happens often. That's why there was a slip."
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"Where am I?" asked Shippo. He was walking through the fog, looking for anything that might give him a clue as to where he was. He stopped upon hearing something in the distance. It sounded like grass crunching under someone's feet.
"Miroku?" asked Shippo.
"There are four parts to the human soul."
"Miroku! I hear your voice, but where are you?"
"Mind, heart, spirit, and will. The heart has been saved."
"I don't get it." Suddenly, the scene changed to one of a beautiful field. A young boy was walking through it. "Wait a minute," said Shippo. "That looks like Miroku, but he's younger." Shippo began to follow Miroku into a town. The little Miroku walked into the town and towards a store, but he was stopped by a bunch of kids.
"Oi, Miroku," said one of them. They were older than he was.
"Please move," said Miroku.
"Oh, I bet you think that because your father is a houshi that you're something special."
"I said please move. I'm in a hurry." The little Miroku was shoved to the ground by the older boys. He soon received a punch to the face and a few kicks.
"Oi!" shouted Shippo. He jumped in front of the little Miroku. "Leave him alone. He didn't do anything to you."
"Oh? What are you supposed to be?"
"I'm a kitsune, and you better leave or I'll make you."
"What can you do?"
"Kitsune-bi!" shouted Shippo. The grass next to them burst into blue flames. The kids looked nervous. Shippo looked on bravely. "I won't miss next time." The boys soon scattered, heading back into their houses.
"Are you okay?" asked Shippo. The little Miroku picked himself up.
"I don't need help," he said in a quiet voice.
"But they were picking on you."
"I don't care." Shippo looked at the kid in front of him. Yep. He was definitely Miroku. He had the same hair and eyes. He was carrying a bag with him.
"What's in there?" asked Shippo.
"It's nothing," said Miroku.
"Are you…running away or something?" The little Miroku just looked down at the ground.
"Hai."
"Doushite?"
"Because I don't want to stay at the temple anymore. Dad has been ignoring me and acting strangely, and Mushin-sama has been acting strange too. I don't like it, and I'm sick of being ignored, so I'm leaving."
"But don't you love them?"
"Of course I do, demo…"
"Then you should go back."
"Demo…"
"No buts Miroku. You should go back. They're your family."
"I know, but they don't love me."
"That's not true. They do love you, even if they don't show it. Your father may be ignoring you, but he still loves you. You're his only son and he'd do anything for you. You should spend as much time with him as possible." Shippo knew. Miroku wouldn't have much time left with his father. But was this really a memory? Was Miroku really going to run away from his father and Mushin? Or had he only considered it at one time? It was slightly confusing. Were the things they saw really real, or were they only physically real and not memory related? Or maybe these were the different emotions he was dealing with, all the things he regretted, missed, everything he refused to talk about. It was confusing. Miroku didn't seem to know that his father was going to die soon.
"I guess…you're right. Arigatou. I'm going to go back to the temple. Mushin-sama was going to take me somewhere tonight so that my father can have some time to himself. Well, I'll be heading back. Sayonara!" And with that, Miroku ran off happily to go see his family.
"Poor Miroku. He doesn't realize his father will die soon," said Shippo as the scene faded back to the fog.
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I was gonna do all the scenarios in one chapter, but as you can see, it's already pretty long the way it is. So I'll just get started on the next chapter and put it up soon. Okay?
Did I ever tell you guys who I had gotten on the Inuyasha Character Tests? I can't remember is I did or not.
Um…there really aren't any words to define this time.
Ja ne!
