Chapter 5 - the light, the crash… and the light is still there

I went to the church for a while, got to know the people, and learned many great things. Many of these great learning experiences were taught to me by the church's youth pastor and the church's secretary, who helped him. I became very close to them and the many valuable lessons they taught me. This was when I REALLY started to believe. But then, something very unfortunate happened . . .

I was at a chorus concert, of some type of concert at school that night. My mom waited till after the concert to tell me the bad news.

"Go change, and then come in here, I have to tell you some bad news," she said in a sad, sorrowful voice.

So, I went and got changed. I had been looking forward to my big bowl fo ice cream for dessert, but a feeling in the pit of my stomach told me that I wasn't going to want it after I heard the bad news.

But, I went and got in my pajamas, got my ice cream, and hopped onto my mom's bed, where both she and my step dad were sitting.

"I don't know how to tell you this," she said. "Someone you are very close to you won't be in your life anymore."

"Okay, who died, what's going on? One of my friends? Someone from church?"

At that last part, the one about church, my mom's face suddenly got really sad.

"No… him, right?" I asked.

"Yes, its about him," she said.

"He couldn't have …but …what?"

"He had to leave. He will no longer be the youth pastor at your church."

I put the ice cream down on the bed. I had been right, I didn't want it. At this point, my heart sank as low as it could go. I was SO angry at God. Why… how… could He do this? If He wanted me to learn about Him, and love Him, why would He do this?

So, I prayed. Continued to ask questions like, "Will I ever see him again?" and many more. The secretary had left to, because of many reasons. The anger subsided when I learned that I would be able to se them again. God had made it possible!

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