Part 4- Hermione

How long have I been in this storm? So overwhelmed by the oceans shapeless form Waters getting harder to tread With these waves crashing over my head

I honestly can't say that Hogwarts was all bad. Aside from the put- downs and the evil lurking, it was a magical place, no pun intended. I know I'm only in my 5th year, but I just have this feeling that something is going to happen.
It's probably because that's what I'm used to. Growing up differently than my friends, in a whole other world they would never understand. And Harry and Ron, try as they might, never managed to make any of it much easier. I wasn't such of a bookworm at normal school. I was popular and fun. I kind of shifted as I aged. It was just easier to hide in the shadows. If I could just see you Everything would be alright If I could see you This darkness would turn to light
I often pined for my old life while I was in school. I wanted to share the spotlight with Harry. I didn't want to be the girl who figured everything out and took no credit. I wanted to fight the battle from the inside.
Many people might call me crazy for wanting such a thing, but if they got inside my head they would know. I just wanted to be different instead of living in my bubble of books and homework. It got so tiring. I wanted to be like the other Gryffindors, happy and smiling and popular. On occasion, I even wanted to see life as Draco, to be cold and harsh and for people to be expecting lewd comments. No one takes mine seriously.
I wish I could turn back time, but I can't; things are set in stone, but there is still that itching in the back of my head that says to me "It won't be the same for long" and I trust it. Hopefully change will come.
Hopefully it will come soon. ************************************************************* And I will walk on water And you will catch me if I fall And I will get lost into your eyes And everything will be alright And everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown So why am I ten feet under and upside down? Barely surviving has become my purpose Cuz I'm so used to living underneath the surface
When I said I wanted change to come, I didn't want the kind we got. I was so stupid in my earlier years, Voldemort being defeated for a while and all was well. When the prophets warned us of his coming back, I was delved deeper into my world of books. No one, besides Harry, and more affectionately Ron, noticed me.
Ron was so wonderful during our last year of innocence. He finally admitted he fancied me, but he said I deserved better. It may have seemed selfish, but I knew it, too. If I could just see you Everything would be alright If I see you This darkness would turn to light
Now, I regret not appreciating him. As the war got worse, he became more pulled back, especially after Harry said he would stay out of the war. I think Ron was trying to prove himself to be more than what he was. I can't blame him, but he never knew how I felt about him too. And no one ever will. And I will walk on water And you will catch me if I fall And I will get lost into your eyes And everything will be alright And everything will be alright
After I heard that Ron had died, I immediately regretted ever letting him go. Harry told me not to look back and be strong. I already told him that I was strong. I'm not weak, I can't be. No one can be weak and survive times like this.
Not long after, Harry asked me to marry him. I think I know why. We didn't really have anything left to hold onto but each other. I accepted, and we were married in the spring of the year Voldemort finally fell. Now, we must gather strength from each other to put our lives back into a solid piece. And I walk on water You will catch me if I fall And I will get lost into your eyes And everything will be alright And everything will be alright
He tells me often that everything is going to be ok. I have to believe him. What else can I believe in?