Disclaimer: I own nothing, lol. The song is 'One Sweet Day' by Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men.

Rating: Not NC-17 and not R, so don't worry about it.

Pairing: Speed/Calleigh.

Author's Note: Hey peoples! This story is supposed to be sad/sappy, but if you don't cry, I won't be offended, lol. Enjoy!

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The greatest weakness of humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're still alive.- Orlando A. Battista

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"Calleigh, are you sure you want to stay here?" Horatio asked, concerned.

"Yeah, I just need a few minutes by myself," she replied, putting on a brave front.

He nodded slowly and she gave him a quick hug before he turned and walked toward his car.

Everyone else had left a little while before, and now Calleigh stood by herself in a sea of headstones.

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Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

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She turned and walked over to one particular grave and knelt down on her knees, not caring that the fresh dirt was getting on her black dress.

She reached out her hand and traced the name carved into the new marble headstone.

'Timothy Speedle,' she spelled as her fingers followed the indents.

"Hey, Tim, it's me," she said quietly, pulling her hand back.

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Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive,

Alive

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"You know something? Life really isn't fair, is it? I mean, first you lose your best friend, and then I lose mine, and when we finally become close to eachother, God goes and screws with us again."

She sighed. After Janet had died, she had broke down one day in the lab, where Tim had found her. He drove her home and had comforted her. He opened up to her, told her about his past and the loss of his own best friend. She spilled about her past too, about dealing with her father when she was so young and how he had gotten drunk on many nights, taking it out on her and her mother. They made love for the first time that night, but they became more than lovers. They trusted eachother, more than they had ever trusted anyone else, lost best friends included. And it wasn't fair that he was gone now, too.

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And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

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It wasn't fair that a 17 year old boy had gotten drunk off his ass at a party and then got behind the wheel of a car. It wasn't fair that he had been so disoriented that he ran a red light and hit Tim's motorcycle. It wasn't fair that they boy had walked away with only a fractured wrist and Tim had died. It wasn't fair that someone once again had to be ripped out of her life.

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Darling, I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there

I took your presence for granted

But I always cared

And I miss the love we shared

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And she felt guilty. After all, Tim had been on his way to her apartment for dinner. After a heart-to-heart with Alexx, she had an epiphany and realized that she had fallen in love with Tim. After some convincing from both Alexx and Eric, she had decided to tell him. She was scared, but Eric assured her as Tim's best friend that he felt the same and that everyone could see how much he loved her by the way he looked at her, so she invited him to her apartment for dinner at 6 o'clock that night. She was going to do a very un-Calleigh-like thing and take a risk, put her heart on the line.

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And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

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She had watched her microwave clock turn to 7:13, and then stood up, frustrated. She put all the food in the fridge, mad that he didn't even have the decency to call her.

'Maybe it's for the best,' she had thought. 'If this is the way it's going to be, I'm sure as hell not going to admit my feelings to him.'

She was headed to her bedroom to change into her pajamas when her phone rang. Assuming it was Tim, she put on her best professional voice. She wasn't going to let him see how much he had upset her.

"Hello?"

"Calleigh, it's Horatio."

"Horatio? What's wrong?" she asked as she heard the tone of his voice.

He sighed and took a deep breath, "There's been an accident, Calleigh. A drunk driver hit Tim's motorcycle."

Her stomach lurched, and she felt like she was going to throw up.

"He's okay, though, right? Please tell me he's okay," she pleaded.

"I'm sorry, Cal. He didn't make it," he paused, and when she didn't respond, he continued. "He had his work ID on him, so they called me and..."

Calleigh sunk to her knees, not even hearing Horatio's words anymore.

"Hey, Calleigh, are you going to be okay? I'm needed here, but I can send Eric over--"

"I'll be fine," Calleigh said, interrupting, and turned off the phone.

She sat there in the middle of her living room floor for a few minutes, trying to stay strong and keep up her typical Calleigh front, but she still dissolved into tears.

'Tim isn't gone. He can't be gone. This is all a nightmare,' she had told herself, but she knew it was true.

She didn't know how long she sat there, crying like she'd never, ever cried before.

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Although the sun will never shine the same

I'll always look to a brighter day

Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

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And now here she was, a few days later, after managing to quit crying long enough to get out of bed and attend the funeral.

"I never got a chance to tell you something, Tim. I love you. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone. You were my rock, the one solid in my life I've always been looking for. I don't know if you felt the same, and I guess I'll never know, but I had to tell you. That's all I wanted to say," she whispered, wiping away the tears falling down her cheeks.

She stood up, reluctant to go, but right now all she wanted to do was go crawl back into bed and hide under the covers again. She knew she'd be back soon.

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And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

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Calleigh shut her apartment door and headed for her bedroom.

'Pajama time,' she thought wearily, then stopped dead in her tracks.

There on her pillow was a yellow tulip. A million thoughts rushed to her head at once.

'How did that get there? My apartment door was locked. The only people that know I like yellow tulips are my dad, who is probably in some sleazy bar right now, and Tim..."

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And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

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That's when she knew. She knew with all her heart and soul that it was from Tim. She picked it up, and for the first time in days, a smile graced her lips.

He loved her too.

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Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

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The End!