Disclaimer: I don't own YYH, Hiei, or much of anything. -_-;

Summary: Why the hec would I do a summary for a poem?

Author's note: Uhhh..another poem that popped into my head. I have writer's
block for my other Hiei story so I had to write SOMETHING to unblock the
big dark block. A little more emotional than the other one and, in my
opinion, more in character to Hiei.
PS. This is Hiei's Point of View.

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I hate my heart now. What a traitor.
How can something so weak
Inflict pain this powerful?
Now my mind is useless.
As useless as my emotions.
I hate you. I hate you, Celeste.

Do you know what this feels like?
Being constantly tortured
With every breath. Every memory.
Every thing in my numb body
Feeling nothing but this emptiness.
And know I'm the one who did this?

And do you know the worst part?
Knowing that after all I've said-
all I fuckin' done to hurt you-
You still love me. I hate you for that.
Do you hear me? Stupid fool!
I hate you for loving me.

Damn these illusions of you!
I know I did the right thing.
Breaking your heart was nothing.
You and I were not meant to be.
Destiny, fate, and love never wanted an us.
I don't love you. I've -never- loved you.

Huh? What are these? Tears?
I had never had these before.
They sting... great... another pain.
Fuck. Why haven't they stopped yet?
Stop. Please. Just make them stop.
What did I ever do to deserve this?

This is my reflection isn't it?
This..cracked image upon the mirror.
What can I say now? I can't lie.
Not anymore. Not again.
Now I'm immune to my own lies.
It didn't work this time.

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